Thursday, March 31, 2011
FOOL
Dear blog,
tomorrow is the 1st of April. April fool day and it's supposedly is the 27months. But it never did came. My love will get you home someday. I'm not waiting for anyone. People told me to keep a distance from her. But i'm somewhat the only person whom she is close with to share her problems. I want and will be there for her unconditionally even though she'll take me for granted someday.
If i cant have her, at least pray for her happiness. Its all that's left i could do for her. Hope someday she can be truly happy with the correct guy...
tomorrow is the 1st of April. April fool day and it's supposedly is the 27months. But it never did came. My love will get you home someday. I'm not waiting for anyone. People told me to keep a distance from her. But i'm somewhat the only person whom she is close with to share her problems. I want and will be there for her unconditionally even though she'll take me for granted someday.
If i cant have her, at least pray for her happiness. Its all that's left i could do for her. Hope someday she can be truly happy with the correct guy...
i know that i have loved you ... at 9:01 pm
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Wednesday, March 30, 2011
Beautiful Story
Once upon a time, there was a couple. The guy was of a higher class but never looked down of others. He came to met this girl and was deeply in love. Despite their love being rejected by everyone else, they didn't care and was deeply in love.
One day, the guy had to leave her as war broke up. The girl, presented him a sword to protect him, and shortly he left. The girl, waiting for his return pray everyday in the church in the village. She did not know the guy she loved had died in the battlefield.
When she finally got the news about her lover, she wept in front of the goddess and prayed. She prayed that she could give all her time to him. The goddess was touched and decided to grant her wish. The guy, awoken to found himself in a pool of red rose which his lover loves. He returned to the village to found out that she had sacrificed her life for him. Devastated, he prayed to return the time she gave back to her. Their love and bond touched the goddess and she decided to join their soul together.
Their time was finally given to the village they loved, and the village was promised eternal time. The village was protected for eternity and never did the villagers forget them....
One day, the guy had to leave her as war broke up. The girl, presented him a sword to protect him, and shortly he left. The girl, waiting for his return pray everyday in the church in the village. She did not know the guy she loved had died in the battlefield.
When she finally got the news about her lover, she wept in front of the goddess and prayed. She prayed that she could give all her time to him. The goddess was touched and decided to grant her wish. The guy, awoken to found himself in a pool of red rose which his lover loves. He returned to the village to found out that she had sacrificed her life for him. Devastated, he prayed to return the time she gave back to her. Their love and bond touched the goddess and she decided to join their soul together.
Their time was finally given to the village they loved, and the village was promised eternal time. The village was protected for eternity and never did the villagers forget them....
i know that i have loved you ... at 8:08 pm
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fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Plan of faith
Introduction
- Nuclear reactor getting old and unstable. Unable to supply the required needs and see the people around suffering.
Phase I
- Nuclear reactor starts to show signs of degeneration and purposely dysfunction to make a stand to keep people away from it.
- It started a series of campaigns. However, supplying the people with energy was all he could do and he couldn't bear to suddenly cut off all supplies. Therefore, everything was delayed and itself tormented just like the people do. Being hot and cold.
Phase II
- The people can no longer stay under this threat of it exploding. To harm the people themselves. The people do not understand the purpose and intentions. The nuclear reactor love the people, so it quietly let them leave.
- All the people were gone. The reactor has lost its purpose and broke down.
- The people whom left found a new reactor and decided and live with it.
Phase III
- The nuclear reactor knew eventually the people might come back or think about it as it was their homeland, so it purposely fume up poisonous gases to stop them from coming back. Sad yet determined, no one understood the intentions.
- Finally, the people decided to stay perm around the new reactor they found. Nuclear reactor was delighted yet fell in to despair, not being needed anymore.
Phase IV
- The people live happily ever after
- Nuclear reactor absorbed everything that has been left in the land around, turning it in to a source of encouragement and memento it has been useful and served the people.
- Nuclear reactor finally died off after months of struggles internally.
