Saturday, November 30, 2013
給我一個理由忘記
雨都停了 這片天灰什麼呢
我還記得 你說我們要快樂
深夜裡的腳步聲 總是刺耳
害怕寂寞 就讓狂歡的城市陪我關燈
只是哪怕周圍再多人 感覺還是一個人
每當我笑了 心卻狠狠的哭著
給我一個理由忘記 那麼愛我的你
給我一個理由放棄 當時做的決定
有些愛 越想抽離卻越更清晰
而最痛的距離 是你不在身邊 卻在我的心裡
當我走在去過的每個地方 總會聽到你那最自由的笑
當我回到一個人住的地方 最怕看到冬天你最愛穿的那件外套
只是哪怕周圍再多人 感覺還是一個人
每當我笑了 心卻狠狠的哭著
給我一個理由忘記 那麼愛我的你
給我一個理由放棄 當時做的決定
有些愛 越想抽離卻越更清晰
而最痛的距離 是你不在身邊 卻在我的心裡
我找不到理由忘記 大雨裡的別離
我找不到理由放棄 我等你的決心
有些愛 越想抽離卻越更清晰
而最痛的距離 是你不在身邊 卻在我的心裡
我想你
我還記得 你說我們要快樂
深夜裡的腳步聲 總是刺耳
害怕寂寞 就讓狂歡的城市陪我關燈
只是哪怕周圍再多人 感覺還是一個人
每當我笑了 心卻狠狠的哭著
給我一個理由忘記 那麼愛我的你
給我一個理由放棄 當時做的決定
有些愛 越想抽離卻越更清晰
而最痛的距離 是你不在身邊 卻在我的心裡
當我走在去過的每個地方 總會聽到你那最自由的笑
當我回到一個人住的地方 最怕看到冬天你最愛穿的那件外套
只是哪怕周圍再多人 感覺還是一個人
每當我笑了 心卻狠狠的哭著
給我一個理由忘記 那麼愛我的你
給我一個理由放棄 當時做的決定
有些愛 越想抽離卻越更清晰
而最痛的距離 是你不在身邊 卻在我的心裡
我找不到理由忘記 大雨裡的別離
我找不到理由放棄 我等你的決心
有些愛 越想抽離卻越更清晰
而最痛的距離 是你不在身邊 卻在我的心裡
我想你
i know that i have loved you ... at 7:13 pm
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
只想爱你
The lyrics seems similar to a story i known for a little while a go. A girl whom didn't mind anything and confessed her feelings. Was it affection of just infatuation? We could never know because the name has long been forgotten.
我终于还是说了一句我爱你
还记得那个微凉夜里天空正飘着小雨
心跳的声音像舞动奇迹你看着我说千万不要爱上你
因为你只会让我伤心别傻了快点喊停
你那么冷静忽远又忽近
我知道我对你来说也许太年轻
I guess my story begins here?
我想我猜我问我终于了解
原来为爱流的眼泪也是种甜蜜滋味
只想爱你当我和你走在一起就已经决宠 ?
不看不听不问也不会放弃
是你让我了解自己可以为爱那么坚定
只想爱你好想每天睁开眼睛就能看到你
我知道我偶尔有一点任性
不管你做任何决定究竟爱我还是逃避
sorry我还是不会放弃爱你
sorry我还是不会放弃
我还是不会放弃爱你
我终于还是说了一句我爱你
还记得那个微凉夜里天空正飘着小雨
心跳的声音像舞动奇迹你看着我说千万不要爱上你
因为你只会让我伤心别傻了快点喊停
你那么冷静忽远又忽近
我知道我对你来说也许太年轻
I guess my story begins here?
我想我猜我问我终于了解
原来为爱流的眼泪也是种甜蜜滋味
只想爱你当我和你走在一起就已经决宠 ?
