Friday, April 29, 2011
Behind
Seems like just yesterday, you were a part of me. Unbreakable. i thought that nothing could go wrong. But now here i am, i'm torn into pieces. Broken up deep inside, you won't see the tears i've cried for you. A million tears for you. I wanna know where you belong, i wanna know if i can sing that song. Time after time, if you lost and you know i'll be there, time after time. It's all about you, not longer about us. Run away and i cant seem to chase after it. No promises, even now i wanna hold you tight. I just want to die in your arms, here tonight. Even though, we said goodbye, quite some time ago, there's a strength from deep in my heart, that just can't let you go. I still see you in my dreams. So let the rain fall down and wash away my sanity. Why do i still cry for you, trying to get close to you. Even when i know it's just the ghost of you. When will it set me free? I'm trying to save whats left of my soul and heart...
i know that i have loved you ... at 11:03 pm
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Wednesday, April 27, 2011
如果沒有你
HEY 我真的好想你 現在窗外面又開始下著雨
眼睛乾乾的 有想哭的心情
不知道你現在 到底在哪裡
HEY 我真的好想你 太多的情緒 沒適當的表情
最想說的話 我該從何說起
你是否也像我 一樣在想你
如果沒有你 沒有過去 我不會有傷心
但是有如果還是要愛你
如果沒有你 我在哪裡 又有甚麼可惜
反正一切來不及 反正沒有了自己
HEY 我真的好想你 不知道你現在到底在哪裡
HEY 我真的好想你 現在窗外面又開始下著雨
眼睛乾乾的 有想哭的心情
不知道你現在到底在哪裡
HEY 我真的好想你 太多的情緒 沒適當的表情
最想說的話 我應該從何說起
你是否也像我 一樣在想你
如果沒有你 沒有過去 我不會有傷心
但是有如果還是要愛你
如果沒有你 我在哪裡 又有甚麼可惜
反正一切來不及 反正沒有了自己
HEY 我真的好想你 不知道你現在到底在哪裡
你是否也像我一樣在想你
眼睛乾乾的 有想哭的心情
不知道你現在 到底在哪裡
HEY 我真的好想你 太多的情緒 沒適當的表情
最想說的話 我該從何說起
你是否也像我 一樣在想你
如果沒有你 沒有過去 我不會有傷心
但是有如果還是要愛你
如果沒有你 我在哪裡 又有甚麼可惜
反正一切來不及 反正沒有了自己
HEY 我真的好想你 不知道你現在到底在哪裡
HEY 我真的好想你 現在窗外面又開始下著雨
眼睛乾乾的 有想哭的心情
不知道你現在到底在哪裡
HEY 我真的好想你 太多的情緒 沒適當的表情
最想說的話 我應該從何說起
你是否也像我 一樣在想你
如果沒有你 沒有過去 我不會有傷心
但是有如果還是要愛你
如果沒有你 我在哪裡 又有甚麼可惜
反正一切來不及 反正沒有了自己
HEY 我真的好想你 不知道你現在到底在哪裡
你是否也像我一樣在想你
i know that i have loved you ... at 6:57 pm
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Monday, April 25, 2011
Our Promised Land
I"ll leave on a journey heading to the other side of the sun and wind.
Surely, without a map, the door into paradise will open.
The morning you were born into this world, a bell of blessings rang forth.
Embracing only a single treasure, people will be born.
I won"t forget my feelings from that day. They flow through my heart. Dear My Songs.
In the middle of our journey, as we aim towards the country of the sun
Even without a map, we"ll make it to the promised land.
The love-touched legend is constantly changing the endless future
so surely, many dreams can be granted... so smile.
Even though you can"t see it, the treasure is always within your heart.
I won"t forget my feelings from that day. They spread throughout my heart. Dear My Place.
As the bell of wishes resounds forth, the door of destiny opens.
Surely, we can make it through the struggle of getting there and reach our final paradise.
On days where sad rain just continues to fall, continue to swim through them.
You should always believe in yourself... in your heart.
If beyond the rainbow, there was a sound that signalled the birth of tomorrow...
In the middle of our journey, we"d aim towards the country of the sun
Even without a map, we"ll make it to the promised land.
The love-touched legend is constantly changing the endless future
so surely, many dreams can be granted... so smile.
Surely, without a map, the door into paradise will open.
The morning you were born into this world, a bell of blessings rang forth.
Embracing only a single treasure, people will be born.
I won"t forget my feelings from that day. They flow through my heart. Dear My Songs.
In the middle of our journey, as we aim towards the country of the sun
Even without a map, we"ll make it to the promised land.
The love-touched legend is constantly changing the endless future
so surely, many dreams can be granted... so smile.
Even though you can"t see it, the treasure is always within your heart.
I won"t forget my feelings from that day. They spread throughout my heart. Dear My Place.
As the bell of wishes resounds forth, the door of destiny opens.
Surely, we can make it through the struggle of getting there and reach our final paradise.
On days where sad rain just continues to fall, continue to swim through them.
You should always believe in yourself... in your heart.