- The people lived on without knowing anything till one day, the newspaper about it's story flew to the people.
- Finally they understood the intention and are grateful to it.
THE END
- Nuclear reactor getting old and unstable. Unable to supply the required needs and see the people around suffering.
Phase I
- Nuclear reactor starts to show signs of degeneration and purposely dysfunction to make a stand to keep people away from it.
- It started a series of campaigns. However, supplying the people with energy was all he could do and he couldn't bear to suddenly cut off all supplies. Therefore, everything was delayed and itself tormented just like the people do. Being hot and cold.
Phase II
- The people can no longer stay under this threat of it exploding. To harm the people themselves. The people do not understand the purpose and intentions. The nuclear reactor love the people, so it quietly let them leave.
- All the people were gone. The reactor has lost its purpose and broke down.
- The people whom left found a new reactor and decided and live with it.
Phase III
- The nuclear reactor knew eventually the people might come back or think about it as it was their homeland, so it purposely fume up poisonous gases to stop them from coming back. Sad yet determined, no one understood the intentions.
- Finally, the people decided to stay perm around the new reactor they found. Nuclear reactor was delighted yet fell in to despair, not being needed anymore.
Phase IV
- The people live happily ever after
- Nuclear reactor absorbed everything that has been left in the land around, turning it in to a source of encouragement and memento it has been useful and served the people.
- Nuclear reactor finally died off after months of struggles internally.
- The people lived on without knowing anything till one day, the newspaper about it's story flew to the people.
- Finally they understood the intention and are grateful to it.
THE END
i know that i have loved you ... at 5:28 pm
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Sunday, March 27, 2011
Unbreak My Heart
Don't leave me in all this pain
Don't leave me out in the rain
Come back and bring back my smile
Come and take these tears away
I need your arms to hold me now
The nights are so unkind
Bring back those nights when I held you beside me
Un-break my heart
Say you'll love me again
Undo this hurt you caused
When you walked out the door
And walked out of my life
Un-cry these tears
I cried so many nights
Un-break my heart
My heart
Take back that sad word good-bye
Bring back the joy to my life
Don't leave me here with these tears
Come and kiss this pain away
I can't forget the day you left
Time is so unkind
And life is so cruel without you here beside me
Don't leave me in all this pain
Don't leave me out in the rain
Bring back the nights when I held you beside me
Un-break my heart oh baby
Come back and say you love me
Un-break my heart
Sweet darlin'
Without you I just can't go on
Can't go on....
Don't leave me out in the rain
Come back and bring back my smile
Come and take these tears away
I need your arms to hold me now
The nights are so unkind
Bring back those nights when I held you beside me
Un-break my heart
Say you'll love me again
Undo this hurt you caused
When you walked out the door
And walked out of my life
Un-cry these tears
I cried so many nights
Un-break my heart
My heart
Take back that sad word good-bye
Bring back the joy to my life
Don't leave me here with these tears
Come and kiss this pain away
I can't forget the day you left
Time is so unkind
And life is so cruel without you here beside me
Don't leave me in all this pain
Don't leave me out in the rain
Bring back the nights when I held you beside me
Un-break my heart oh baby
Come back and say you love me
Un-break my heart
Sweet darlin'
Without you I just can't go on
Can't go on....
i know that i have loved you ... at 7:53 pm
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fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Breaking
Dear blog,
i've just wrote in kine. I realised that i could not longer hold back my feelings for her. In order not to drench kine with my tears, i've decided to type some stuffs here. I'm breaking down now as i speak. Endless streams of tears flush down my bony cheeks. The pain i endure all this while is too great. To see her happy is my objective but what i've done is the right things. Why am i feeling so painful now? Why am i crying like a child now. Nobody is there to comfort me or to console. I cant see well with tears in my eyes. Why did she abandon me. It just so painful so painful. I would rather die than to endure this cycle of pain. Please struck me with the lighting or kill me now. I cant take it anymore. I'm dying i'm dying i'm dying! Have you forgotten your promises?!