不看不听不问也不会放弃
是你让我了解自己可以为爱那么坚定
只想爱你好想每天睁开眼睛就能看到你
我知道我偶尔有一点任性
不管你做任何决定究竟爱我还是逃避
sorry我还是不会放弃爱你
sorry我还是不会放弃
我还是不会放弃爱你
i know that i have loved you ... at 6:52 pm
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Wednesday, November 27, 2013
Sick
I've been sick and not yet recovered. Been unwell but not dead yet. I wonder why. I'm trying my best to keep up. I slept and dream. It was you again. I woke up and open my eyes, it was you again. I stare at my screen and it was you again and again and again. I'm tired. I tried sleeping early but i can't. 3 hour of rest per day, i'm going crazy and so does my body. It's something i can't control.
I'm really tired... I'm sick of being sick... Nobody would understand....
I'm really tired... I'm sick of being sick... Nobody would understand....
i know that i have loved you ... at 10:22 pm
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Monday, November 25, 2013
When You're Gone
Somewhere out there, you must be safe. Some place you belong and I'm sure you'll be fine. It'll be a week but it seems to be forever. Waiting has become breakfast, lunch & dinner and the additional anxiety has become the supper accompanying my loneliness. Stay happy, be safe... Far away I could never reach you, I wish you knew I still care and I would never forget YOU.
When You're Gone
I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd need you there when I cry
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie
Is made up on your side
When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?
When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it OK
I miss you
I've never felt this way before
Everything that I do reminds me of you
And the clothes you left, they lie on the floor
And they smell just like you,
I love the things that you do
When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?
When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it OK
I miss you
We were made for each other
Out here forever
I know we were, yeah, yeah
All I ever wanted was for you to know
Everything I do, I give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe, I need to feel you here with me, yeah
When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear will always get me through the day
And make it OK
I miss you
When You're Gone
I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd need you there when I cry
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie
Is made up on your side
When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?
When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it OK
I miss you
I've never felt this way before
Everything that I do reminds me of you
And the clothes you left, they lie on the floor
And they smell just like you,
I love the things that you do
When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?
When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it OK
I miss you
We were made for each other
Out here forever
I know we were, yeah, yeah
All I ever wanted was for you to know
Everything I do, I give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe, I need to feel you here with me, yeah
When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear will always get me through the day
And make it OK
I miss you
i know that i have loved you ... at 11:05 pm
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Bon Voyage
So much to say but i have no one to talk to. So much to tell you, but i know you are not willing to listen. Therefore, i've decided to write a song for you. May you have a safe journey, a enjoyable trip and forget all your worries. Make a wish, take a chance and break away. This is a simple song with lyrics i thought of. Take care.
Bon Voyage
How have you been
How long will it be
Till I see you again.
Beyond this vast ocean, I believe there lies a land of happiness
Beyond the cloudy skies, I believe the sun will shine
Bon Voyage Bon Voyage
It's time to say goodbye
Bon Voyage Bon Voyage
Those words I held inside
No matter the distance we are apart
I will say to you... Goodbye...
What am i now
What should I do
Till I see you again
Beyond the broken promises, you will never see
Beyond the beating heart, it has torn apert
Bon Voyage Bon Voyage
It's time to say goodbye
Bon Voyage Bon Voyage
Those words I held inside
No matter the distance we are apart
I will say to you... Goodbye...
And no matter where I go
And no matter what I do
It's breaking me, it's tearing me apart
Bon Voyage Bon Voyage
It's time to say goodbye
Bon Voyage Bon Voyage
Those words I held inside
No matter the distance we are apart
I will say to you... Goodbye...
There is nothing left to say... But goodbye
Bon Voyage
How have you been
How long will it be
Till I see you again.
Beyond this vast ocean, I believe there lies a land of happiness
Beyond the cloudy skies, I believe the sun will shine
Bon Voyage Bon Voyage
It's time to say goodbye
Bon Voyage Bon Voyage
Those words I held inside
No matter the distance we are apart
I will say to you... Goodbye...
What am i now
What should I do
Till I see you again
Beyond the broken promises, you will never see
Beyond the beating heart, it has torn apert
Bon Voyage Bon Voyage
It's time to say goodbye
Bon Voyage Bon Voyage
Those words I held inside
No matter the distance we are apart
I will say to you... Goodbye...