If beyond the rainbow, there was a sound that signalled the birth of tomorrow...
In the middle of our journey, we"d aim towards the country of the sun
Even without a map, we"ll make it to the promised land.
The love-touched legend is constantly changing the endless future
so surely, many dreams can be granted... so smile.
i know that i have loved you ... at 9:48 pm
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Thursday, April 21, 2011
Be happy
I know that i cannot be, as perfect as you wanted me. I hope that you're fine and i hope you're happy. Being alone to me doesn't matter anymore. Being lonely or get my soul corrupted. What matters most is the people around me to be happy. Maybe someday i will forget about the people i used to cared for. Or maybe one day the memories will fade. What's happened can't be undone or rewritten. Looking at the clouds in the skies makes me wonder when will the end be. The sky is so vast like the ocean. To the unknown after death it's really scary. Nevertheless, even if someday i must die, i hope people can send me off with a smile. My simple wish is not for money but for everyone to obtain true happiness. I sure hope they do. Hope she'll always be happy too... I'll always be here for whoever who needs me. I won't abandon anyone. For i know the feeling of being abandon.
Hope you're happy...
Hope you're happy...
i know that i have loved you ... at 10:32 pm
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Sunday, April 17, 2011
My Heart, my songs
Well, 1st i guess i'm gonna post the few of my favorite meaningful english songs. Well, i'm kind of random but i believe those songs speaks my heart out for me. Their smoothing music and lyrics are the best when expressing how i feel. Let me start now without any order or such. The songs which govern my life, my heart and my soul...
Everytime i hear your name - Cascada
Hold your hands up - Cascada
Why you had to leave - Cascada
Draw the line - Cascada
Another you - Cascada
Love you promise - Cascada
One more night - Cascada
Can't stop the rain - Cascada
What hurts the most - Cascada
Could it be you - Cascada
A thousand mile - Vanessa Carlton
No one - Alicia Keys
A place in this world - Taylor Swift
So Close - Jon Mclaughlin
4 in the morning - Gwen Stefani
A place nearby - Lene Marlin
All or nothing - O town
I'm with you - Avril Lavigne
Crawling back to you - Backstreet boys
Inconsolable - Backstreet boys
Because of you - Kelly Clarkson
Bring me to life - Evanescence
My immortal - Evanescence
Broken - Seether feat. Amy Lee
Broken vow - Lara Fabian
Reason - Cascada
Till the end - Chen Da Wei
Until i get over you - Christina Milian
Realize - Colbie Caillat
Collide - Howie Day
Colors of the wind - Vanessa Williams
Every beat of my heart - Corrinne May
Fly Away - Corrinne May
Journey - Corrinne May
Safe in a crazy world - Corrinne May
Same side of the moon - Corrinne May
Save Me - Corrinne May
The answer - Corrinne May
Will you remember me - Corrinne May
Cry on my shoulder - ???
Am i still the one - Daniel Powter
Lost without you - Delta Goodrem
Listen to your heart - DHT
I'll never go - Eric Santos
Everybody's fool - Evanescence
Footprints on my heart - Paula DeAnda
Here without you - 3 Doors Down
Let the rain fall down - Hilary Duff
I promise - Stacie Orrico
I'll take the tears - A1
Incomplete - Backstreet Boys
Fixing a broken heart - Indecent Obsession
The end - Jason Reeves
More than you'll never know - Jed Madela
Where you are - Jessica Simpson
When you look me in the eyes - Jonas Brothers
All that i am - Journey South
Time after time - Journey South
Keep holding on - Avril Lavigne
Behind these hazel eyes - Kelly Clarkson
I hope you dance - Leann Rhimes
Better in time - Leona Lewis
Yesterday - Leona Lewis
Love you so - ???
The ghost of you - MLTR
That's why you go away - MLTR
Everywhere - Michelle Branch
Million Tears - Groove Coverage
My heart will go on - Cellin Dion
In my dreams - Natalie Brown
Never had a dream come true - S Club 7
Never let you go - Janice Wei
No promises - Shayne Ward
Nobody's home - Avril Lavige
On the side of me - Corrinne May
Queen of my heart - Westlife
Swear it again - Westlife
What hurts the most - Rascal Flatts
Remember me this way - Jordan Hill
Heaven Knows - Rick Price
Right here waiting - Richard Marx
If tomorrow never comes - Ronan Keating
Underneath your clothes - Shakira
The first cut is the deepest - Sheryl Crow
Slow me down - Emmy Rossum
All about us - T.A.T.U
I think of you - Tata Young
Teardrops on my gituar - Taylor Swift
This i promise you - N Sync
This is me - Demi Lovato & Joe Jonas
True - Ryan Cabrera
Unbreak my heart - Toni Braxton
Untitled - Simple Plan
Soledad - Westlife
Miss you when i'm dreaming - Westlife
Never knew i was losing you - Westlife
You don't know - Westlife
When you're gone - Avril Lavigne
Because you love me - ???
These are all the beautiful songs i have. Wish to listen to more and more songs. Hope everything will be fine for everyone.