ARGH!!! I keep waiting... Argh, i keep holding... Someday, i'll see you again. I'm still dying, i kept crying. This endless pain and sorrow is killing me. PLEASE! KILL me with your bare hands. Impale the the knife straight through my heart and kill me instantly. Don't let me bleed anymore. I'm turning into a zombie. I'm feeling weak and breathless.
I'm still waiting for you... I kept waiting till the day i close my eyes permanently. 010109, no matter what you've done, i still love you wina....
i've just wrote in kine. I realised that i could not longer hold back my feelings for her. In order not to drench kine with my tears, i've decided to type some stuffs here. I'm breaking down now as i speak. Endless streams of tears flush down my bony cheeks. The pain i endure all this while is too great. To see her happy is my objective but what i've done is the right things. Why am i feeling so painful now? Why am i crying like a child now. Nobody is there to comfort me or to console. I cant see well with tears in my eyes. Why did she abandon me. It just so painful so painful. I would rather die than to endure this cycle of pain. Please struck me with the lighting or kill me now. I cant take it anymore. I'm dying i'm dying i'm dying! Have you forgotten your promises?!
ARGH!!! I keep waiting... Argh, i keep holding... Someday, i'll see you again. I'm still dying, i kept crying. This endless pain and sorrow is killing me. PLEASE! KILL me with your bare hands. Impale the the knife straight through my heart and kill me instantly. Don't let me bleed anymore. I'm turning into a zombie. I'm feeling weak and breathless.
I'm still waiting for you... I kept waiting till the day i close my eyes permanently. 010109, no matter what you've done, i still love you wina....
i know that i have loved you ... at 7:35 pm
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fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Urge of Deatrh
I want to die.
I need to cry.
I cant wait to slice myself and see all the blood spurs out.
I've been praying that a car will knock me down.
I want to hug just someone again.
I cant bear to see anyone sad again.
I'm controlling not to chat with her now when i've block her.
I'm trying not to view her facebook profile when i've deleted her.
I'm hating myself more and more.
I've seems to lost the pride and ego of a man.
I think a simple sorry would erase you being shamelessly in love when with me.
I seems to have forgiven her.
I want to give her my blessing wholeheartedly but i can't cause i'm human.
I hope she can see me on my deathbed.
I hope she'll be happy yet unhappy with him, hope they'll last yet break up.
I'm giving myself away and sealing my feelings just to let her forget me.
I'm proud to say i've planned it perfectly and now is the results i want yet hate to see, them being together.
I never wish to see her cry again yet i hope retribution will comes to her.
By the time i finish this, the blood loss is still so little.
If i could fall in love again just to get hurt, i will still be with her.
Life is cruel but i will not leave or resign to fate, i wish and long for death.
Right now, i'm planning for how i would die yet be able to see her at my deathbed.
I admit i am no longer myself anymore and i wont hesitate to kill myself any longer.
I WISH TO DIE EVERYDAY!
I need to cry.
I cant wait to slice myself and see all the blood spurs out.
I've been praying that a car will knock me down.
I want to hug just someone again.
I cant bear to see anyone sad again.
I'm controlling not to chat with her now when i've block her.
I'm trying not to view her facebook profile when i've deleted her.
I'm hating myself more and more.
I've seems to lost the pride and ego of a man.
I think a simple sorry would erase you being shamelessly in love when with me.
I seems to have forgiven her.
I want to give her my blessing wholeheartedly but i can't cause i'm human.
I hope she can see me on my deathbed.
I hope she'll be happy yet unhappy with him, hope they'll last yet break up.
I'm giving myself away and sealing my feelings just to let her forget me.
I'm proud to say i've planned it perfectly and now is the results i want yet hate to see, them being together.
I never wish to see her cry again yet i hope retribution will comes to her.
By the time i finish this, the blood loss is still so little.
If i could fall in love again just to get hurt, i will still be with her.
Life is cruel but i will not leave or resign to fate, i wish and long for death.
Right now, i'm planning for how i would die yet be able to see her at my deathbed.
