Thursday, June 30, 2005
haiz...wat to do?!!
haix...duno wat to do nw lorz...havin 2 such nice gal by muai side....i feel lyk i flirtin u noe marx?! how can i be lyk dat?! haix...i noe i cannt be a 2timer...so i muz choose 1... angeline or cass?! haix...or mayb i dun choose betta baz...but how can i be lyk dat?! haix....reali veri confuse!! all i shld blame ish myself....so flickle minded...suspose i tell cass ealier den everything wuld nt hav happen le lorz...haix...ytd..told angeline on da phone...den she lyk beri sad...i duno wat i shld do...she say cass beri gd...dun hurt her...but wat abt her?! i noe i hav to hurt a gal...but... aft tokin to her...she tok to jass...mayb she criend baz...i duno lorz...haix...wo tears cum out le...haix! cuz i reali veri sad....how can i hurt her?! how can i hurt ppl?! how can i hurt someone i lyk?! haix...dun wish to hurt cass or her animore...den wo call mic...we tok tok...cuz wed she got tuition...den she go home dat time can tok marx...haix...sad...den tok tok lorz...sad sad... den she ask me 4get sher nt?! i say almost 4get her le...dun lyk her le lorz...instead i hate her baz!! duno lahz!! haix...den tok to rebc lorz...she nt happy wif me lorz...cuz i dun wana tell her who da gals are...den she sad sad de...mayb cuz...duno lahz!! heck care her!! haix....heart beri luan!! haix...duno wat i shld do...i cant take both ritez?! i hav to hurt 1 lahz...i reali wish i culd be da 1 who get hutr instead of 1 of dem...haix....sad sad sad...4get it baz..haix
i know that i have loved you ... at 9:12 am
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Sunday, June 26, 2005
ZzzZzZzz
haiz...lets start frm 2day baz...nth much actually happen...wake up at abt 7+... den start watchin love hina...finish da 1st box le worz!! haha!! but da VCD onli go english n japanese...english voice sux!! so i onli listen to japanese de lahz...lucky go subtitles...^_^ den think i msg cass lorz...den angeline called...but i pretend i aslp...dun wana anione to disturb me watchin love hina lorz...haha!! den aftnoon, rebc msg me...ask me wana go out wif her nt...to tm walk walk wif jamie...den alreadi abt 1 le..she onli can cum out till 3..muz well dun go out...den i say i dun wana go...cuz lyk veri wat lorz...so short da time...den she dissapointed baz...i ask her go ask daryl lorz...she angry lorz..den quarrel lorz...haix..she said actually wana go out wif me alone de...but think i will refuse...plz lahz! lame lorz!! cum out go tm den onli 4 1hr+ ....muz welll slp at home! haha!! if cass, she will say dat too baz..maybe!! haha!! lame!! den she say she care abt me...duno wat shit lahz!! say i got stead nv think abt her!! aiyo...sianz sia...duno lahz her!! argue till nw...den i go say my xiao mei cass beri gd to me...den hse lyk jealous!! told her we ytd go cs buy thingy...she say lang man..i tot is lan, man!! den tell her dun insult my mei...but actually is romantic(lang man) lahz!! pai seh sia me...haha!! whole aftnoon go slp...evenin wake up watch love hina again!! den msg cass also lorz... ^_^ nw wif her chattin lorz...den mon ke yi pei ta go home... excited n also happy lahz...duno lahz....dotz....