And no matter where I go
And no matter what I do
It's breaking me, it's tearing me apart
Bon Voyage Bon Voyage
It's time to say goodbye
Bon Voyage Bon Voyage
Those words I held inside
No matter the distance we are apart
I will say to you... Goodbye...
There is nothing left to say... But goodbye
i know that i have loved you ... at 1:42 pm
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Sunday, November 24, 2013
I'll Take The Tears
Don't speak, seal your lips,
Please don't say a word
Maybe I won't remember the words I have not heard
I see that you're in love, I know it's not with me
But I don't want the truth to haunt my memory
It's never too late to relight the fire
It never stopped burning for me
The flame, it never died inside of me
How is it now that I can tell you I love you
How is it only now that it's too late
What can I do, the love we had is torn in two
So you take the smiles from all of our years
And I'll take the tears
I sit and reminisce, of times that we once shared
You gave me more than love
But never thought I cared
My feelings were all for you
Although it didn't show
I only told you on the day you let me go
It's never too late to relight the fire
It never stopped burning for me
The flame, it never died inside of me
How is it now that I can tell you I love you
How is it only now that it's too late
What can I do, the love we had is torn in two
So you take the smiles from all of our years
And I'll take the tears
Now I realise that you're no longer mine
But I'm hoping that the pain will ease in time
Although you're leaving, I won't say goodbye
Because I know you're here with me inside
How is it now that I can tell you I love you
How is it only now that it's too late
What can I do, the love we had is torn in two
So you take the smiles from all of our years
And I'll take the tears
Please don't say a word
Maybe I won't remember the words I have not heard
I see that you're in love, I know it's not with me
But I don't want the truth to haunt my memory
It's never too late to relight the fire
It never stopped burning for me
The flame, it never died inside of me
How is it now that I can tell you I love you
How is it only now that it's too late
What can I do, the love we had is torn in two
So you take the smiles from all of our years
And I'll take the tears
I sit and reminisce, of times that we once shared
You gave me more than love
But never thought I cared
My feelings were all for you
Although it didn't show
I only told you on the day you let me go
It's never too late to relight the fire
It never stopped burning for me
The flame, it never died inside of me
How is it now that I can tell you I love you
How is it only now that it's too late
What can I do, the love we had is torn in two
So you take the smiles from all of our years
And I'll take the tears
Now I realise that you're no longer mine
But I'm hoping that the pain will ease in time
Although you're leaving, I won't say goodbye
Because I know you're here with me inside
How is it now that I can tell you I love you
How is it only now that it's too late
What can I do, the love we had is torn in two
So you take the smiles from all of our years
And I'll take the tears
i know that i have loved you ... at 11:09 pm
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Goodbye
I can see the pain living in your eyes
And I know how hard you try
You deserve to have so much more
I can feel your heart and I sympathize
And I'll never criticize all you've ever meant to my life
I don't want to let you down
I don't want to lead you on
I don't want to hold you back
From where you might belong
You would never ask me why
My heart is so disguised
I just can't live a lie anymore
I would rather hurt myself
Than to ever make you cry
There's nothing left to say, but goodbye
You deserve the chance at the kind of love
I'm not sure I'm worthy of
Losing you is painful to me
I don't wanna let you down
I don't wanna lead you on
I don't wanna hold you back
From where you might belong
You would never ask me why
My heart is so disguised
I just can't live a lie anymore
I would rather hurt myself
Than to ever make you cry
There's nothing left to try
Though it's gonna hurt us both
There's no other way than to say, but good-bye
You would never ask me why
My heart is so disguised
I just can't live a lie anymore
I would rather hurt myself
Than to ever make you cry
There's nothing left to try
Though it's gonna hurt us both
There's no other way than to say goodbye
And I know how hard you try
You deserve to have so much more
I can feel your heart and I sympathize
And I'll never criticize all you've ever meant to my life
I don't want to let you down
I don't want to lead you on
I don't want to hold you back
From where you might belong
You would never ask me why
My heart is so disguised
I just can't live a lie anymore
I would rather hurt myself
Than to ever make you cry
There's nothing left to say, but goodbye
You deserve the chance at the kind of love
I'm not sure I'm worthy of
Losing you is painful to me
I don't wanna let you down
I don't wanna lead you on
I don't wanna hold you back
From where you might belong
You would never ask me why
My heart is so disguised
I just can't live a lie anymore
I would rather hurt myself
Than to ever make you cry
There's nothing left to try
Though it's gonna hurt us both
There's no other way than to say, but good-bye
You would never ask me why
My heart is so disguised
I just can't live a lie anymore
I would rather hurt myself
Than to ever make you cry
There's nothing left to try
Though it's gonna hurt us both
There's no other way than to say goodbye
i know that i have loved you ... at 10:26 pm
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Thursday, November 21, 2013
Right Time
I've been broken but it seems some pieces of myself are missing. I thought i could do it with determination. I thought i could carry on without having to look back but isn't what we went through make us who and what we are now? Yes, i'm broken. Deep down inside, it was always hurting. I thought i could somehow escape when i found someone whom i can genuinely care for and the person would do the same for me but it turns out to be untrue and unreal. I'm tired.
