Thursday, October 30, 2014
The Pretense
It's been so long... So long that I've forgotten about human nature. We are good at pretending. Pretending to be okay, pretending to be rich, pretending to be someone nice and pretending to be real. I am who I am and I'm trying my best not to put up a false front. I'm tired.
Many people around come and goes. Some pretended to be good friends and gets close to you for an ulterior motive while others pretend to be ignorant. But one thing is for certain, we all pretend to be strong. Just liked many whom I've met, pretense is natural and a way of life. Sometimes, we unknowingly lied because of them.
It's funny... Thinking about how it was and have turned out to. Your pretense was too good and so was I. Had a few friends whom I thought it was fine but... Haha. Turn out to be just empty shell. In the end, all I have is myself and only myself can I pretend to be. I'm tired.
I always trust, believe and hope. Whatever said, I'll take it as it is and believe sincerely that everything was real. When some things changes, it hurts. I'm tired. Your pretense, my pretense, it doesn't matter anymore. Once upon a time, we have never met and will never see each other again. Sayonara
Many people around come and goes. Some pretended to be good friends and gets close to you for an ulterior motive while others pretend to be ignorant. But one thing is for certain, we all pretend to be strong. Just liked many whom I've met, pretense is natural and a way of life. Sometimes, we unknowingly lied because of them.
It's funny... Thinking about how it was and have turned out to. Your pretense was too good and so was I. Had a few friends whom I thought it was fine but... Haha. Turn out to be just empty shell. In the end, all I have is myself and only myself can I pretend to be. I'm tired.
I always trust, believe and hope. Whatever said, I'll take it as it is and believe sincerely that everything was real. When some things changes, it hurts. I'm tired. Your pretense, my pretense, it doesn't matter anymore. Once upon a time, we have never met and will never see each other again. Sayonara
i know that i have loved you ... at 4:00 pm
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Wednesday, October 29, 2014
You
How have you been? You know... It's around this time that you left. It was right before my exams last year and after your O'levels. I hope you're coping well in school. Life seems to be going just fine for you and it won't stop just for me. I'm still living the way i am, trying to figure out my life.
I'm not broke but i'm broken. Just one more time, i wish i could see you. It's weird. What would i have to tell you or say if i see you? I don't even know how i would react when i see you with your love one. Whenever i see beautiful stuff, i would think of you. Your birthday is just around the corner and i was thinking about what to get for you but i roughly have an idea now. I could not possibly meet you or give it to you in person. I guess i would have to just leave it somewhere? Although i could not see you expression when you open them, i hope you will smile and know that somewhere in this world, you're not forgotten.
Take care...
I'm not broke but i'm broken. Just one more time, i wish i could see you. It's weird. What would i have to tell you or say if i see you? I don't even know how i would react when i see you with your love one. Whenever i see beautiful stuff, i would think of you. Your birthday is just around the corner and i was thinking about what to get for you but i roughly have an idea now. I could not possibly meet you or give it to you in person. I guess i would have to just leave it somewhere? Although i could not see you expression when you open them, i hope you will smile and know that somewhere in this world, you're not forgotten.
Take care...
i know that i have loved you ... at 8:39 pm
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Monday, October 20, 2014
Endless Story
If your haven't change your mind, what would be have become now? I keep wondering... If we had cherished each other, would we end up this way? The gentle wind blow upon my face and I remember your smile and your warmth, it's so hard to say goodbye.
In the midst of everything, perhaps we have forgotten what brought us together. Even though it seems unimportant, your memories within me doesn't fade. No matter what happen, I'll keep moving on, you're my love, it's an endless story even though I'm all alone. I'll be there always waiting for you to think of me.
Memories of our time together, nothing would ever replace them. If you still remember me, what would it that you recall? Was it my gentle smile or warmth? Or the kisses I landed gently on you? I just don't wanna say goodbye.
As the morning sun rise, the wind blows, you came alive in my memories. Always, that's our never-ending endless story.
In the midst of everything, perhaps we have forgotten what brought us together. Even though it seems unimportant, your memories within me doesn't fade. No matter what happen, I'll keep moving on, you're my love, it's an endless story even though I'm all alone. I'll be there always waiting for you to think of me.
Memories of our time together, nothing would ever replace them. If you still remember me, what would it that you recall? Was it my gentle smile or warmth? Or the kisses I landed gently on you? I just don't wanna say goodbye.
As the morning sun rise, the wind blows, you came alive in my memories. Always, that's our never-ending endless story.
i know that i have loved you ... at 7:23 am
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Friday, October 17, 2014
Fixing a broken self
There was nothing to say the day you left. It was sudden and i felt it was coming. Further more, i had finally left my past behind to be with you but ended up, i was the fool. I'm tired, i told you. I'm scared even now. There can be no part of me that find rest yet i'm moving on with my life as a soulless person. Perhaps you, liked the many others i came across didn't understand and maybe there was nothing necessary for others to understand. I am just relieved that you're happy with someone else even though you said it wasn't because of him but it's okay, it's over.
Right from the start, i know i am broken beyond words. Everyday, i would think of dying and how to make good use of my death. I feel as lonely as ever which i told no one. I smiled and i cried. I just seem like any other person on the earth, yes i am. How was i able to give anyone happiness when i'm so reliance for someone there to reach out to me? I was cheated time after time, torn and tattered, i kept moving. Will there be a day when i can fix myself so that i would feel no pain, no suffering and no sadness? I look up at the evening sky and i thought, fate is rubbish and i... beyond anything was born to carry such fate. For all that i'm broken, i am myself. A hidden side of me which no one would ever know nor understand. Beyond fixing, beyond repair, i gently wish for the end to come.
Right from the start, i know i am broken beyond words. Everyday, i would think of dying and how to make good use of my death. I feel as lonely as ever which i told no one. I smiled and i cried. I just seem like any other person on the earth, yes i am. How was i able to give anyone happiness when i'm so reliance for someone there to reach out to me? I was cheated time after time, torn and tattered, i kept moving. Will there be a day when i can fix myself so that i would feel no pain, no suffering and no sadness? I look up at the evening sky and i thought, fate is rubbish and i... beyond anything was born to carry such fate. For all that i'm broken, i am myself. A hidden side of me which no one would ever know nor understand. Beyond fixing, beyond repair, i gently wish for the end to come.
i know that i have loved you ... at 5:14 pm
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