I admit i am no longer myself anymore and i wont hesitate to kill myself any longer.
I WISH TO DIE EVERYDAY!
i know that i have loved you ... at 1:44 pm
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fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Miss you dreaming...
Today I didn't think of you
Today was alright
I had a lot of things to do
I was moving on with my life
But now I need some answers, some answers
I'm tired and I'm getting weak
Some answers, some answers
I only miss you when I'm dreaming
That's why I don't wanna close my eyes
Tell me why you only hurt me when I'm sleeping
The only time I can't put up a fight
Is when I'm dreaming
Another hour passes by
It's gonna be a long night ahead
Coz I feel you creeping up inside my mind
Every time I look at my bed
The only time I can't live without you (dreaming)
I can't let you go
Today was alright
I had a lot of things to do
I was moving on with my life
But now I need some answers, some answers
I'm tired and I'm getting weak
Some answers, some answers
I only miss you when I'm dreaming
That's why I don't wanna close my eyes
Tell me why you only hurt me when I'm sleeping
The only time I can't put up a fight
Is when I'm dreaming
Another hour passes by
It's gonna be a long night ahead
Coz I feel you creeping up inside my mind
Every time I look at my bed
The only time I can't live without you (dreaming)
I can't let you go
i know that i have loved you ... at 1:39 pm
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fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Living On
Living on when you know you can never know happiness again. Looking back to the past where you find your memories doesn't exist anymore. It was like you've never lived before.
All the people and friends around me told me to give up on this girl and i am. Giving up my live in the process as well. They said she's not worth and i deserve better. If she can do this to you, she will do this to other guys as well. Some even say she just wanted to spend my money and never once loved me. She'll get her retribution someday and be betrayed and ditched by other guys.
I can no longer and don't want to know what is right or wrong anymore. Neither do i want to care anymore. With the time i've left, i should be concentrating on what i need to do before my time is up. She never once did apologize to me for doing that. But it doesn't matter anymore. I'll lead a better life with all i've left. I'm sure i'll be able to do it.
The burden of the 1 living on with the most memories and love for the other someone somewhere when you know he/she no longer needs you and is kissing or making out with others. It's really hurtful. So right now, instead of trying not to remember, i will count the days to the time i've left. I'm tired... SORRY to myself...
All the people and friends around me told me to give up on this girl and i am. Giving up my live in the process as well. They said she's not worth and i deserve better. If she can do this to you, she will do this to other guys as well. Some even say she just wanted to spend my money and never once loved me. She'll get her retribution someday and be betrayed and ditched by other guys.
I can no longer and don't want to know what is right or wrong anymore. Neither do i want to care anymore. With the time i've left, i should be concentrating on what i need to do before my time is up. She never once did apologize to me for doing that. But it doesn't matter anymore. I'll lead a better life with all i've left. I'm sure i'll be able to do it.
The burden of the 1 living on with the most memories and love for the other someone somewhere when you know he/she no longer needs you and is kissing or making out with others. It's really hurtful. So right now, instead of trying not to remember, i will count the days to the time i've left. I'm tired... SORRY to myself...
i know that i have loved you ... at 11:03 am
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fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Friday, March 25, 2011
Escape
Come, let's forget that future
that is becoming smeared with blood again.
If a warm wind curls into a spiral,
that is probably a sign.
Escape, escape,
from this sorrowful fate.
You are not a flower of Naraku.
In that kind of place
Don't bloom there, don't bloom there
Don't let them ensnare you.
Shards of time fly by without a sound.
Who is grasping my hand?
Who is stroking my hair?
Now, in the crying sprouts,
I can feel the signal.
Fly away, fly away,
from the wheels of fate.
You are not a flower of Naraku.
In that kind of place,
don't scatter your petals, don't scatter your petals,
and don't sow your seeds.
Everchanging karma spreads its seeds once more.
Escape, escape,
from this sorrowful fate.
You are not a flower of Naraku.
In that kind of place
Don't bloom there, don't bloom there
Don't let them ensnare you.
