Friday, January 27, 2012
Azurite
I didn’t realize until I met you
That I was this strong
I have found something
I want to protect
And you’re the one
Whose shown me what it is
Just being with you makes
Even my ordinary day shine brightly
Your voice and smile
I want to protect them forever
You tell me you think we can overcome
Anything as long as we stay together
I think, as I look into your forthright eyes
That I love you
On nights we can’t see each
Other because we’re far apart
I look at the stars in the sky
I want to believe passionate in
The feelings that I have for you
And continue to protect them
Although I have known you for a long time
I never dreamed
These feelings would sprout
And that I would fall in love with you
Casually going home,
As I look at the stars in the night sky
I take the long way on purpose
And lean on your shoulder as we walk
You tell me you think we can overcome
Anything as long as we stay together
I think, as I look into your forthright eyes
That I love you
I didn’t realize until I met you
That I was this strong
I have found something
I want to protect
And you’re the one
Whose shown me what it is
Just being with you makes
Even my ordinary day shine brightly
Your voice and smile
I want to protect them forever
You tell me you think we can overcome
Anything as long as we stay together
I think, as I look into your forthright eyes
That I love you
On nights we can’t see each
Other because we’re far apart
I look at the stars in the sky
I want to believe passionate in
The feelings that I have for you
And continue to protect them
That I was this strong
I have found something
I want to protect
And you’re the one
Whose shown me what it is
Just being with you makes
Even my ordinary day shine brightly
Your voice and smile
I want to protect them forever
You tell me you think we can overcome
Anything as long as we stay together
I think, as I look into your forthright eyes
That I love you
On nights we can’t see each
Other because we’re far apart
I look at the stars in the sky
I want to believe passionate in
The feelings that I have for you
And continue to protect them
Although I have known you for a long time
I never dreamed
These feelings would sprout
And that I would fall in love with you
Casually going home,
As I look at the stars in the night sky
I take the long way on purpose
And lean on your shoulder as we walk
You tell me you think we can overcome
Anything as long as we stay together
I think, as I look into your forthright eyes
That I love you
I didn’t realize until I met you
That I was this strong
I have found something
I want to protect
And you’re the one
Whose shown me what it is
Just being with you makes
Even my ordinary day shine brightly
Your voice and smile
I want to protect them forever
You tell me you think we can overcome
Anything as long as we stay together
I think, as I look into your forthright eyes
That I love you
On nights we can’t see each
Other because we’re far apart
I look at the stars in the sky
I want to believe passionate in
The feelings that I have for you
And continue to protect them
i know that i have loved you ... at 11:09 pm
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fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Friday, January 20, 2012
Crucify My Love
Crucify my love
If my love is blind
Crucify my love
If it sets me free
Never know Never trust
"That love should see a color"
Crucify my love
If it should be the way
Swing the heartache
Feel it inside out
When the wind cries
I'll say goodbye
Tried to learn Tried to find
To reach out for eternity
Where's the answer
Is this forever
Like a river flowing to the sea
You'll be miles away, and I will know
I know I can deal with the pain
No reason to cry
Crucify my love
If my love is blind
Crucify my love
If it sets me free
Never know Never trust
"That love should see a color"
Crucify my love
If it should be the way
'Til the loneliness shadows the sky
I'll be sailing down and I will know
I know I can clear clouds away
Oh Is it a crime to love
Swing the heartache
Feel it inside out
When the wind cries
I'll say goodbye
Tried to learn Tried to find
To reach out for eternity
Where's the answer
Is this forever
If my love is blind
Crucify my love
If it sets me free
Never know Never trust
"That love should see a color"
Crucify my love
If it should be the way
If my love is blind
Crucify my love
If it sets me free
Never know Never trust
"That love should see a color"
Crucify my love
If it should be the way
Swing the heartache
Feel it inside out
When the wind cries
I'll say goodbye
Tried to learn Tried to find
To reach out for eternity
Where's the answer
Is this forever
Like a river flowing to the sea
You'll be miles away, and I will know
I know I can deal with the pain
No reason to cry
Crucify my love
If my love is blind
Crucify my love
If it sets me free
Never know Never trust
"That love should see a color"
Crucify my love
If it should be the way
'Til the loneliness shadows the sky
I'll be sailing down and I will know
I know I can clear clouds away
Oh Is it a crime to love
Swing the heartache
Feel it inside out
When the wind cries
I'll say goodbye
Tried to learn Tried to find
To reach out for eternity
Where's the answer
Is this forever
If my love is blind
Crucify my love
If it sets me free
Never know Never trust
"That love should see a color"
Crucify my love
If it should be the way
i know that i have loved you ... at 8:11 pm
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fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Saturday, January 14, 2012
Love? Or Just Sex?