Everytime i hear your name - Cascada
Hold your hands up - Cascada
Why you had to leave - Cascada
Draw the line - Cascada
Another you - Cascada
Love you promise - Cascada
One more night - Cascada
Can't stop the rain - Cascada
What hurts the most - Cascada
Could it be you - Cascada
A thousand mile - Vanessa Carlton
No one - Alicia Keys
A place in this world - Taylor Swift
So Close - Jon Mclaughlin
4 in the morning - Gwen Stefani
A place nearby - Lene Marlin
All or nothing - O town
I'm with you - Avril Lavigne
Crawling back to you - Backstreet boys
Inconsolable - Backstreet boys
Because of you - Kelly Clarkson
Bring me to life - Evanescence
My immortal - Evanescence
Broken - Seether feat. Amy Lee
Broken vow - Lara Fabian
Reason - Cascada
Till the end - Chen Da Wei
Until i get over you - Christina Milian
Realize - Colbie Caillat
Collide - Howie Day
Colors of the wind - Vanessa Williams
Every beat of my heart - Corrinne May
Fly Away - Corrinne May
Journey - Corrinne May
Safe in a crazy world - Corrinne May
Same side of the moon - Corrinne May
Save Me - Corrinne May
The answer - Corrinne May
Will you remember me - Corrinne May
Cry on my shoulder - ???
Am i still the one - Daniel Powter
Lost without you - Delta Goodrem
Listen to your heart - DHT
I'll never go - Eric Santos
Everybody's fool - Evanescence
Footprints on my heart - Paula DeAnda
Here without you - 3 Doors Down
Let the rain fall down - Hilary Duff
I promise - Stacie Orrico
I'll take the tears - A1
Incomplete - Backstreet Boys
Fixing a broken heart - Indecent Obsession
The end - Jason Reeves
More than you'll never know - Jed Madela
Where you are - Jessica Simpson
When you look me in the eyes - Jonas Brothers
All that i am - Journey South
Time after time - Journey South
Keep holding on - Avril Lavigne
Behind these hazel eyes - Kelly Clarkson
I hope you dance - Leann Rhimes
Better in time - Leona Lewis
Yesterday - Leona Lewis
Love you so - ???
The ghost of you - MLTR
That's why you go away - MLTR
Everywhere - Michelle Branch
Million Tears - Groove Coverage
My heart will go on - Cellin Dion
In my dreams - Natalie Brown
Never had a dream come true - S Club 7
Never let you go - Janice Wei
No promises - Shayne Ward
Nobody's home - Avril Lavige
On the side of me - Corrinne May
Queen of my heart - Westlife
Swear it again - Westlife
What hurts the most - Rascal Flatts
Remember me this way - Jordan Hill
Heaven Knows - Rick Price
Right here waiting - Richard Marx
If tomorrow never comes - Ronan Keating
Underneath your clothes - Shakira
The first cut is the deepest - Sheryl Crow
Slow me down - Emmy Rossum
All about us - T.A.T.U
I think of you - Tata Young
Teardrops on my gituar - Taylor Swift
This i promise you - N Sync
This is me - Demi Lovato & Joe Jonas
True - Ryan Cabrera
Unbreak my heart - Toni Braxton
Untitled - Simple Plan
Soledad - Westlife
Miss you when i'm dreaming - Westlife
Never knew i was losing you - Westlife
You don't know - Westlife
When you're gone - Avril Lavigne
Because you love me - ???
These are all the beautiful songs i have. Wish to listen to more and more songs. Hope everything will be fine for everyone.
i know that i have loved you ... at 8:00 pm
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
If only you knew
You let go of my hand
You say you have important things to do
In search of something
Knocking in a faint sound
Ohh... The pain is burning your senses
Ohh... You're getting colder
Oh believe in me Oh believe in me
The magic you can create
If you only knew
You're forgetting me
Forgetting how to dream
Remember back then
When we played one the dandelion hill
Till the sunset
We didn't need anything else
Ohh... You're always protecting yourself
Ohh... Come here with me
Oh believe in me Oh believe in me
Do you ever feel this quietness inside?
That is where you'll find me
Nothing can erase me
You say you have important things to do
In search of something
Knocking in a faint sound
Ohh... The pain is burning your senses
Ohh... You're getting colder
Oh believe in me Oh believe in me
The magic you can create
If you only knew
You're forgetting me
Forgetting how to dream
Remember back then
When we played one the dandelion hill
Till the sunset
We didn't need anything else
Ohh... You're always protecting yourself
Ohh... Come here with me
Oh believe in me Oh believe in me
Do you ever feel this quietness inside?