Shards of time fly by without a sound.
that is becoming smeared with blood again.
If a warm wind curls into a spiral,
that is probably a sign.
Escape, escape,
from this sorrowful fate.
You are not a flower of Naraku.
In that kind of place
Don't bloom there, don't bloom there
Don't let them ensnare you.
Shards of time fly by without a sound.
Who is grasping my hand?
Who is stroking my hair?
Now, in the crying sprouts,
I can feel the signal.
Fly away, fly away,
from the wheels of fate.
You are not a flower of Naraku.
In that kind of place,
don't scatter your petals, don't scatter your petals,
and don't sow your seeds.
Everchanging karma spreads its seeds once more.
Escape, escape,
from this sorrowful fate.
You are not a flower of Naraku.
In that kind of place
Don't bloom there, don't bloom there
Don't let them ensnare you.
Shards of time fly by without a sound.
i know that i have loved you ... at 4:06 pm
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Thursday, March 24, 2011
Be Strong
I can't wait to cut myself and let all the blood gush out. I presume i'm back to how i used to be in the past. Well, it doesn't matter anymore. I'm free now. There is no need to pretend anymore in from of anyone. Well, but i must pretend i'm strong. To them, i must act as if i don't care though the closest friends will know i'm crying. It takes a lot to give your blessings to someone whom you've loved so much in your life and only to know she's fallen for some other guy and got together. Somehow, no mater how the ending is, i wish she can be happy. At last, she could finally let go. I'm watching the same video almost everyday. Swear it again the 11months video. I'm hand on to myself tightly without anyone noticing. I'm myself again. I'm beginning to ruin myself and my life again. A life which one could not avoid...
i know that i have loved you ... at 10:00 pm
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fate crumbled all around 0 identities
You..
Close my eyes
I try to hide
I'm listening to my voice inside
What's on to tell me right or wrong
I need to know where I belong
For all the days I ran away
I never dare to ask me who could I be
Who can bring back the love that's inside me
Could it be you
Or do I lose my way
I'm here but colorblind
Could It be you
Or do I break away
So leave the past behind
I only wanna feel the sunlight stop the fight and see it in your eyes
Wish I just knew what I should do
Could it be you
Somebody tell me if it's true I don't have a clue
Could it be you
Too many things said and done
Sure if you could be the one
To dry the tears I left behind
To chase these demons off my mind
I see your face
Touch your skin
Is this a fight
We both can't win
Sometimes the truth is miles apart
But it's hard to break your heart
Could it be you
Or do I lose my way
I'm here but colorblind
Could It be you
Or do I break away
So leave the past behind
I only wanna feel the sunlight stop the fight and see it in your eyes
Wish I just knew what I should do
Could it be you
Somebody tell me if it's true I don't have a clue
Could it be you
Baby i don't wanna waste your love
Though it's hard to just walk on
Well will this hurt be neverending
Where do I belong
Could it be you
Or do I lose my way
I'm here but colorblind
Could it be you
Or do I break away
Just to leave the past behind
I only wanna feel the sunlight stop the fight and see it in your eyes
Wish I just knew what I should do
Could it be you
Somebody tell me if it's true i don't have a clue
Could it be you
Maybe it is me
Used to plan to see that it's you
For everything I am everything I need lies in you
I try to hide
I'm listening to my voice inside
What's on to tell me right or wrong
I need to know where I belong
For all the days I ran away
I never dare to ask me who could I be
Who can bring back the love that's inside me
Could it be you
Or do I lose my way
I'm here but colorblind
Could It be you
Or do I break away
So leave the past behind
I only wanna feel the sunlight stop the fight and see it in your eyes
Wish I just knew what I should do
Could it be you
Somebody tell me if it's true I don't have a clue
Could it be you
Too many things said and done
Sure if you could be the one
To dry the tears I left behind
To chase these demons off my mind
I see your face
Touch your skin
Is this a fight
We both can't win
Sometimes the truth is miles apart
But it's hard to break your heart
Could it be you
Or do I lose my way
I'm here but colorblind
Could It be you
Or do I break away
So leave the past behind
I only wanna feel the sunlight stop the fight and see it in your eyes
Wish I just knew what I should do
Could it be you
Somebody tell me if it's true I don't have a clue
Could it be you
Baby i don't wanna waste your love
Though it's hard to just walk on
Well will this hurt be neverending
Where do I belong
Could it be you
Or do I lose my way
I'm here but colorblind
Could it be you
Or do I break away
Just to leave the past behind
I only wanna feel the sunlight stop the fight and see it in your eyes
Wish I just knew what I should do
Could it be you
Somebody tell me if it's true i don't have a clue
Could it be you
Maybe it is me
Used to plan to see that it's you
For everything I am everything I need lies in you
i know that i have loved you ... at 9:50 pm
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fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Wednesday, March 23, 2011
My last post for her...