I've come across many many guys whom ain't shy and open to talk about what they did with their ex-girlfriends or their currently one. They always talk about having "eaten" another girl or such. It means he had sex with the other partner. Their motives are just sex and secondly love. Sometimes love doesn't even play a part in these "relationships". Am i too naive to think it's wrong or am i not hard-hearted enough to just fool around and treat them like sluts when i've been hurt and cheated countless times.
I always believe in protecting your love ones. Be it in name or physically, i will do my best to keep their modesty and protect them from rumors and other unrelated stuff. Many would have say that if you didn't "eat" your ex or girlfriends, how can she consider your girlfriend? It makes me ponder, is love just about sex or sex is just about love? I can love someone so dearly with it. It fact, the more i love that someone, i am afraid to take something so precious from them. It's too precious and valuable and i can never return or give anything in return. Nevertheless, sometimes you would wanna share these wonderful moments with your beloved ones.
It simply makes me question myself whether am i a real guy? Caring so much about others when she's cheated and left, where she left scars everywhere and told you lies countless times. I could've just be like any other guys. I could've just cheat girls for sex but i can't. Is this how a true guy should be?
Till now it's still hurting everyday and night. Many secrets and sorrow are hidden deep within. I believe there will come a day when i can smile again from within. Take care my feelings and memories. I hope i am able to become someone real someday. I would choose love than to have sex. It's just me, or would other guys do the same? I wonder....
I always believe in protecting your love ones. Be it in name or physically, i will do my best to keep their modesty and protect them from rumors and other unrelated stuff. Many would have say that if you didn't "eat" your ex or girlfriends, how can she consider your girlfriend? It makes me ponder, is love just about sex or sex is just about love? I can love someone so dearly with it. It fact, the more i love that someone, i am afraid to take something so precious from them. It's too precious and valuable and i can never return or give anything in return. Nevertheless, sometimes you would wanna share these wonderful moments with your beloved ones.
It simply makes me question myself whether am i a real guy? Caring so much about others when she's cheated and left, where she left scars everywhere and told you lies countless times. I could've just be like any other guys. I could've just cheat girls for sex but i can't. Is this how a true guy should be?
Till now it's still hurting everyday and night. Many secrets and sorrow are hidden deep within. I believe there will come a day when i can smile again from within. Take care my feelings and memories. I hope i am able to become someone real someday. I would choose love than to have sex. It's just me, or would other guys do the same? I wonder....
i know that i have loved you ... at 7:48 pm
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fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Friday, January 13, 2012
Wheels Of Dawn
Shaded by the trees, calling out to the wind, I'm lying face-down crying
I saw a version of myself I didn't even recognize
On this guitar I'm playing the melody of someone who's passed on
A star falls in the grief of someone who'll never be seen again
Please don't go, no matter how much you scream,
all it will do is quietly stir these orange petals
Saved on my soft brow,
I send the memories in my palm far away
An eternal farewell as I keep strumming
The heart of a child clinging to a gentle hand
The blazing wheels cast it off and continue on
On this guitar I'm playing the grief of someone who's passed on
The strings in my heart being plucked at violently
In the pure white unstained by sorrow,
the orange petals stirred in a summer shadow
Even if my soft brow is lost,
I'll cross over the far off, red-stained sand
The rhythm of farewell
Branded into my memories, on the ever-turning earth,
there is something sprouting in remembrance
Sending off the dawn's carriage
Those orange petals are stirring somewhere even now
The peaceful daybreak I once saw
Until it is placed in my hands once more,
please don't let the light go out
The wheels are turning
I saw a version of myself I didn't even recognize
On this guitar I'm playing the melody of someone who's passed on
A star falls in the grief of someone who'll never be seen again
Please don't go, no matter how much you scream,
all it will do is quietly stir these orange petals
Saved on my soft brow,
I send the memories in my palm far away
An eternal farewell as I keep strumming
The heart of a child clinging to a gentle hand
The blazing wheels cast it off and continue on
On this guitar I'm playing the grief of someone who's passed on
The strings in my heart being plucked at violently
In the pure white unstained by sorrow,
the orange petals stirred in a summer shadow
Even if my soft brow is lost,
I'll cross over the far off, red-stained sand
The rhythm of farewell
Branded into my memories, on the ever-turning earth,
there is something sprouting in remembrance
Sending off the dawn's carriage
Those orange petals are stirring somewhere even now
The peaceful daybreak I once saw
Until it is placed in my hands once more,
please don't let the light go out
The wheels are turning
i know that i have loved you ... at 9:23 pm
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fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Yesterday.... Once More
When I was young
I'd listen to the radio
Waitin' for my favorite songs
When they played I'd sing along
It made me smile.