That is where you'll find me
Nothing can erase me
i know that i have loved you ... at 12:20 am
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Starless Night
I reached into the sky
My love wouldn't reach you
The multi-colored balloons
Disappeared into the sky, growing smaller and smaller
I'm alone
I had no destination
But you gently held my hand
Starless night, I won’t look back on the shadow of my past
I want to feel your warmth
Tears are falling down; even when I'm lost
I won't let go of your hand
Sometimes we fall apart
We become cowards
But surely we find something there
Take my hand
It’s because the two of us are fragile and imperfect
That we'll stay holding hands forever
Starless night, Though complaints may cross my lips
I want to believe in your warmth
Endless love, I can love even my faults
Because you are my shining star
You are my shining star
My love wouldn't reach you
The multi-colored balloons
Disappeared into the sky, growing smaller and smaller
I'm alone
I had no destination
But you gently held my hand
Starless night, I won’t look back on the shadow of my past
I want to feel your warmth
Tears are falling down; even when I'm lost
I won't let go of your hand
Sometimes we fall apart
We become cowards
But surely we find something there
Take my hand
It’s because the two of us are fragile and imperfect
That we'll stay holding hands forever
Starless night, Though complaints may cross my lips
I want to believe in your warmth
Endless love, I can love even my faults
Because you are my shining star
You are my shining star
i know that i have loved you ... at 12:12 am
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Saturday, April 16, 2011
Wishes...
Suddenly being random. Am i back to normal? To the someone whom i used to be? Bitterness awaits the life of a miserable self whom is struggling to break free. Are there really god in this world i ponder. Often, people tell me to live my life happily. To take care of myself and love myself more. Ain't all of us selfish? Why do we think about us and only us. Even though it breaks my heart to know somehow the bond is broken and we're so far apart. I wish our lives will return to how it was. To the time before we met and meet once more. The existence of breaking will always and forever not be forgotten. My wishes are small in this world. Neither can my voice reach out to the world nor the healing souls. And so as i pray, to remove unnecessary emotions from me anymore. Kine will be the prove i've existed as a normal human before. I wish to transcend life and death. If we can't change fate, i will change my destiny. I'm walking forward, looking back and feeling empty. Cause my life is for rent...
i know that i have loved you ... at 12:13 pm
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Friday, April 15, 2011
Journey
It's a long long journey... And i don't know, where your journey go or how long it will takes to unfold. But i know, as long as i keep my faith shining in the dark, i know you'll be able to feel every beat of my heart. It's gonna be a long journey through the rain and shine. As long as we cherish what we have now, i'm sure we'll become a much happier person I longed for happiness yet i despise it because i am not worthy of it. Life is never fair nor is it really unfair. At times, the road ahead are risky. The journey seems like a never ending one. But i'm sure somehow i'll be able to be the stars to guide those who're lost to their love ones. The journeys with the bright stars shining above, the gentle wind blowing and the smoothing kiss, never forget about it. Cause i'll be watching over you from now on... From now on... It's your journey with another person. I"m alone standing in the crossroad of faith... Till the clock of life struck 12 and sentence me to death. I'll be waiting for the road ahead to be smooth and someday, eventually... it'll lead back to me... Our journey...
i know that i have loved you ... at 12:38 pm
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Wednesday, April 13, 2011
My Heart
So here we stand
Anchored in hope
Letting the rain wash away every fear
Stars in the sky
Twinkle and shine
I pray they won't disappear
'Cause I don't know
where your journey goes
or how long it will take to unfold
But as long as we keep this moment shining in the dark
I will be watching over every beat of your heart
I wish that time
Could be replayed
I'd keep you here with me everyday
They say that love is letting go
I hope that you find your way
'cause I don't know
where your journey goes
or how long it will take to unfold
But as long as we keep this moment shining in the dark
I know you're watching over every beat of my heart
Every beat of my heart..
Every beat of my heart..
Every beat of my heart..
Anchored in hope
Letting the rain wash away every fear
Stars in the sky
Twinkle and shine
I pray they won't disappear
'Cause I don't know
where your journey goes
or how long it will take to unfold
But as long as we keep this moment shining in the dark
I will be watching over every beat of your heart
I wish that time
Could be replayed
I'd keep you here with me everyday
They say that love is letting go
I hope that you find your way
'cause I don't know
where your journey goes
or how long it will take to unfold
But as long as we keep this moment shining in the dark
I know you're watching over every beat of my heart
Every beat of my heart..
Every beat of my heart..
Every beat of my heart..
i know that i have loved you ... at 11:10 pm
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Sunday, April 10, 2011
Leaving you...
离开是一种解脱吗？ I saw this posted on her facebook. Well, it never is a form or relief. Ultimately, the memories left will haunt you. Remember no one can survive on their on. They need food and such. And food is grow and planted by farmers. I hope you can be happy before i go off. I know you will seeing your smile but i'm worried. People keep telling me to forget you. You're not worth putting in so much for. Well, it doesn't seems to matter anymore. If i cant have you, i wish for you to be happy like anyone else. I may not live long since i'm suffering from depression. But i think i will give you my blessing as i pray... Leaving you...
i know that i have loved you ... at 8:39 pm
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
The 291st Post
I've just realised this is my 291st post. This blog has been with me for many many years now since secondary 3 or 4 till date. It makes me realised that sometimes, when we're too focus on something, we tend to lose ourselves easily. Maybe we've forgotten the people who are left behind by our pursue of dreams. Some may even leave you or your world completely. However, many give their blessings, most will never forget the precious person the held or shared their memories with. Being able to live enables us to think in just a direct or moral manner. Most will be thinking why is the world or earth round? Why can we think of it this way, why isn't the earth square or rectangular? Perhaps we're too focus on the facts that blinded us from the truth. Just hope everyone can be happy. Didn't sleep well previously... Someday and somewhat, there will be a time the sun no longer shine again. Are you prepared just like it's in my world? I see darkness and i'll always be there. So i'm not afraid anymore. Not afraid anymore....
i know that i have loved you ... at 1:41 pm
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Saturday, April 09, 2011
White reflection
I feel your love reflection
in the eyes that are looking at me
Imagining a far away, never ending story
The sadness and the pain...