Her name was so precious which i could not mention. Her thoughts, her smile her tears, everything about her was my world. Now she's taken this bit with another guy. Perhaps, it wasn't my world to begin with. She loan everything to me and now i'm just paying back the interest. If forgetting someone whom i've loved for 2years so easily, i guess i will be no human. Tonight will be the last night i cry for her. When the clock struck 12, the dreams we once had, the times we once shared will vanished. Another chapter will unfold and the painful memories will always be kept inside my heart. I've turned to the poorest man of all. She left... She's always been eying on other guys. But i pretended. With nothing to lose now, i guess, it'll be okay now... I just need time to love myself again. I cant wait to leave a thousand scars on my wrist... I love her till now i still do. But i could never tell her... She's never understand what i'm trying to endure... It's really okay... As long as she's happy right? I'm sure she'll be fine.
She'll be fine....
She'll be fine....
i know that i have loved you ... at 10:38 pm
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fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Tuesday, March 22, 2011
MiSSinG
I'm missing the music of my soul, the song from my heart and the voices which are always there for me. If loneliness is the punishment of loving someone, let this ever ending misery gush through the heart of mine, flowing down these tears and blood spurting out from the tiny vessels which is the lifeline of living emotional creatures.
I'll never sell my soul to the fate. Part of me gets eaten day by day. The missing pieces of the shattered heart turns to dust. So now, buy me a puzzle heart and piece it together. Let my heart and mind know i'm whole again without missing me, or you...
I'll never sell my soul to the fate. Part of me gets eaten day by day. The missing pieces of the shattered heart turns to dust. So now, buy me a puzzle heart and piece it together. Let my heart and mind know i'm whole again without missing me, or you...
i know that i have loved you ... at 8:49 pm
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fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Tuesday, March 15, 2011
PrEtEnD
Dear blog, i've been trying very hard to remember my past. My past with this girl called wina. I know she is my girlfriend and i can still remember the recent events. However, my memories which were so clear 1month ago seems to have disappeared. And in exchanged, she doubted me. Well, it doesn't really matter since she's got that guy with her now. I don't even know if i had loved her or not...
IRONIC! Such words coming from me. Was it because i was so beautifully hurt so i cant recall or was it because of that that i can't remember. It doesn't matter anymore. I've drafted my will and done what i have to do. I have no attachments to this world any longer.
Lastly, i hope i will be able to be deploy to Japan to help them. Having bad headache and feeling giddy everyday... Good night to myself....
IRONIC! Such words coming from me. Was it because i was so beautifully hurt so i cant recall or was it because of that that i can't remember. It doesn't matter anymore. I've drafted my will and done what i have to do. I have no attachments to this world any longer.
Lastly, i hope i will be able to be deploy to Japan to help them. Having bad headache and feeling giddy everyday... Good night to myself....
i know that i have loved you ... at 11:49 pm
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Sunday, March 13, 2011
So Close...