ytd nitez...haix..duno lahz...aniway, ytd, cass pei wo go beach cycle...feel beri happy!! 1st time go cycle wif a gal lorz!! haha!! cuz i beri shy type marx!! lets c...she's da 2nd dat cum my hse alone...hui xian ish da 1st...dat time play bb...she 2nd lorz!! haha!! sianz lorz...but thx to her..she brighten my life!! ^_^ xie xie ni! den she cum up my hse... we tok tok..den my hair so messy sia...juz bath nv put gel or wat lorz...den mum cum home...den go cycle le lorz..haha!! on da way der...keep lookin at her...scare dat she will fall dwn or wat..diao...den tok tok lorz... den lata settle dwn on da beach le...sit der tok tok lorz...though did nth...bbut content le lahz!! but still hope i can lean on her back lorz...back to back...cuz i kinda tired lorz...mentally n emotionally lahz!! haix... sometimes reali nid a rest...nid someone to depend on 4 a while b4 i move on...but i nt a gal lahz!! dotz...haha!! haix.. den beri fast go home le lahz..still muz meet angeline lahz...go eat eat... cass wana go long john..i ok wif it lahz!! but too mani ppl.... n i dun lyk to wait 4 ppl de lorz...dats why go kfc...den she lyk nt happy?! dun wan eat at kfc...but promise her x=country will eat wif her der lorz!! ^_^ den go cs buy love hina!! nw she bough it le..duno wat to buy 4 her on her bday sia...muz think of sth...actually got sth on my mind le...muz start savin le!! haha!! den she lent me da love hina..shocked...cuz its brand new..she haben even watch lorz...muz xie xie ta!! reali thx! so happy! ^^ den go tkd trg le..sianz...go der do nth...yawn..lazy to train..rather go slp!! haha!! den at nitez tok to cass lorz...den dunno baz....haix...she was chattin lorz...den i dun wana disturb or wat marx...den she said she chattin wif peter....haix...mayb jeslour or scare or wat...den kinda sad baz...haix...den i keep tell her to chat wif him n ignore me...duno lahz...haix...she dun wan lorz...haix...zit cuz bcuz of me?! mayb i think too muc le!! i bhb baz!! wat am i to her...i onli her kor lahz!! haha!! haix...duno lahz!! den she say peter go atch tv...den i say aft da show i hang up.. lets peter acc her....haiz...den tell her i hungry n wana slp...but reali hungry lahz...haix...den 4get it baz..dun disturb dem..den hang up le...den i go eat lorz...haix..she msg me...haix...duno baz...den i make a gdnite msg n sent her...haix...mayb i shld try to control my feelin towards her baz...but cant help it...haix... sry sry haix...cass alweis ask me why i lyk her...ish cuz..i also duno..i hab no reason 4 ;ykin someone... is juz da feelin baz... dat special feeling....it doesnt nids ani reason...haix...haiz...duno lahz... nw she online...mayb she chattin wif him baz....ahhh...why shld i care so muc!!?! haix!! me reali sux sia!! sry...haix... juz hope dat she can alweis be happy...and when she nids someoe to be der 4 her.... i can be da one...haix...buaiz n nitez.... SmiLeXx!!
ytd nitez...haix..duno lahz...aniway, ytd, cass pei wo go beach cycle...feel beri happy!! 1st time go cycle wif a gal lorz!! haha!! cuz i beri shy type marx!! lets c...she's da 2nd dat cum my hse alone...hui xian ish da 1st...dat time play bb...she 2nd lorz!! haha!! sianz lorz...but thx to her..she brighten my life!! ^_^ xie xie ni! den she cum up my hse... we tok tok..den my hair so messy sia...juz bath nv put gel or wat lorz...den mum cum home...den go cycle le lorz..haha!! on da way der...keep lookin at her...scare dat she will fall dwn or wat..diao...den tok tok lorz... den lata settle dwn on da beach le...sit der tok tok lorz...though did nth...bbut content le lahz!! but still hope i can lean on her back lorz...back to back...cuz i kinda tired lorz...mentally n emotionally lahz!! haix... sometimes reali nid a rest...nid someone to depend on 4 a while b4 i move on...but i nt a gal lahz!! dotz...haha!! haix.. den beri fast go home le lahz..still muz meet angeline lahz...go eat eat... cass wana go long john..i ok wif it lahz!! but too mani ppl.... n i dun lyk to wait 4 ppl de lorz...dats why go kfc...den she lyk nt happy?! dun wan eat at kfc...but promise her x=country will eat wif her der lorz!! ^_^ den go cs buy love hina!! nw she bough it le..duno wat to buy 4 her on her bday sia...muz think of sth...actually got sth on my mind le...muz start savin le!! haha!! den she lent me da love hina..shocked...cuz its brand new..she haben even watch lorz...muz xie xie ta!! reali thx! so happy! ^^ den go tkd trg le..sianz...go der do nth...yawn..lazy to train..rather go slp!! haha!! den at nitez tok to cass lorz...den dunno baz....haix...she was chattin lorz...den i dun wana disturb or wat marx...den she said she chattin wif peter....haix...mayb jeslour or scare or wat...den kinda sad baz...haix...den i keep tell her to chat wif him n ignore me...duno lahz...haix...she dun wan lorz...haix...zit cuz bcuz of me?! mayb i think too muc le!! i bhb baz!! wat am i to her...i onli her kor lahz!! haha!! haix...duno lahz!! den she say peter go atch tv...den i say aft da show i hang up.. lets peter acc her....haiz...den tell her i hungry n wana slp...but reali hungry lahz...haix...den 4get it baz..dun disturb dem..den hang up le...den i go eat lorz...haix..she msg me...haix...duno baz...den i make a gdnite msg n sent her...haix...mayb i shld try to control my feelin towards her baz...but cant help it...haix... sry sry haix...cass alweis ask me why i lyk her...ish cuz..i also duno..i hab no reason 4 ;ykin someone... is juz da feelin baz... dat special feeling....it doesnt nids ani reason...haix...haiz...duno lahz... nw she online...mayb she chattin wif him baz....ahhh...why shld i care so muc!!?! haix!! me reali sux sia!! sry...haix... juz hope dat she can alweis be happy...and when she nids someoe to be der 4 her.... i can be da one...haix...buaiz n nitez.... SmiLeXx!!