Those were such happy times
And not so long ago
How I wondered where they'd gone
But they're back again
Just like a long lost friend
All the songs I loved so well.
Every Sha-la-la-la
Every Wo-o-wo-o
Still shines
Every shing-a-ling-a-ling
That they're startin' to sing's
So fine.
When they get to the part
Where he's breakin' her heart
It can really make me cry
Just like before
It's yesterday once more.
Lookin' back on how it was
In years gone by
And the good times that I had
Makes today seem rather sad
So much has changed.
It was songs of love that
I would sing to then
And I'd memorize each word
Those old melodies
Still sound so good to me
As they melt the years away.
All my best memories
Come back clearly to me
Some can even make me cry.
Just like before
It's yesterday once more.
I'd listen to the radio
Waitin' for my favorite songs
When they played I'd sing along
It made me smile.
Those were such happy times
And not so long ago
How I wondered where they'd gone
But they're back again
Just like a long lost friend
All the songs I loved so well.
Every Sha-la-la-la
Every Wo-o-wo-o
Still shines
Every shing-a-ling-a-ling
That they're startin' to sing's
So fine.
When they get to the part
Where he's breakin' her heart
It can really make me cry
Just like before
It's yesterday once more.
Lookin' back on how it was
In years gone by
And the good times that I had
Makes today seem rather sad
So much has changed.
It was songs of love that
I would sing to then
And I'd memorize each word
Those old melodies
Still sound so good to me
As they melt the years away.
All my best memories
Come back clearly to me
Some can even make me cry.
Just like before
It's yesterday once more.
i know that i have loved you ... at 8:41 pm
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fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Thursday, January 12, 2012
Miss you when i'm dreaming
Today I didn’t think of you
Today was alright
I had a lot of things to do
I was moving on with my life
But now I need some answers, some answers
I’m tired and I’m getting weak
Some answers, some answers
I only miss you when I’m dreaming
That’s why I don’t wanna close my eyes
Tell me why you only hurt me when I’m sleeping
The only time I can’t put up a fight
Is when I’m dreaming
Another hour passes by
It’s gonna be a long night ahead
Coz I feel you creeping up inside my mind
Every time I look at my bed
But now I need some answers, some answers
I’m tired and I’m weak
Some answers, some answers
I only miss you when I’m dreaming
That’s why I don’t wanna close my eyes
Tell me why you only hurt me when I’m sleeping
The only time I can’t put up a fight (dreaming)
The only time I can’t live without you (dreaming)
I can’t let you go
Oh no
I only miss you when I’m dreaming
That’s why I don’t wanna close my eyes
Tell me why you only hurt me when I’m sleeping
The only time I can’t control my mind, oh
And the only time I can’t put up a fight
I miss you when I’m dreaming
Today was alright
I had a lot of things to do
I was moving on with my life
But now I need some answers, some answers
I’m tired and I’m getting weak
Some answers, some answers
I only miss you when I’m dreaming
That’s why I don’t wanna close my eyes
Tell me why you only hurt me when I’m sleeping
The only time I can’t put up a fight
Is when I’m dreaming
Another hour passes by
It’s gonna be a long night ahead
Coz I feel you creeping up inside my mind
Every time I look at my bed
But now I need some answers, some answers
I’m tired and I’m weak
Some answers, some answers
I only miss you when I’m dreaming
That’s why I don’t wanna close my eyes
Tell me why you only hurt me when I’m sleeping
The only time I can’t put up a fight (dreaming)
The only time I can’t live without you (dreaming)
I can’t let you go
Oh no
I only miss you when I’m dreaming
That’s why I don’t wanna close my eyes
Tell me why you only hurt me when I’m sleeping
The only time I can’t control my mind, oh
And the only time I can’t put up a fight
I miss you when I’m dreaming
i know that i have loved you ... at 9:01 pm
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fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Saturday, January 07, 2012
Winter Sleep
It keeps coming back to me
I remember this pain
It spreads across my eyes
Everything is dull
Everyone's smiling, they're smiling
It pushes me far far away
I can't understand
Everything is blue
Can you hear me out there?