...fly as if to shed them away
The wings that you have given me...
I spread them in my heart
Ah, the heartbeat of love that is so precious
I want to feel its pain and madness
I feel your love reflection...
overlapping our dreams passionately
Wishing for our youth, no fear of mistakes,
I feel your love reflection
in the eyes that are looking at me
Imagining a far away, never ending story
in the eyes that are looking at me
Imagining a far away, never ending story
The sadness and the pain...
...fly as if to shed them away
The wings that you have given me...
I spread them in my heart
Ah, the heartbeat of love that is so precious
I want to feel its pain and madness
I feel your love reflection...
overlapping our dreams passionately
Wishing for our youth, no fear of mistakes,
I feel your love reflection
in the eyes that are looking at me
Imagining a far away, never ending story
i know that i have loved you ... at 10:50 am
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Friday, April 08, 2011
Fly away
When will you be home?" she asks
As we watch the planes take off
We both know we have no clear answer
To where my dreams may lead
She's watched me as I crawled and stumbled
As a child, she was my world
And now to let me go, I know she bleeds
And yet she says to me
You can fly so high
Keep your gaze upon the sky
I'll be praying every step along the way
Even though it breaks my heart to know we'll be so far apart
I love you too much to make you stay
Baby fly away
Autumn leaves fell into spring time and
Silver-painted hair
Daddy called one evening saying
"We need you. Please come back"
When I saw her laying in her bed
Fragile as a child
Pale just like an angel taking flight
I held her as I cried
You can fly so high
Keep your gaze upon the sky
I'll be praying every step along the way
Even though it breaks my heart to know we'll be so far apart
I love you too much to make you stay
Baby fly away
As we watch the planes take off
We both know we have no clear answer
To where my dreams may lead
She's watched me as I crawled and stumbled
As a child, she was my world
And now to let me go, I know she bleeds
And yet she says to me
You can fly so high
Keep your gaze upon the sky
I'll be praying every step along the way
Even though it breaks my heart to know we'll be so far apart
I love you too much to make you stay
Baby fly away
Autumn leaves fell into spring time and
Silver-painted hair
Daddy called one evening saying
"We need you. Please come back"
When I saw her laying in her bed
Fragile as a child
Pale just like an angel taking flight
I held her as I cried
You can fly so high
Keep your gaze upon the sky
I'll be praying every step along the way
Even though it breaks my heart to know we'll be so far apart
I love you too much to make you stay
Baby fly away
i know that i have loved you ... at 8:53 pm
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Thursday, April 07, 2011
The last words
Well, today i did something call the suicidal indication scale. I think it's that name. Kinda forgot about it already. I scored 24. Well, its extreme high risk of suicide but i didn't die. I wonder why sometimes. What's keeping me from giving up everything? I search deep down and the answer was religion. Maybe i'm just too scared of the unknown. To the hell they said when we committed suicide. SIGH...
I've written down all the names of the people i would like to invite for my funeral yesterday. Finally, i've started writing my last words to them. I realised i've been thanking most of them even though they've hurt me deeply. And i wish they're happy with that someone whom they're holding on now. It's become a habit that i pray.
I'll always say, well, i'll translate it to english. Please bless everyone to be safe and sound, healthy and find the correct path back to heaven. Wishing Geok Teng, Vanessa, Wei Shan, Wina, Joanne, Yan Ying and Xin Yan to be happy everyday. Somehow its just a chat when i offer the joss stick.
I hope someday they'll be truly blessed. The people around me and those i cherished..
With love.....
I've written down all the names of the people i would like to invite for my funeral yesterday. Finally, i've started writing my last words to them. I realised i've been thanking most of them even though they've hurt me deeply. And i wish they're happy with that someone whom they're holding on now. It's become a habit that i pray.
I'll always say, well, i'll translate it to english. Please bless everyone to be safe and sound, healthy and find the correct path back to heaven. Wishing Geok Teng, Vanessa, Wei Shan, Wina, Joanne, Yan Ying and Xin Yan to be happy everyday. Somehow its just a chat when i offer the joss stick.
I hope someday they'll be truly blessed. The people around me and those i cherished..