I've recently been reviewing books for my exams and found out that i'm having signs of severe depression. Not does it matters anyway. All i need is self help. I guess time will tell? I've spoken to a good friend whom is married and always cheerful whom i know online in a game. She told me time will heal everything and indeed it will, leaving a scar behind. Little that one knows i could never been properly healed. I care too much, my feelings linger and i always know too many things which my partner would never know. Meeting the same person at the right time is important. Today and a few years later could make drastic differences. I guess i've not been matured enough to meet the right person at the right time and i was too kind to give in. I'm tired. I really wish to escape from this harsh reality. Everyday, i would think of an accident which i could die in. Every time i cross the road, i wish the vehicle would knock me down and end it. I wish i could slit my wrist and soak my body in a pool of water and dye the water red. I wish i could have terminal stage cancer which would give me a limited time to face and decide what and how i should lead my life. All these are on fantasies. It ain't happening... WHY?
Life was never fair and never just. I wish i was never born so i would not have sinned. I'm tired of this world. Death, may you come swiftly. I've been waiting... for the right time...
I've recently been reviewing books for my exams and found out that i'm having signs of severe depression. Not does it matters anyway. All i need is self help. I guess time will tell? I've spoken to a good friend whom is married and always cheerful whom i know online in a game. She told me time will heal everything and indeed it will, leaving a scar behind. Little that one knows i could never been properly healed. I care too much, my feelings linger and i always know too many things which my partner would never know. Meeting the same person at the right time is important. Today and a few years later could make drastic differences. I guess i've not been matured enough to meet the right person at the right time and i was too kind to give in. I'm tired. I really wish to escape from this harsh reality. Everyday, i would think of an accident which i could die in. Every time i cross the road, i wish the vehicle would knock me down and end it. I wish i could slit my wrist and soak my body in a pool of water and dye the water red. I wish i could have terminal stage cancer which would give me a limited time to face and decide what and how i should lead my life. All these are on fantasies. It ain't happening... WHY?
Life was never fair and never just. I wish i was never born so i would not have sinned. I'm tired of this world. Death, may you come swiftly. I've been waiting... for the right time...
i know that i have loved you ... at 10:59 pm
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Wednesday, November 13, 2013
The Love Song I Send You
I will never again receive your love
Nor will I ever be needed
And that is how I find myself all alone
What was it you told me back then?
The words that won't reach me dance in the air
And though I know better, today too I end up
Wishing for things that won't come true
Nor will I ever be needed
And that is how I find myself all alone
What was it you told me back then?
The words that won't reach me dance in the air
And though I know better, today too I end up
Wishing for things that won't come true
Don't let me go
Just squeeze my hand tight
And tell me we'll go on together
Your hand in mine was warm
And gentle
Just squeeze my hand tight
And tell me we'll go on together
Your hand in mine was warm
And gentle
That's how you always anger me
And make me cry in the end
But I loved the way
You looked when you apologized
Afterwards
And make me cry in the end
But I loved the way
You looked when you apologized
Afterwards
Don't let me go
Hold me tight, yes, with all your strength
I want to be in your arms
We'll fall asleep as we touch our foreheads
Together
Hold me tight, yes, with all your strength
I want to be in your arms
We'll fall asleep as we touch our foreheads
Together
Did you know that we'll never be able to meet ever again?