You're in my arms
And all the world is calm
The music playing on for only two
So close together
And when I'm with you
So close to feeling alive
A life goes by
Romantic dreams will stop
So I bid mine goodbye and never knew
So close was waiting, waiting here with you
And now forever I know
All that I wanted to hold you
So close
So close to reaching that famous happy end
Almost believing this was not pretend
And now you're beside me and look how far we've come
So far we are so close
How could I face the faceless days
If I should lose you now?
We're so close
To reaching that famous happy end
And almost believing this was not pretend
Let's go on dreaming for we know we are
So close
So close
And still so far...
And all the world is calm
The music playing on for only two
So close together
And when I'm with you
So close to feeling alive
A life goes by
Romantic dreams will stop
So I bid mine goodbye and never knew
So close was waiting, waiting here with you
And now forever I know
All that I wanted to hold you
So close
So close to reaching that famous happy end
Almost believing this was not pretend
And now you're beside me and look how far we've come
So far we are so close
How could I face the faceless days
If I should lose you now?
We're so close
To reaching that famous happy end
And almost believing this was not pretend
Let's go on dreaming for we know we are
So close
So close
And still so far...
i know that i have loved you ... at 1:35 pm
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fate crumbled all around 0 identities
MY life for rent
I haven't ever really found a place that I call home
I never stick around quite long enough to make it
I apologize once again I'm not in love
But it's not as if I mind
that your heart ain't exactly breaking
It's just a thought, only a thought
But if my life is for rent and I don't learn to buy
Well I deserve nothing more than I get
Cos nothing I have is truly mine
I've always thought
that I would love to live by the sea
To travel the world alone
and live more simply
I have no idea what's happened to that dream
Cos there's really nothing left here to stop me
While my heart is a shield and I won't let it down
While I am so afraid to fail so I won't even try
Well how can I say I'm alive
If my life is for rent and I don't learn to buy
Well I deserve nothing more than I get
Cos nothing I have is truly mine
Cos nothing I have is truly mine
Cos nothing I have is truly mine
Cos nothing I have is truly mine
I never stick around quite long enough to make it
I apologize once again I'm not in love
But it's not as if I mind
that your heart ain't exactly breaking
It's just a thought, only a thought
But if my life is for rent and I don't learn to buy
Well I deserve nothing more than I get
Cos nothing I have is truly mine
I've always thought
that I would love to live by the sea
To travel the world alone
and live more simply
I have no idea what's happened to that dream
Cos there's really nothing left here to stop me
While my heart is a shield and I won't let it down
While I am so afraid to fail so I won't even try
Well how can I say I'm alive
If my life is for rent and I don't learn to buy
Well I deserve nothing more than I get
Cos nothing I have is truly mine
Cos nothing I have is truly mine
Cos nothing I have is truly mine
Cos nothing I have is truly mine
i know that i have loved you ... at 1:08 pm
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Saturday, March 12, 2011
Mem0riEs
Its almost 3am in the morning. I supposed most us are fast asleep. I'm tired too. My memories, or things i can remember is only a short lifespan. My hair now is short. I'm feeling much better now. Not easily tired. I'm still thinking, when is the person i am trying to find in my life? Or have i given up on love and myself?
People around me told me to love myself so others will love me. But the truth is i'm a really silly person. I would give my love to others even though i know i would get hurt. All i wish for is a little return, for them to care n love me back. Many did and many didn't. But everytime i'm hurting deeper and growing weary. So my wish now is to offer my lifespan for quality happiness to the people around me. Wishing them to be blessed and be happy everyday.
Be it who i am now, or what i've become now, it doesn't matters anymore. For part of my memories to be hazy must have been fate. I just wish people around me would be happy, loving and caring always.
-kel
People around me told me to love myself so others will love me. But the truth is i'm a really silly person. I would give my love to others even though i know i would get hurt. All i wish for is a little return, for them to care n love me back. Many did and many didn't. But everytime i'm hurting deeper and growing weary. So my wish now is to offer my lifespan for quality happiness to the people around me. Wishing them to be blessed and be happy everyday.