With love.....
i know that i have loved you ... at 9:42 pm
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Wednesday, April 06, 2011
Random come back
The rain falls on my windows
And a coldness runs through my soul
And the rain falls, oh the rain falls
I don't want to be alone
I wish that I could photoshop all our bad memories
'Cause the flashbacks, oh the flashbacks
Won't leave me alone
If you come back to me
I'll be all that you need
Baby, come back to me
Let me make up for what happened in the past
(Come back)
Baby, come back to me
(Come back)
I'll be everything you need
(Come back)
Baby, come back to me
(Come back)
Boy, you're
(One in a million)
(Come back)
Baby, come back to me
(Come back)
I'll be everything you need
(Come back)
Baby, come back to me
(Come back)
You're one in a million
(One in a million)
Lower East-Side of Manhattan
She goes shopping for new clothes
And she buys this, and she buys that
Just leave her alone
I wish that he would listen to her side of the story
It isn't that bad, it isn't that bad
And she's wiser for it now
I admit I cheated
(Admit I cheated)
Don't know why I did it
(Why I did it)
But I do regret it
(Do regret it)
Nothing I can do or say can change the past
(Come back)
Baby, come back to me
(Come back)
I'll be everything you need
(Come back)
Baby, come back to me
(Come back)
Boy, you're
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(One in a million)
(Come back)
Baby, come back to me
(Come back)
I'll be everything you need
(Come back)
Baby, come back to me
(Come back)
You're one in a million
(One in a million)
Everything I ever did
Heaven knows I'm sorry, babe
I was too young to see
You were always there for me
And my curiosity
Got the better of me
Baby, take it easy on me
Anything from A to Z
Call me what you wanna, babe
I open my heart to thee
You were my priority
Can't you see you've punished me
More than enough already?
Baby, take it easy on me
Baby, take it easy on me
Baby, come back to me
Baby, come back to me
And a coldness runs through my soul
And the rain falls, oh the rain falls
I don't want to be alone
I wish that I could photoshop all our bad memories
'Cause the flashbacks, oh the flashbacks
Won't leave me alone
If you come back to me
I'll be all that you need
Baby, come back to me
Let me make up for what happened in the past
(Come back)
Baby, come back to me
(Come back)
I'll be everything you need
(Come back)
Baby, come back to me
(Come back)
Boy, you're
(One in a million)
(Come back)
Baby, come back to me
(Come back)
I'll be everything you need
(Come back)
Baby, come back to me
(Come back)
You're one in a million
(One in a million)
Lower East-Side of Manhattan
She goes shopping for new clothes
And she buys this, and she buys that
Just leave her alone
I wish that he would listen to her side of the story
It isn't that bad, it isn't that bad
And she's wiser for it now
I admit I cheated
(Admit I cheated)
Don't know why I did it
(Why I did it)
But I do regret it
(Do regret it)
Nothing I can do or say can change the past
(Come back)
Baby, come back to me
(Come back)
I'll be everything you need
(Come back)
Baby, come back to me
(Come back)
Boy, you're
[ Find more Lyrics on http://mp3lyrics.org/osPN ]
(One in a million)
(Come back)
Baby, come back to me
(Come back)
I'll be everything you need
(Come back)
Baby, come back to me
(Come back)
You're one in a million
(One in a million)
Everything I ever did
Heaven knows I'm sorry, babe
I was too young to see
You were always there for me
And my curiosity
Got the better of me
Baby, take it easy on me
Anything from A to Z
Call me what you wanna, babe
I open my heart to thee
You were my priority
Can't you see you've punished me
More than enough already?
Baby, take it easy on me
Baby, take it easy on me
Baby, come back to me
Baby, come back to me
i know that i have loved you ... at 9:55 pm
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fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Tuesday, April 05, 2011
Kiss the rain
I often close my eyes
And I can see you smile
You reach out for my hand
And I'm woken from my dream
Although your heart is mine
It's hollow inside
I never had your love
And I never will
And every night
I lie awake
Thinking maybe you love me
Like I've always loved you
But how can you love me
Like I loved you when
You can't even look me straight in my eyes
I've never felt this way
To be so in love
To have someone there
Yet feel so alone
Aren't you supposed to be
The one to wipe my tears
The on to say that you would never leave
The waters calm and still
My reflection is there
I see you holding me
But then you disappear
All that is left of you
Is a memory
On that only, exists in my dreams
I don't know what hurts you
But I can feel it too
And it just hurts so much
To know that I can't do a thing
And deep down in my heart
Somehow I just know
That no matter what
I'll always love you
So why am I still here in the rain
And I can see you smile
You reach out for my hand
And I'm woken from my dream
Although your heart is mine
It's hollow inside
I never had your love
And I never will
And every night
I lie awake
Thinking maybe you love me
Like I've always loved you
But how can you love me
Like I loved you when
You can't even look me straight in my eyes
I've never felt this way
To be so in love
To have someone there
Yet feel so alone
Aren't you supposed to be
The one to wipe my tears
The on to say that you would never leave
The waters calm and still
My reflection is there
I see you holding me
But then you disappear
All that is left of you
Is a memory
On that only, exists in my dreams
I don't know what hurts you
But I can feel it too
And it just hurts so much
To know that I can't do a thing
And deep down in my heart
Somehow I just know
That no matter what
I'll always love you
So why am I still here in the rain
i know that i have loved you ... at 7:45 pm