i know that i have loved you ... at 12:00 pm
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Thursday, June 23, 2005
bbq day
sianz....ytd got bbq...den msg mei lan n hui mei...both say nt goin le...den so sianz. lorz...left me alone der baz...dotz...haha!! mornin do nth...afftnoon go bbq lorz...wait at 201 de mac...den go tgt...dat 2pid yq ask me carry charcoal 4 him!! den he carry da sotong!! bully sia!! lolxx....sianz... den when cum dat time...saw cass n dions lorz...duno lahz...cass put dwn her hair...^^ nicer lookin lahz...but she say lata got pimple lorz..den she still put dwn?! wonderin...haha!! den in da end say i ask her put dwn, so she put dwn..haha...she so good arx?! listen to me?! lolxx....thx baz!! haix... den when reach white sands...go ntuc...buy thingy...den rebc n jas cum...rebc wear till quite nice lahz! den go buy things lorzx....so smelly sia..i dun lyk fishy smell..so i dun lyk to eat fish!! sux man!! haix...den lata we go bbq der le lahz!! haix....duno lahz!! but dat time...b4 acc dem to whitesands.. wana pass da stingray to others de...den cass cum take...haix....duno lahz!! den when reach le...go cycle by myself lorz...da rest go play soccer..i nt interested lahz!! long time nv play le... no skill le lorz...haiz...den rebc also acc me cycle...den we cycle n tok lorz...she lyk beginer..so scare sia... haix..den cum back..den i go somewhere to sit dwn n think n enjoy da breeze...i sit dwn der n reminisce da time i n sher once share...also think abt cass...muz try to 4get her...duno baz...dun wana be ctra or lyk invisible pressure 4 her lorz...lata..cass n jass i think so lahz..cum acc me lorz.. haix...duno lahz...thx cass...den she say angeline ask her dum de!! thx angeline ^_^ haix.... duno lahz!! den me n cass go cycle..she betta den rebc lahz...nt newbie..haha!! duno lahz!! haix.... den she pei wo orz...i veri content 2 hav someone pei wo...esp if its her...thx her veri muc..den took out da necklance n rings... wana throw...but think think think...hesitate lorz...den nv throw...den cum back return bike..yawn!! sianz sia..den alone lie on da mat n wana slp n think..but cannt lahz!! den alone go der sit n think...den rebc cum acc me..took my hp n listen to music...den she saw da necklance n rings...den angeline n jass cum lorz...den der go le..i finally throw it into da sea...haix...den rebc veri sad duno why..she cried..haix...sry to make u sad or wat... haixx... aft dat..i betta le lahz...but stil mood swing...den at nitez..i alone der agian...alweis alone...den ask angeline eat..she dun wan..iden i fed up le...haix...nvm...den play charcoal...black n dirty...den cass go le..nv tell me...makes me worry lorz...haix..duno lahz...den lata acc angeline home....den i go home bath n eat...tok to cass...rebc msg me...dats wll baz.... 2day..wake up msg cass...she nv slp sia..haix..duno lahz.. haix...she ask if wana go out on fri..me beri ^_^ haha!! n surprise..cuz tot she nt free lorz...but i no oney lehz...sianz!! stupid holiday!! no money!! shit lorz...den angeline veri zai yi abt rebc..she think s dat rebc lyk me...den lyk 2timer!! duno lahz..nw still haben reply cass... will reply lata..haix...sad a bit lahz...mayb is cuz of sher n cass...since peter lyks her...she lyks peter...den they shld be tgt lorz...why she dun wan..?? haix...dun miss tis chance lorz...dun care da promise.. juz go 4 it baz...watevea u do..i will support u..haix....duno lahz!! why dunwana gib urself a chance?! or r u scare of hurtin me?! i am ok lahz!! wun die..as long as u r happi..i ok le!! stay happy alweis... letting go... bit by bit!! hope u'll be by myside to gib me da strength....thx...buaiz
i know that i have loved you ... at 3:30 pm
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Wednesday, June 22, 2005
sianz...modd swing..siao