Be it who i am now, or what i've become now, it doesn't matters anymore. For part of my memories to be hazy must have been fate. I just wish people around me would be happy, loving and caring always.
-kel
i know that i have loved you ... at 2:56 am
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Friday, March 11, 2011
不要用我的愛來傷害我
我以為你是真的愛過 所以我才認真把握
不知不覺陷入愛的旋渦 抓不住解救的繩索
我為你付出了太多太多 從沒問過愛的結果
可是你一次一次的出賣我 一次一次讓我難過
不要用我的愛來傷害我 你知道我是多脆弱
我做錯了什麼 你要懲罰我
如果這樣你還說愛我
不要用我的愛來傷害我 你的絕情無法閃躲
如果你要解脫 撕毀的承諾
請把我從前對你的愛還給我
我以為你是真的愛過 所以我才認真把握
不知不覺陷入愛的旋渦 抓不住解救的繩索
我為你付出了太多太多 從沒問過愛的結果
可是你一次一次的出賣我 一次一次讓我難過
不要用我的愛來傷害我 你知道我是多脆弱
我做錯了什麼 你要懲罰我
如果這樣你還說愛我
不要用我的愛來傷害我 你的絕情無法閃躲
如果你要解脫 撕毀的承諾
請把我從前對你的愛還給我
不要用我的愛來傷害我 你知道我是多脆弱
我做錯了什麼 你要懲罰我
如果這樣你還說愛我 不要用我的愛來傷害我
你的絕情無法閃躲 如果你要解脫 撕毀的承諾
請把我從前對你的愛還給我
不知不覺陷入愛的旋渦 抓不住解救的繩索
我為你付出了太多太多 從沒問過愛的結果
可是你一次一次的出賣我 一次一次讓我難過
不要用我的愛來傷害我 你知道我是多脆弱
我做錯了什麼 你要懲罰我
如果這樣你還說愛我
不要用我的愛來傷害我 你的絕情無法閃躲
如果你要解脫 撕毀的承諾
請把我從前對你的愛還給我
我以為你是真的愛過 所以我才認真把握
不知不覺陷入愛的旋渦 抓不住解救的繩索
我為你付出了太多太多 從沒問過愛的結果
可是你一次一次的出賣我 一次一次讓我難過
不要用我的愛來傷害我 你知道我是多脆弱
我做錯了什麼 你要懲罰我
如果這樣你還說愛我
不要用我的愛來傷害我 你的絕情無法閃躲
如果你要解脫 撕毀的承諾
請把我從前對你的愛還給我
不要用我的愛來傷害我 你知道我是多脆弱
我做錯了什麼 你要懲罰我
如果這樣你還說愛我 不要用我的愛來傷害我
你的絕情無法閃躲 如果你要解脫 撕毀的承諾
請把我從前對你的愛還給我
i know that i have loved you ... at 3:46 pm
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Friday, March 04, 2011
放手
走吧
放心歡喜享受 你想要的生活
對我
你不須感到對我 虧欠了我什麼
剛分手當然有傷痛 只是我沒想過
它會so so so strong oh baby~
但我很高興你能夠 誠實面對自己 選擇你要的夢
謝謝你在我生命的駐留 (一)直到你離開我
我會記得這些年 (我)愛得那麼濃
我會將這一份愛保留在心中
坦然的面對你要的自由 不用太擔心我
我一定會好好過 不想那麼多(我會好好過)
縱然心中還有好多不捨 我還是會放手
放心歡喜享受 你想要的生活
對我
你不須感到對我 虧欠了我什麼
剛分手當然有傷痛 只是我沒想過
它會so so so strong oh baby~
但我很高興你能夠 誠實面對自己 選擇你要的夢
謝謝你在我生命的駐留 (一)直到你離開我
我會記得這些年 (我)愛得那麼濃
我會將這一份愛保留在心中
坦然的面對你要的自由 不用太擔心我
我一定會好好過 不想那麼多(我會好好過)
縱然心中還有好多不捨 我還是會放手
i know that i have loved you ... at 8:01 pm
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
