Sunday, March 27, 2011
Urge of Deatrh
I want to die.
I need to cry.
I cant wait to slice myself and see all the blood spurs out.
I've been praying that a car will knock me down.
I want to hug just someone again.
I cant bear to see anyone sad again.
I'm controlling not to chat with her now when i've block her.
I'm trying not to view her facebook profile when i've deleted her.
I'm hating myself more and more.
I've seems to lost the pride and ego of a man.
I think a simple sorry would erase you being shamelessly in love when with me.
I seems to have forgiven her.
I want to give her my blessing wholeheartedly but i can't cause i'm human.
I hope she can see me on my deathbed.
I hope she'll be happy yet unhappy with him, hope they'll last yet break up.
I'm giving myself away and sealing my feelings just to let her forget me.
I'm proud to say i've planned it perfectly and now is the results i want yet hate to see, them being together.
I never wish to see her cry again yet i hope retribution will comes to her.
By the time i finish this, the blood loss is still so little.
If i could fall in love again just to get hurt, i will still be with her.
Life is cruel but i will not leave or resign to fate, i wish and long for death.
Right now, i'm planning for how i would die yet be able to see her at my deathbed.
I admit i am no longer myself anymore and i wont hesitate to kill myself any longer.
I WISH TO DIE EVERYDAY!
I need to cry.
I cant wait to slice myself and see all the blood spurs out.
I've been praying that a car will knock me down.
I want to hug just someone again.
I cant bear to see anyone sad again.
I'm controlling not to chat with her now when i've block her.
I'm trying not to view her facebook profile when i've deleted her.
I'm hating myself more and more.
I've seems to lost the pride and ego of a man.
I think a simple sorry would erase you being shamelessly in love when with me.
I seems to have forgiven her.
I want to give her my blessing wholeheartedly but i can't cause i'm human.
I hope she can see me on my deathbed.
I hope she'll be happy yet unhappy with him, hope they'll last yet break up.
I'm giving myself away and sealing my feelings just to let her forget me.
I'm proud to say i've planned it perfectly and now is the results i want yet hate to see, them being together.
I never wish to see her cry again yet i hope retribution will comes to her.
By the time i finish this, the blood loss is still so little.
If i could fall in love again just to get hurt, i will still be with her.
Life is cruel but i will not leave or resign to fate, i wish and long for death.
Right now, i'm planning for how i would die yet be able to see her at my deathbed.
I admit i am no longer myself anymore and i wont hesitate to kill myself any longer.
I WISH TO DIE EVERYDAY!
i know that i have loved you ... at 1:44 pm
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