sianz...nw in da mornin...so sianz lorz...yawn..lata still got bbq lorz...ytd mornin tok to angeline...sianz...den aft dat..go slp agian...duno why am i so tired nwadays lorz...kinda wana break dwn liao...haha!! den aftnoon...slp slp slp lorz...so sianz...at nite go fren hse lorz...den aft dat...got back home...call cass lorz... we tok tok lorz... den duno why suddenly feel veri sad...beri beri sad...den tears well up my eyes...duno why lehz....kinda lyk mood swing lorz..me siao le lahz!! haix...mayb is partly bcuz of sher baz...look back den veri sad...but also mayb cuz of cass lahz...duno lorz...haix....me also nt sure lahz...den i duno le lahz!! haix...dun care le..duno wats da feelin le..cuz slp le den 4get le lorz..... haix....den rebc msg lorz....she say miss me...dun care baz..duno lahz! den ask me wat i treat her as...fren zit? or more..i say duno...den ask her back..she also duno..she said more den frens...aiya..dun care lahz...haiz...still wonderin wana sign on nt...ask cass but she nv gib me an ans...haix.... juz wana nnnoe cannt mehz....wats so diff....nvm lahz...sianz.... den if i stead angeline...she will mind....i zai yi cass dats why nv stead angeline...i wana noe her ans....haix....since she mind den i wun stead de lorz...duno lyk angeline nt lorz...so betta nt stead also...duno baz..stay happy...nw bro naggin say wana use com!! fuckup sia..hao le lahz...nth to write le...buaiz.....
i know that i have loved you ... at 11:02 am
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Monday, June 20, 2005
why ish my blog alweis sad sad de?! how i hope i can include happi thingy inside lorz....haiz... lets tok abt today baz...me beri early wake up lorz...3+ awake le lorz....den saw 2 miss call...ish rebc de...haiz..she wana tok...den sent me a msg ask if i free...den say if i entertain other gals nt?! wat crap lorz... haiz... she abt 12+ wana tok.. of cuz i slp le lorz..actually, last time i veri late slp de...but nw...haiz...no mood le baz..duno baz...den i reply her.msg lorz...den da vibration wake her up baz...she replied me..den we tok lorz...den rain...mum cum out scold me..say in middle of nite siao siao go tok...dotz...but lata when she go slp le...we tok again..abt 3hrs+ bazi think!! haiz... den she sad sad de..she tell me dat she duno why miss me veri veri muc...haiz..duno baz...haiz..den tok tok le... we treat each other as blog..tok our feelin n probs out...den she say she still lyk me... she wana be fair to me n daryl.. but i told her no nid lorz..as long she n daryl happi can le.... she promised me 3things..hope she can make it! haiz...den mornin...go F&N... last minutes de..haix...den cum out..saw cass n angeline lorz...haiz... dun reali noe how to face cass lorz.... dats why i nv look at her or reali tok to her or wat lorz...when i say her auntie, she look at me..so angry...haiz...beri sry baz...duno baz...den kinda sad...ahhhh! cannt think too muc le! me no chance de! dats why i try to kep a distance frm her...try to 4get her...dun wana put pressure on her or wat lorz! aft da gatherin..we go buy things le...aft dat, i and jass n angeline...we go back coffeeshop do appriszal lorz! duno how to spell lahz...den aft dat...jass go le...haiz... me and angeline also go lorz...acc her home...haiz.... reali hope got da chance to acc cass home too.... wana get closer to her...but i siao baz!! haiz.. den took da same bus as cass baz...i didnt saw her...she also nv c me...nt fated baz...untill when they alight...den i saw dem...ish angeline tell me de lorz...haiz... duno baz...aft dat..i go back home..bath le den slp le lorz.. wake up eat dinner... den cass msg me..ask abt my headache...me veri happi... at da veri least..sje does care baz..mayb is cuz i her kor baz...duno baz...but///nvm..den wana tok to her but she cant..den angeline also tok halfway...call xj.. she noe i lyk cass and abt angeline thingy...cuz i told her lahz...cuz some things cant tell cass also marx..cuz ish abt her haiz...den xj nt goin bbq...sianz...haiz...xj say me n cass veri pei..in camp she think cass lyk me also... but i dun think so lorz..i told her le...she dun lyk me...haiz...she day dreamin lahz!! aiyo!! duno lahz!! nw online cuz i wana see if she online nt..but dun hv lorz...den nvm baz...sianz...stay happi baz me..haiz.....