Don't let me go
Hold me tight; I love you
Won't you laugh for me just one more time?
Before your warmth vanishes
Embrace me
Hold me tight; I love you
Won't you laugh for me just one more time?
Before your warmth vanishes
Embrace me
i know that i have loved you ... at 12:24 pm
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Tuesday, November 12, 2013
Maybe
Maybe, i can never understand how someone can change in an hour or change overnight? Or has it been a true hidden nature? Must it be to hurt somebody or to get hurt? Must it be either right or wrong, black or white? Yesterday, the feelings were so real and today, it's been reduced to dust. Perhaps, i suck at dealing with these. I'm tired.
I've always been a loner. I don't share my feelings but i share my good will. I don't want to hurt others but i open up myself for others to hurt me. It's a contradicting world. The one person i need in this world could never be there, the courage to speak to the people close seems so awkward and strange. I placed everything on someone whom i thought would need me like i do but in reality, i know there is no such person that have ever existed. I'm naive, i'm too pure for my own good and i'm too gentle to others. Are these flaws? Whenever i walk pass someone unfortunate, i would feel sad and wishes to buy that tissue or drop a little note in the drop box. I see an old granny carrying heavy stuff, i would want to carry them for her. Yet... i don't have the courage. I lack... i'm lacking in so much. I'm weak. I'm breaking, even as we speak.
The truth is, i think of life as a miserable cage. To grow, we must endure pain. I'm enduring so how much more? I'm not escaping, i'm embracing them. Are there more? Tell me! What is the purpose of life? I try, i try so hard! I just want to stay by the one i wish to protect and love, hurt me all you want, i will endure. Everyday, i wish it will be my last. Every minute, i wish i didn't exist but i must face it. A terminal cancer with 1 month left would be exciting for me. At least i could spend that last month i've left wisely and express how i feel. Tell anyone how i feel everyday, would it make life easier? or would it be the same? I can never be perfect, but perfectly twisted. I'm wide awake and the skies in my world is torn.
If i am destined to lead such a life, i would stay alone. I would stab myself a thousand times without seeing the blood. Hopefully, i will grow weary of this pain soon. If tomorrow never comes, then i wish the last person i see will be smiling and leading a happy life today. Maybe, it is time that i should cease to exist...
I've always been a loner. I don't share my feelings but i share my good will. I don't want to hurt others but i open up myself for others to hurt me. It's a contradicting world. The one person i need in this world could never be there, the courage to speak to the people close seems so awkward and strange. I placed everything on someone whom i thought would need me like i do but in reality, i know there is no such person that have ever existed. I'm naive, i'm too pure for my own good and i'm too gentle to others. Are these flaws? Whenever i walk pass someone unfortunate, i would feel sad and wishes to buy that tissue or drop a little note in the drop box. I see an old granny carrying heavy stuff, i would want to carry them for her. Yet... i don't have the courage. I lack... i'm lacking in so much. I'm weak. I'm breaking, even as we speak.
The truth is, i think of life as a miserable cage. To grow, we must endure pain. I'm enduring so how much more? I'm not escaping, i'm embracing them. Are there more? Tell me! What is the purpose of life? I try, i try so hard! I just want to stay by the one i wish to protect and love, hurt me all you want, i will endure. Everyday, i wish it will be my last. Every minute, i wish i didn't exist but i must face it. A terminal cancer with 1 month left would be exciting for me. At least i could spend that last month i've left wisely and express how i feel. Tell anyone how i feel everyday, would it make life easier? or would it be the same? I can never be perfect, but perfectly twisted. I'm wide awake and the skies in my world is torn.