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fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Lovely Song
Such a feelin's comin' over me
There is wonder in 'most ev'ry thing I see
Not a cloud in the sky, got the sun in my eyes
And I won't be surprised if it's a dream
Everything I want the world to be
Is now comin' true especially for me
And the reason is clear, it's because you are here
You're the nearest thing to heaven that I've seen
I'm on the top of the world lookin' down on creation
And the only explanation I can find
Is the love that I've found ever since you've been around
Your love's put me at the top of the world
Somethin' in the wind has learned my name
And it's tellin' me that things are not the same
In the leaves on the trees and the touch of the breeze
There's a pleasin' sense of happiness for me
There is only one wish on my mind
When this day is through I hope that I will find
That tomorrow will be just the same for you and me
All I need will be mine if you are here
I'm on the top of the world lookin' down on creation
And the only explanation I can find
Is the love that I've found ever since you've been around
Your love's put me at the top of the world
There is wonder in 'most ev'ry thing I see
Not a cloud in the sky, got the sun in my eyes
And I won't be surprised if it's a dream
Everything I want the world to be
Is now comin' true especially for me
And the reason is clear, it's because you are here
You're the nearest thing to heaven that I've seen
I'm on the top of the world lookin' down on creation
And the only explanation I can find
Is the love that I've found ever since you've been around
Your love's put me at the top of the world
Somethin' in the wind has learned my name
And it's tellin' me that things are not the same
In the leaves on the trees and the touch of the breeze
There's a pleasin' sense of happiness for me
There is only one wish on my mind
When this day is through I hope that I will find
That tomorrow will be just the same for you and me
All I need will be mine if you are here
I'm on the top of the world lookin' down on creation
And the only explanation I can find
Is the love that I've found ever since you've been around
Your love's put me at the top of the world
i know that i have loved you ... at 7:36 pm
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fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Funeral
Dear blog, today, i've finally listed down the people i would liked to invite for my funeral. For everyone of them, i will leave a short note to what i would like to tell them. It's all in kine3. The only precious item that keeps my heart pumping. I would lastly need to plan how to die by accident to avoid going to hell. Well, this time, with my free will, i will bring an end to the sufferings i'm causing myself...
I long for a tomorrow without any memories of yesterday....
I long for a tomorrow without any memories of yesterday....
i know that i have loved you ... at 7:11 pm
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fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Monday, April 04, 2011
Random Song
Suddenly feel like composing some lyrics.
When i pray to the gods,
I long for a happy ending
I wish time would still goes on
The silent night will protect me from wrong
It's a long long goodbye
I say goodbye i say goodbye
This is my farewell
Remember me remember me
I'll be in your heart
The time we spent together are mere memories
Now i will rise up to heaven
In a blink of the eye, as i watch you drift upon the skies
A miracle was born
The never ending emptiness
The ever lasting sorrowness
I gave my live to exchange
Your laughter and your kindness
Your gentle lips on mine
I watch you leaving as i prayed
You'll always be in my heart oh....
Deep down in my heart oh...
How could i forget you..
Sorry for being random...
When i pray to the gods,
I long for a happy ending
I wish time would still goes on
The silent night will protect me from wrong
It's a long long goodbye
I say goodbye i say goodbye
This is my farewell
Remember me remember me
I'll be in your heart
The time we spent together are mere memories
Now i will rise up to heaven
In a blink of the eye, as i watch you drift upon the skies
A miracle was born
The never ending emptiness
The ever lasting sorrowness
I gave my live to exchange
Your laughter and your kindness
Your gentle lips on mine
I watch you leaving as i prayed
You'll always be in my heart oh....
Deep down in my heart oh...
How could i forget you..
Sorry for being random...
i know that i have loved you ... at 10:37 pm
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fate crumbled all around 0 identities
DEPRESSED
Seriously, dear blog, i cant take it anymore. I don't know why i'm feeling this way but i am going to break down into several pieces yesterday which i cant control. No1 in this world will understand the feeling. It's like your mind is outta control and you're going crazy. KILLING and HURTING yourself to end the misery were all that was flashing through my mind. Am i going crazy or mad? What am i now? Am i still a human? I swear i could kill myself now if it wasn't for the thin line which holds me back dearly. Religion teachings. Suicide will leads to hell. I cant take it anymore. Please save me before i jump down from my block or i dash towards the car! Maybe burning myself seems like a better choice? Drugs? Or maybe i should go japan and help out and die there. I'm tired really. These years, the only time my heart is at rest is only so little. Nobody is able to see through me or maybe i want nobody to suffer the same fate as me. The darkness is too much. Even so, i will take every of it from the people i love. I hate myself cause i can no longer live on as a normal human... I'm as good as dying... Useless and pathetic till the end....