Will you hold me now Hold me now My frozen heart
I'm gazing from the distance and
I feel everything pass through me
I can't be alone right now
Will you hold me now Hold me now My frozen heart
I'm lost in a deep winter sleep
I can't seem to find my way out alone
Can you wake me
I know when I let it in
It hides love from this moment
So I guard it close
I watch the moves it makes
But it gets me, but it gets me
I wish I could understand how I
Could make it disappear, make it disappear
Anyone out there hear me now?
Will you hold me now Hold me now My frozen heart
Kiss my lips and maybe you can take me to your world for now
I can't be alone right now
Will you hold me now Hold me now My frozen heart
Please make it all go away
Am I ever gonna feel myself again?
I hope I will
I remember this pain
It spreads across my eyes
Everything is dull
Everyone's smiling, they're smiling
It pushes me far far away
I can't understand
Everything is blue
Can you hear me out there?
Will you hold me now Hold me now My frozen heart
I'm gazing from the distance and
I feel everything pass through me
I can't be alone right now
Will you hold me now Hold me now My frozen heart
I'm lost in a deep winter sleep
I can't seem to find my way out alone
Can you wake me
I know when I let it in
It hides love from this moment
So I guard it close
I watch the moves it makes
But it gets me, but it gets me
I wish I could understand how I
Could make it disappear, make it disappear
Anyone out there hear me now?
Will you hold me now Hold me now My frozen heart
Kiss my lips and maybe you can take me to your world for now
I can't be alone right now
Will you hold me now Hold me now My frozen heart
Please make it all go away
Am I ever gonna feel myself again?
I hope I will
i know that i have loved you ... at 8:39 pm
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fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Joint
Once more I'm looking at this world,
Dust and after-images, and faint shadows
you have the resolution,
To shoulder everything on your cold back
What do I want to do?
And why?
Didn't I decide to go on a
lonely journey?
Don't let go of this hand
Your feelings are crossing over
And cause the sleeping
wish wish in my heart to awaken
At the furthest end of this powerful gaze are
two figures with no trace of doubt...
That's why we'll keep going towards the future
Looking at this crumbling scenery,
I came to realize the miracle of living
Hoping for a special meaning,
I walked hesitantly down the road without a path
Do I want to believe?...
Yes I want to believe...
Because I want to walk this path with you!
Don't avert your gaze
Even though I can't put this into words,
I desire you from the bottom of my heart.
At the furthest end of this hope are two rigures with no trace no doubt...
That's why we'll move on to the next place.
Anger and sarrow, has shown me joy more than anything else.
Besides, I am always aware
Of you standing right next to me
You're feeling it, right?
There is no need to fear anymore
Hold this hand tightly
Because a power which only you hold
Is turning dreams to reality
At the furthest end of this powerful gaze
Are two figures with no trace no doubt
That's why we'll keep going towards that future.
Dust and after-images, and faint shadows
you have the resolution,
To shoulder everything on your cold back
What do I want to do?
And why?
Didn't I decide to go on a
lonely journey?
Don't let go of this hand
Your feelings are crossing over
And cause the sleeping
wish wish in my heart to awaken
At the furthest end of this powerful gaze are
two figures with no trace of doubt...
That's why we'll keep going towards the future
Looking at this crumbling scenery,
I came to realize the miracle of living
Hoping for a special meaning,
I walked hesitantly down the road without a path
Do I want to believe?...
Yes I want to believe...
Because I want to walk this path with you!
Don't avert your gaze
Even though I can't put this into words,
I desire you from the bottom of my heart.
At the furthest end of this hope are two rigures with no trace no doubt...
That's why we'll move on to the next place.
Anger and sarrow, has shown me joy more than anything else.
Besides, I am always aware
Of you standing right next to me
You're feeling it, right?
