Sunday, August 31, 2008
Mem0rIeS
Woke up today thinking of u....
Another night and i make my way through.
So many dreams still left in my mind,
But it cant never come true.
I press rewind and remember when...
I close my eyes and i'm with u again.
But in the end i can still feel the pain...
everytime i hear your name...
Well,i suppose everyone has memories. Be it u like it or not. Bad memories, good memories? Its become part of life and a habit for me. Tired with these memories. I wanna let them go. Would anyone teach me how forget? Its hard. I'm tired... Its painful knowing part of u still exist in yesterday. Its uncertain when u cant have a real tomorrow. But theres past, thats what makes the present. I understand that. Had been in many relationship but didnt work out. Its my fault i suppose. I just aint good enough. Their names and whatever we do still imprints in my mind. Its not easy to get over or to forget. Been sad and so sad. Been tired and so tired. Wearing out... Let me forget. Forget about everything. Forget about the hurt. Last week i saw geok. my heart skip a bit. We just act like total stranger and walked past. I just couldnt say a word. The flashback was much too great. The sorrrow came back to me. Why is this happening? I'm strong. Or at least i am percieve to be! Thats why i cant cry. Cant show i'm sad! Vanessa scolded me. Well, whenever i hear that song u sand to me, it reminds me of u so why... Joanne's life is going well. I'm glad. She's my angel n fwny. Just hope her heart wont get tinted. Shuxian,always sick and so weak. But i know her friends will take care of her. Though together not long, but i'm really sure she'll be much happier with another guy. Must cheer her on. Everyday, if i pray, i always say hope geok teng, vanessa, wei shan can be happy everyday. Hope joanne and shuxian to be happy too. Well, i sure hopes it works? Xiaoying, i'm sorry that part of me just cant get over. Part of me still exist in yesterday. Someday i will give a tomorrow with everything attatched. Xin yan, i hope u're fine. I know theres people that dotes u so dont need me le. Thats why i'm cold. When i'm not needed, i'll just fade away...
Tomorrow hurts when i'm torn and tattered
Yesterday fades when i'm no longer needed
Its just me whos broken and discolored
Give me a sunrise with my heart completed
May the memories be lost forever
Guide me a path to death aticipated.....
Another night and i make my way through.
So many dreams still left in my mind,
But it cant never come true.
I press rewind and remember when...
I close my eyes and i'm with u again.
But in the end i can still feel the pain...
everytime i hear your name...
Well,i suppose everyone has memories. Be it u like it or not. Bad memories, good memories? Its become part of life and a habit for me. Tired with these memories. I wanna let them go. Would anyone teach me how forget? Its hard. I'm tired... Its painful knowing part of u still exist in yesterday. Its uncertain when u cant have a real tomorrow. But theres past, thats what makes the present. I understand that. Had been in many relationship but didnt work out. Its my fault i suppose. I just aint good enough. Their names and whatever we do still imprints in my mind. Its not easy to get over or to forget. Been sad and so sad. Been tired and so tired. Wearing out... Let me forget. Forget about everything. Forget about the hurt. Last week i saw geok. my heart skip a bit. We just act like total stranger and walked past. I just couldnt say a word. The flashback was much too great. The sorrrow came back to me. Why is this happening? I'm strong. Or at least i am percieve to be! Thats why i cant cry. Cant show i'm sad! Vanessa scolded me. Well, whenever i hear that song u sand to me, it reminds me of u so why... Joanne's life is going well. I'm glad. She's my angel n fwny. Just hope her heart wont get tinted. Shuxian,always sick and so weak. But i know her friends will take care of her. Though together not long, but i'm really sure she'll be much happier with another guy. Must cheer her on. Everyday, if i pray, i always say hope geok teng, vanessa, wei shan can be happy everyday. Hope joanne and shuxian to be happy too. Well, i sure hopes it works? Xiaoying, i'm sorry that part of me just cant get over. Part of me still exist in yesterday. Someday i will give a tomorrow with everything attatched. Xin yan, i hope u're fine. I know theres people that dotes u so dont need me le. Thats why i'm cold. When i'm not needed, i'll just fade away...
Tomorrow hurts when i'm torn and tattered
Yesterday fades when i'm no longer needed
Its just me whos broken and discolored
Give me a sunrise with my heart completed
May the memories be lost forever
Guide me a path to death aticipated.....
i know that i have loved you ... at 9:13 am
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fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Wednesday, August 27, 2008
CoLD
I woke up 4 in the morning but just keep thinking of the past and now. What am i doing living a life lyk this. I simply need to carry on myself. Without anyone else with me, though its cold and lonely, thats what my life is and i shall face it. Had a bad dream last night about xiao ying n shu xian. Terrible. But its okay. Hope shu xian and he stead can last? When i say stead and boyfriend, theres a different. Yups. Feeling so cold everynight. I wonder why i feel feverish every now and then. Really unwell. But its okay. Wun die from having fever. Just so tired. Tml have to wake up at 4+. Well, it seems my life is so tiring. I wish somebody would cuddle me to bed and not let me wake up in the night feeling cold and lonely. Can someone hug me? My eyes are wet yet i tell myself the tears shall stay. I'm strong! At least in front of others i am. I dun gib a damn to breakups. At least thats what people feels. Its okay. I'm a Man made of flesh with a heart of iron. Maybe thats why i'm dying inside. The tears that i could cried out makes my heart rusty. Suffering such sweet poison makes me vunerable to memories and to anything. I'm feeling cold even now.
