Friday, June 29, 2012
Perhaps
I've just received the promotion letter today. I'm happy yet sad. I wish i could have someone whom i can celebrate with, someone to share this piece of news with. But, being a loner, do i really need anyone? Perhaps? I've thought of giving her a text, but i didn't. What good would it be to text her when i'm not even sure if my message would hurt her or irritates her? Perhaps, maybe, what if... All these keep coming into my mind. I've been avoiding her ever since. I've been trying my best to keep my sorrow at bay. The urge to text and see her, the things i do, places i went, it reminded me of her. Perhaps, there is a better solution? Perhaps, there is a better cure of this misery and sorrow? Or perhaps, a miracle will happen?
It's coming to the end of June! Next month will be her birthday. I'm starting to think of how to celebrate for her, the birthday wishes and presents. Should i or should i not? Is it better not to text her or will once do? What's the best cause for her? Slowly but surely, i'm being forgotten. She once told me that there is no one who is replaceable but it seems unlikely. When you befriend a new person, you'll generally talk more to him/her and forget the one whom braved through the thick and thin with you. You'll prepare presents for the new friends but not the old ones. Your concern is much lesser. Or in another case, a new lover. Somehow, you have to let go of the old to get the new. Is this what it is?
HBD!! I was planning to send her that on her birthday. But will she be able to understand? It's so unlike me. Why do i have to go through such length to change myself into someone i'm not? Every moment, i spend thinking of her, she might be thinking of someone else. HBD, happy birthday. I try to make it short to avoid contact. Is this the best i can do??
I often ask myself, is this the best i can do for her. The answer is always no. I could do better and more for her. But will she appreciates it or just ask you to scram after she found someone better? I'm proud to tell people i've tried my best for her but i failed miserably.
A bird in hand is worth 2 in the bush. Perhaps, many can't see that. Perhaps, she can't see nor feel it. I dare not use forever anymore because there is nothing that last forever. But, always... I'll be there for you. I'm just a call away...
i know that i have loved you ... at 9:30 pm
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Wednesday, June 27, 2012
I'm Already There
He called her on the road
From a lonely cold hotel room
Just to hear her say I love you one more time
But when he heard the sound
Of the kids laughing in the background
He had to wipe away a tear from his eye
A little voice came on the phone
Said daddy when you coming home
He said the first thing that came to his mind
Im already there
Take a look around
Im the sunshine in your hair
Im the shadow on the ground
Im the whisper in the wind
Im your imaginary friend
And I know Im in your prayers
Oh Im already there
She got back on the phone
Said I really miss you darling
Dont worry about the kids theyll be alright
Wish I was in your arms
Lying right there beside you
But I know that Ill be in your dreams tonight
And Ill gently kiss your lips
Touch you with my fingertips
So turn out the light and close your eyes
Im already there
Dont make a sound
Im the beat in your heart
Im the moonlight shining down
Im the whisper in the wind
And Ill be there until the end
Can you feel the love that we share
Oh Im already there
We may be a thousand miles apart
But Ill be with you wherever you are
Im already there
Take a look around
Im the sunshine in your hair
Im the shadow on the ground
Im the whisper in the wind
And Ill be there until the end
Can you feel the love that we share
Oh Im already there
Oh Im already
There
i know that i have loved you ... at 11:56 pm
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Thursday, June 07, 2012
Painful
It's been a long while since my last entry. I'm not perfect, but i keep trying, that's what i said i would do from the start. I'm having a very bad headache now. I tried my best to smile and acted liked nothing ever happened everyday. Even now, my eyes are still painful from the tears that people would never know. The scars deep within aren't meant to be share but to keep inside of me. Would doing that make things easier? Or would it be the same? There seems to be something compressing on my chest and sometimes i can hardly breathe. I let out a sigh hoping the feeling would go away but it didn't. But today, i know why. 2 weeks ago was the 3rd time i ......... It doesn't matter i guess? I love seeing it. I just hope she'll be able to live happily with her love. I'm tired. Time to close my eyes. Will everyday be a dream or will it always remain as a story so cruel?
i know that i have loved you ... at 3:02 pm
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Tuesday, June 05, 2012
我很想爱他
天空 下起雨了
他撑的伞 在你的身边陪著
可是 我不快乐
因为看见 他脸上的笑 是很勉强的
我很想爱他 但是眼睛在说谎
隐瞒比较容易吧
免得感情变的复杂
我很想爱他 但是理智在吵架
退出可以解围吗
谁能给我一个好的回答
爱情 是模糊的
可怜的是 没有勇气选择
如果 再舍不得
这样下去 我们每个人都是受害者
我很想爱他 但是眼睛在说谎
隐瞒比较容易吧
免得感情变的复杂
我很想爱他 但是理智在吵架
退出可以解围吗
谁能给我一个好的回答
当爱情 陷在危险边缘
是否都会伤痕累累
是否都会苦不堪言
我很想爱他 但是眼睛在说谎
隐瞒比较容易吧
免得感情变的复杂
我很想爱他 但是理智在吵架
退出可以解围吗
谁能给我一个好的回答
我很想爱他 但是眼睛在说谎
隐瞒比较容易吧
免得感情变的复杂
我很想爱他 但是理智在吵架
退出可以解围吗
谁能给我一个好的回答
爱情教会我们都放不下
i know that i have loved you ... at 11:26 pm
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