There is no need to fear anymore
Hold this hand tightly
Because a power which only you hold
Is turning dreams to reality
At the furthest end of this powerful gaze
Are two figures with no trace no doubt
That's why we'll keep going towards that future.
i know that i have loved you ... at 7:45 pm
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fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Thursday, January 05, 2012
Thousand Years
Heart beats fast
Colors and promises
How to be brave
How can I love when I'm afraid
To fall
But watching you stand alone
All of my doubt
Suddenly goes away somehow
One step closer
I have died everyday
waiting for you
Darlin' don't be afraid
I have loved you for a
Thousand years
I'll love you for a
Thousand more
Time stands still
Beauty I know she is
I will be brave
I will not let anything
Take away
What's standing in front of me
Every breath,
Every hour has come to this
One step closer
I have died everyday
Waiting for you
Darlin' don't be afraid
I have loved you for a
Thousand years
I'll love you for a
Thousand more
And all along I believed
I would find you
Time has brought
Your heart to me
I have loved you for a
Thousand years
I'll love you for a
Thousand more
One step closer
One step closer
(Chorus)
I have died everyday
Waiting for you
Darlin' don't be afraid,
I have loved you for a
Thousand years
I'll love you for a
Thousand more
And all along I believed
I would find you
Time has brought
Your heart to me
I have loved you for a
Thousand years
I'll love you for a
Thousand more
Colors and promises
How to be brave
How can I love when I'm afraid
To fall
But watching you stand alone
All of my doubt
Suddenly goes away somehow
One step closer
I have died everyday
waiting for you
Darlin' don't be afraid
I have loved you for a
Thousand years
I'll love you for a
Thousand more
Time stands still
Beauty I know she is
I will be brave
I will not let anything
Take away
What's standing in front of me
Every breath,
Every hour has come to this
One step closer
I have died everyday
Waiting for you
Darlin' don't be afraid
I have loved you for a
Thousand years
I'll love you for a
Thousand more
And all along I believed
I would find you
Time has brought
Your heart to me
I have loved you for a
Thousand years
I'll love you for a
Thousand more
One step closer
One step closer
(Chorus)
I have died everyday
Waiting for you
Darlin' don't be afraid,
I have loved you for a
Thousand years
I'll love you for a
Thousand more
And all along I believed
I would find you
Time has brought
Your heart to me
I have loved you for a
Thousand years
I'll love you for a
Thousand more
i know that i have loved you ... at 9:50 pm
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fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Sunday, January 01, 2012
The New Year?
It's a special day today. It's new year. Oh well, liked i said, it's a new year! Am i supposed to be happy like the others? Many have new year resolutions and i have some too. Well, i think it's only 2. I can't be that greedy right?
1. Everyone to be happy.
2. My world, or the world would come to an end this year.
A typical and a weird resolution? Well, that's the kind of person i am. When i wish everyone to be happy, the everyone doesn't ever include me. I'm exclusive, i'm all alone and always abandoned and forgotten. Well, leave it that way because that's the best thing that could ever happen to a loner liked me.
Today is also the 3rd year me and Wina got together. I don't wanna be a bother to her or anyone anymore. This year, like the past, i will suppressed my feelings as much as possible. That's the best i can give everyone. I wonder, even if it's to a few, how great the world would be without me. It's time for me to give up on her and everything else. My goal in life? That's to help and save as many as possible. To give them comfort and to drain myself to the brink of hell. To sacrifice myself to give the many blessings i can to others.
I don't belong here. Will anyone ever understand? I love my world, black and white with sufficient red to satisfy my blood lust. The world will never changes just hidden, deeper inside me in time to come...
1. Everyone to be happy.
2. My world, or the world would come to an end this year.
A typical and a weird resolution? Well, that's the kind of person i am. When i wish everyone to be happy, the everyone doesn't ever include me. I'm exclusive, i'm all alone and always abandoned and forgotten. Well, leave it that way because that's the best thing that could ever happen to a loner liked me.
Today is also the 3rd year me and Wina got together. I don't wanna be a bother to her or anyone anymore. This year, like the past, i will suppressed my feelings as much as possible. That's the best i can give everyone. I wonder, even if it's to a few, how great the world would be without me. It's time for me to give up on her and everything else. My goal in life? That's to help and save as many as possible. To give them comfort and to drain myself to the brink of hell. To sacrifice myself to give the many blessings i can to others.
I don't belong here. Will anyone ever understand? I love my world, black and white with sufficient red to satisfy my blood lust. The world will never changes just hidden, deeper inside me in time to come...
i know that i have loved you ... at 11:01 am
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fate crumbled all around 0 identities
