Thursday, April 07, 2011

The last words

Well, today i did something call the suicidal indication scale. I think it's that name. Kinda forgot about it already. I scored 24. Well, its extreme high risk of suicide but i didn't die. I wonder why sometimes. What's keeping me from giving up everything? I search deep down and the answer was religion. Maybe i'm just too scared of the unknown. To the hell they said when we committed suicide. SIGH...

I've written down all the names of the people i would like to invite for my funeral yesterday. Finally, i've started writing my last words to them. I realised i've been thanking most of them even though they've hurt me deeply. And i wish they're happy with that someone whom they're holding on now. It's become a habit that i pray.

I'll always say, well, i'll translate it to english. Please bless everyone to be safe and sound, healthy and find the correct path back to heaven. Wishing Geok Teng, Vanessa, Wei Shan, Wina, Joanne, Yan Ying and Xin Yan to be happy everyday. Somehow its just a chat when i offer the joss stick.

I hope someday they'll be truly blessed. The people around me and those i cherished..
With love.....

i know that i have loved you ... at 9:42 pm
fate crumbled all around 0 identities

` here.waiting ;

'watchin:you.go;

|YaNtEeN|

|S0phiA|

^reminds;me*of

Like how the sun is always there
Even when it has sunk down
It's a dream I can't let go
Fantasies starts to flow
Certainty is definitely here
I remain standing in the midst of parting way
And the shadow gently fades away
Flowers sway in the wind as if dancing
While remain completely buried by that kind smile
And echos along with that friendly voice
Because we're together, we're able to believe in each other
Still without remembering “sadness”, I begin to grasp “pain”
When these feelings reach you, they will change into “words”
The pulse that beats quickly catches my breath
Keep trying to break free for that blue, blue sky
Awaken from a dream in an unknown world ..

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