If i am destined to lead such a life, i would stay alone. I would stab myself a thousand times without seeing the blood. Hopefully, i will grow weary of this pain soon. If tomorrow never comes, then i wish the last person i see will be smiling and leading a happy life today. Maybe, it is time that i should cease to exist...
i know that i have loved you ... at 10:41 pm
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Saturday, November 09, 2013
Alone
I hear the ticking of the clock
I'm lying here the room's pitch dark
I wonder where you are tonight
No answer on the telephone
And the night goes by so very slow
Oh I hope that it won't end though
Alone
Till now I always got by on my own
I never really cared until I met you
And now it chills me to the bone
How do I get you alone
How do I get you alone
You don't know how long I have wanted
To touch your lips and hold you tight, oh
You don't know how long I have waited
And I was gonna tell you tonight
But the secret is still my own
And my love for you is still unknown
Alone
Till now I always got by on my own
I never really cared until I met you
And now it chills me to the bone
How do I get you alone
How do I get you alone
How do I get you alone
How do I get you alone
Alone, alone
I'm lying here the room's pitch dark
I wonder where you are tonight
No answer on the telephone
And the night goes by so very slow
Oh I hope that it won't end though
Alone
Till now I always got by on my own
I never really cared until I met you
And now it chills me to the bone
How do I get you alone
How do I get you alone
You don't know how long I have wanted
To touch your lips and hold you tight, oh
You don't know how long I have waited
And I was gonna tell you tonight
But the secret is still my own
And my love for you is still unknown
Alone
Till now I always got by on my own
I never really cared until I met you
And now it chills me to the bone
How do I get you alone
How do I get you alone
How do I get you alone
How do I get you alone
Alone, alone
i know that i have loved you ... at 10:51 am
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Wednesday, November 06, 2013
One Last Time
It'd be easier if there was someone else
I might understand if we had a fight
And we're lying here but you're somewhere else
I don't wanna see what you don't feel
So just turn out the light
I know you tried but your heart ain't gonna fake it
If it ain't love, there's no way I can take it
So exposed, I might as well be naked
And I've been praying but I just can't make you love me
And it burns my heart that you don't feel the flame
No, I just can't make you love me
So hold me like you mean it
And I'll pretend to feel it one last time
Don't say a word, baby, please don't speak
Just hold me close and let me make believe
I don't wanna hurt till the morning break
Just pretend it's not the end
To spend one last time with me
I know you tried but your heart ain't gonna fake it
If it ain't love, there's no way I can take it
So exposed, I might as well be naked
And I've been praying but I just can't make you love me
And it burns my heart that you don't feel the flame
No, I just can't make you love me
So hold me like you mean it
And I'll pretend to feel it one last time
I know it's no one's fault but it's just not meant for you
And you can't make your heart feel the way I feel for you
It's not right to keep me hanging on
Just give me one more night before we both move on
But I just can't make you love me
And it burns my heart that you don't feel the flame
No, I just can't make you love me
So hold me like you mean it and I'll pretend you feel it
Well, I just can't make you love me
And it burns my heart that you don't feel the flame
No, I just can't make you love me
So hold me like you mean it and I'll pretend to feel it
One last time, ho
I might understand if we had a fight
And we're lying here but you're somewhere else
I don't wanna see what you don't feel
So just turn out the light
I know you tried but your heart ain't gonna fake it
If it ain't love, there's no way I can take it
So exposed, I might as well be naked
And I've been praying but I just can't make you love me
And it burns my heart that you don't feel the flame
No, I just can't make you love me
So hold me like you mean it
And I'll pretend to feel it one last time
Don't say a word, baby, please don't speak
Just hold me close and let me make believe
I don't wanna hurt till the morning break
Just pretend it's not the end
To spend one last time with me
I know you tried but your heart ain't gonna fake it
If it ain't love, there's no way I can take it
So exposed, I might as well be naked
And I've been praying but I just can't make you love me
And it burns my heart that you don't feel the flame
No, I just can't make you love me
So hold me like you mean it
And I'll pretend to feel it one last time
I know it's no one's fault but it's just not meant for you
And you can't make your heart feel the way I feel for you
It's not right to keep me hanging on
Just give me one more night before we both move on
But I just can't make you love me
And it burns my heart that you don't feel the flame
No, I just can't make you love me
So hold me like you mean it and I'll pretend you feel it
Well, I just can't make you love me
And it burns my heart that you don't feel the flame
No, I just can't make you love me
So hold me like you mean it and I'll pretend to feel it
One last time, ho
i know that i have loved you ... at 6:44 pm
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Bitter
I guess, no one can imagine or feel how painful it is. To be thrown away like worn clothes, to be discarded. Is this the destiny of a tool? I've always believed that we are capable to change our destiny with our own hands but i guess i must be dreaming. You want me and here i am and now you don't want me and off i go.