i know that i have loved you ... at 8:53 pm
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Sunday, June 19, 2005
how?!
haiz....how?! can tell me marx?! think ish on friday baz...i told cass dat i lyk her...haiz...actually i shldnt told her de...duno why i go suddenly tell her...i noe her heart got peter n no one else...dats why i dun wana tell her...haiz... dun wan her to tink so muc or wat... maybe is i scare bein rejected baz..i also duno... reali duno why i go tell her...mayb its in my heart 4 far too long le baz... frm dat time crush till nw baz...hidin my feelings...feel veri comfortable wif her...even cried in front or her b4...omg sia!! how can lorz?! haiz...duno baz.... den da veri same day....angeline cum tell e dat she lyk me..she say is lyk nt crush...i duno how to react sia... haiz...i also duno my feelin 2wards her is real or wat...seems veri unreal u noe marx?! nevertheless, i still msg wif her... as a fren lahz!! haiz.... i duno how sia... gort a person i lyk..but she dun lyk me...den another person i duno i lyk nt lyk me... haiz.. actually, cass is a beri gd gal... i hesitate to tell her..cuz i scare i will hurt her lorz...haiz... hse's alweis be der 4 me when i nid her... wat more can i ask?! suspose we juz remain lyk dat baz...den i also duno how lahz nw...haiz...she say we remain as kor n mei.. den let it be baz...i understand...haiz... i also duno wat am i doin?! acc angel back n to hq...haiz...if fren why muz so close!? shit me!! haiz...but i keep thinkin of cass...wat ish she thinkin nw?! wonderin lorz... i juz hope evrything is juz some kinda illusion n its juz a dream baz...haiz... stay happi alweis......haiz....
i know that i have loved you ... at 4:09 pm
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Wednesday, June 15, 2005
aft camp
haiz..aft cammp le...wat da hell did i do?! i was reali useless in da camp..so slack..i duno why...haiz..i dun dare to take dem.. cuz of sher n mic... i reali duno how to face sher...got alot of time wana cry..esp at nite...but cant lahz... guys dun cry u noe..wat am i doin?! haiz.. wheneva i see sher..i cant control...haiz... veri veri upset u noe marx?! haiz... suspose i dun sign on baz...such a useless guy lyk me..haiz...i nw reali duno wat i shld do...den hp spoil in camp...den nw got new hp le...dotz..but my mum de...but betta den nth...haiz...i reali duno wat i shld do.. cant bai tou da ying yin sher had left behind,,reali hate her!! haiz...in camp...she damm chao keng!! can see de lorz...but mic?! i was reali veri worried abt her.. she lyk so serious...haiz.... i dun care sher!! cuz i wana show her dat i dun care her animore n dun hav feelin 4 her animore le!! n i dun nid her! wana prove n show her da i can go on w/o her n is veri happy! but its onli de surface...haiz...duno baz....at least act le ish betta baz... in da camp, i saw her scar...was veri upset...was da scar sge cut cuz of me?! perharps i too bhb le lahz!...haiz...plz do take care baz! i duno when will i eva c u all again! but i noe my heart will move on juz lyk my fav song...titanic..my heart will go on..buaiz baz
i know that i have loved you ... at 10:28 pm
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