i know that i have loved you ... at 2:43 pm
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fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Sunday, April 03, 2011
Lonely
Loneliness, its a feeling of being alive. A feeling no one can escape. It just creep towards me everything i look around. Looking at the dark skies and the deep sea. It seems many tears or worries has been cleanse by them. Are my sorrow too much to be taken away? I wish somehow, someone could take away my feelings. No more should i care. No tears shall i shed. There is no need to pretend to be happy or to fake a smile which makes my head hurts. If only i didn't exist, non of these would happen. I will no be able to feel or curse this life of mine. Turn my live into a beautiful smoothing music to caress the soul of many others. Touch their lives with beautiful memories. I'm tired. I need real care, concern and love now. Dry my tears with love...
i know that i have loved you ... at 7:09 pm
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fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Saturday, April 02, 2011
If you didn't love me
If every drop of water disappeared from the land
And every drop of ocean suddenly turned to sand
That would all be nothing
Compared to what I'd feel
If you didn't love me
What if I woke up and couldn't hear a sound
And all that I could see was darkness all around
That would all be nothing
Compared to what I'd feel
If you didn't love me
If I could have the world and all that money could buy
And I could travel far beyond the moon and the day
If they gave me golden wings,
well I still couldn't fly
without you, nothing would matter
You and I walk beside each other day after day
But there's so much inside me, I never get to say
My life would be so empty
with nothing left to feel
If you didn't love me
If you didn't love me...
And every drop of ocean suddenly turned to sand
That would all be nothing
Compared to what I'd feel
If you didn't love me
What if I woke up and couldn't hear a sound
And all that I could see was darkness all around
That would all be nothing
Compared to what I'd feel
If you didn't love me
If I could have the world and all that money could buy
And I could travel far beyond the moon and the day
If they gave me golden wings,
well I still couldn't fly
without you, nothing would matter
You and I walk beside each other day after day
But there's so much inside me, I never get to say
My life would be so empty
with nothing left to feel
If you didn't love me
If you didn't love me...
i know that i have loved you ... at 8:26 pm
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fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Keeping me safe
I try to smile my tears away,
I try to keep my cool.
Oh but one more door gets in my way
I feel like such a fool
Trampled and bitter,
My heart just wants to bleed and stop Believing in me.
It feels like nothing is for certain
and that nothing comes for free
When they're lowering the curtain to the theatre of my dreams
I stumble and i crumble and I'm sinking to my knees for you
You cradle me
You keep me flying
You keep me smiling
You keep me safe in a crazy world
You understand me
Embrace my fragility
You keep me safe in a crazy world
And in your arms I find the strength to believe in me again
Noise keeps chasing me
No matter where I go
Oh and life likes pretending that it's on a TV show
When it's hard to tell what's real
From what the world just wants to preach
You are the voice I seek
'cause when I'm wrapped up in your arms
Nothing else can touch me
What a wonderful way to recharge
I feel like I can breathe again
I try to keep my cool.
Oh but one more door gets in my way
I feel like such a fool
Trampled and bitter,
My heart just wants to bleed and stop Believing in me.
It feels like nothing is for certain
and that nothing comes for free
When they're lowering the curtain to the theatre of my dreams
I stumble and i crumble and I'm sinking to my knees for you
You cradle me
You keep me flying
You keep me smiling
You keep me safe in a crazy world
You understand me
Embrace my fragility
You keep me safe in a crazy world
And in your arms I find the strength to believe in me again
Noise keeps chasing me
No matter where I go
Oh and life likes pretending that it's on a TV show
When it's hard to tell what's real
From what the world just wants to preach
You are the voice I seek
'cause when I'm wrapped up in your arms
Nothing else can touch me
What a wonderful way to recharge
I feel like I can breathe again
i know that i have loved you ... at 7:59 pm
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fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Friday, April 01, 2011
Remember me
Every now and then
We find a special friend
Who never lets us down
Who understands it all
Reaches out each time you fall
You're the best friend that I've found
I know you can't stay
A part of you will never ever go away
Your heart will stay
I'll make a wish for you
And hope it will come true
That life would just be kind
To such a gentle mind
If you lose your way
Think back on yesterday
Remember me this way
Remember me this way
Hmm.. this way
I don't need eyes to see
The love you bring to me
No matter where I go
And I know that you'll be there
Forever more apart of time, you're everywhere
I'll always cares
And I'll be right behind your shoulder watching you
I'll be standing by your side and all you do
And I won't ever leave
As long as you believe
You just believe
We find a special friend
Who never lets us down
Who understands it all
Reaches out each time you fall
You're the best friend that I've found
I know you can't stay
A part of you will never ever go away
Your heart will stay
I'll make a wish for you
And hope it will come true
That life would just be kind
To such a gentle mind
If you lose your way
Think back on yesterday
Remember me this way
Remember me this way
Hmm.. this way
I don't need eyes to see
The love you bring to me
No matter where I go
And I know that you'll be there
Forever more apart of time, you're everywhere
I'll always cares
And I'll be right behind your shoulder watching you
I'll be standing by your side and all you do
And I won't ever leave
As long as you believe
You just believe
i know that i have loved you ... at 8:34 pm
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fate crumbled all around 0 identities