Hug Me Now
Hold Me Tight
Stay With Me Through the Stormy Night.
Wish "U" Were Here And Make My Life Right.
Hug Me Now
Hold Me Tight
Stay With Me Through the Stormy Night.
Wish "U" Were Here And Make My Life Right.
i know that i have loved you ... at 7:33 am
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Thursday, August 21, 2008
HoLd 0n ME
Tired. Hasnt been sleeping or should i say out for a walk these few days? Didnt come home for many many nights. Well, everything's fine i suppose. Sun's as bright as ever. The dark circle around my eyes keeps getting deeper. Its just me and myself. So its alright. Life going on as per normal. Tired of everything. Tired of myself. Whats my existance? I wonder. Sometimes the sun refuse to shine. Well, can i reject myself for being alive? Everybody needs a holiday. I want 1 too. Its been far too long since i really take a break and look at the people around me and the things that had happened. Humans can be so twisted.
Gimme a reason for me to believe in,
can't you see in my eyes?
That I need a reason, for I am still breathing.
Is this the time to say goodbye?
'Cause deep in my heart I know there's a reason why I am not leaving,
why im not alone.
So give me a reason for me to believe in,
give me a reason.
I NEED A REASON TO EXIST
Gimme a reason for me to believe in,
can't you see in my eyes?
That I need a reason, for I am still breathing.
Is this the time to say goodbye?
'Cause deep in my heart I know there's a reason why I am not leaving,
why im not alone.
So give me a reason for me to believe in,
give me a reason.
I NEED A REASON TO EXIST
i know that i have loved you ... at 10:20 am
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Sunday, August 17, 2008
RaiNinG
Its been rainy recently. Issit becuz of u joanne thats why it rains? Whenever it rains, u get upset. Or issit whenever u're upset, it rains? Kinda confused. Well, it doesnt matter anyway. Yups. Hope the people around me will take care and be happy. Everyone is part of my life. Part of the memory and part of the past. Be it sad or lonely, we continue to live. Continue to improve and carry on with our life. Well, this doesnt always happens the way we wanted or how we perceive it to be? But what we know is that never regret. I'm a person who will always look back as i walk away. Cause this memories will last, for eternity. Someday, our tears will be lost in the rain. Cherish the people around u. Thank the people that had hurted u. Its just live. To hurt or to be hurt? Which one would u prefer? There are something that can never be retrive after we lost it. Someone that can never be replaced when he or she left. Geok, u're the one. But its all in the past now. 28/8/06. Thats why i know i must cherish the people who i have now. not to linger and cling to the past anymore. I may not be a good guy or a good boyfriend to some people, but after bit by bit, i'm starting to understand. starting to improve. but it wasnt enough for u shuxian. Its okay. Xianying, thanks for beiing by my side now. Norin & Joanne, i hope 2 of u are fine. Geok Teng, i wish u & your boyfriend last long long. Shermaine,continue to hate me cuz thats how u'll remember me. Shuxian, pls take care. Wei Shan and Rebecca, i'm always here if u need me.
Take Care My Friends.
My Time Is Comming To An End
Remember Not Its A Matter Of Time
Wake Me Up From Dreams So Sweet.
FAREWELL
Take Care My Friends.
My Time Is Comming To An End
Remember Not Its A Matter Of Time
Wake Me Up From Dreams So Sweet.
FAREWELL
i know that i have loved you ... at 4:56 pm
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Monday, August 11, 2008
GonNa g0 mY oWn waY
Well,do u like that song? Gotta go my own way. Well,i dunno whats happening to me these days? Everyone just comes and go outta my life. Leaving me unwanted or lost. I wonder what wrong have i done? I really wonder? Well,i suppose it doesnt matters anymore. For now,i kinda have feeling towards my own type? Or shall i say guys? Or am i turning gay? I'm not sure myself? Fight it or let it be? Trying to sort things out. What more can i do when all the people around me can do is to hurt me? Lie to me n "rape" me of everything left of me? Is life so curel? Is this human? Tired & lost. Someday,i hope everything will be fine again. Change this twisted world of mine.
Lost & Broken.
Torn & Naked.
Always Alone. Destiny.
Lost & Broken.
Torn & Naked.
Always Alone. Destiny.
i know that i have loved you ... at 8:28 pm
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