These feelings, i can never describe in words. To be thrown away, to be left alone, bleeding. There were no reasons, just excuses. There were no explanations just illusions. For how long have i forgotten this feeling of desolation? A year? 2 perhaps? How could i give in and trusted a random stranger totally? Everything was by your command. Your wish, i could never defy, your love, i could never taste. It's a bitter sweet poison, i wish i would've just die from it. There is no return, little faith and a total condemn. Why have i done to deserve this? I keep asking myself for days, or what did i not do? Tell me!
When you wanted me, i was your angel. I was everything important, yet deep down, i want to believe it will last, forever. But now, i'm just an obstacle in your way, old, rusty and filthy. How do i make myself cease to exist? Tell me! You could NEVER understand these feelings but i know you will someday when retribution bites. Pass those feelings to me for i've taught myself to live with my dying heart. I will no longer long for a tomorrow nor yesterday. I want to be in this intense pain & torture. I want to be as dark as i possibly could. People always tells me that i'm too kind for my own good, too gentle and cared too much about others. If being kind, caring and gentle is a sin, then punish me further for them just like you are doing now. Kill me with your arms, stab me in the heart. Hear my dying breath and relief me for this harsh world.
May you find happiness and keep me in deep slumber. I will not forget the good but i will remember the bad. If my life is cursed, then curse me well with death. I will start to forget this feeling name 'love'. It is too late, there is no escape. It is time i stop my little senseless dreams and hope. It is time... i need to divert the pain by causing more pain. What should i do? I must keep my promises yet inflict more pain on myself. For you whom see me as trash, i must... i must... It's painful... I only wish that i...
It's bitter, it's bitter but bitter sweet... It's goodbye.
These feelings, i can never describe in words. To be thrown away, to be left alone, bleeding. There were no reasons, just excuses. There were no explanations just illusions. For how long have i forgotten this feeling of desolation? A year? 2 perhaps? How could i give in and trusted a random stranger totally? Everything was by your command. Your wish, i could never defy, your love, i could never taste. It's a bitter sweet poison, i wish i would've just die from it. There is no return, little faith and a total condemn. Why have i done to deserve this? I keep asking myself for days, or what did i not do? Tell me!
When you wanted me, i was your angel. I was everything important, yet deep down, i want to believe it will last, forever. But now, i'm just an obstacle in your way, old, rusty and filthy. How do i make myself cease to exist? Tell me! You could NEVER understand these feelings but i know you will someday when retribution bites. Pass those feelings to me for i've taught myself to live with my dying heart. I will no longer long for a tomorrow nor yesterday. I want to be in this intense pain & torture. I want to be as dark as i possibly could. People always tells me that i'm too kind for my own good, too gentle and cared too much about others. If being kind, caring and gentle is a sin, then punish me further for them just like you are doing now. Kill me with your arms, stab me in the heart. Hear my dying breath and relief me for this harsh world.
May you find happiness and keep me in deep slumber. I will not forget the good but i will remember the bad. If my life is cursed, then curse me well with death. I will start to forget this feeling name 'love'. It is too late, there is no escape. It is time i stop my little senseless dreams and hope. It is time... i need to divert the pain by causing more pain. What should i do? I must keep my promises yet inflict more pain on myself. For you whom see me as trash, i must... i must... It's painful... I only wish that i...
It's bitter, it's bitter but bitter sweet... It's goodbye.
i know that i have loved you ... at 6:28 pm
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
