Monday, April 28, 2008
thE s0nGs iN mY heArtz.
Well... Today no sad story... Just songs lyrics that i feel meaningful and is linked to my life somehow. Life still goes on with or without me. Its still the same! Lets be sad and die!
A Place Nearby Lyrics
Heaven is a place nearby
So I won't be so far away
And if you try and look for me
Maybe you'll find me someday
Heaven is a place nearby
So there's no need to say goodbye
I will ask you not to cry
I'll always be by your side
Behind These Hazel Eyes
Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes
Swallow me then spit me out
For hating you, I blame myself
Seeing you it kills me now
No, I don't cry on the outside
Anymore...
Broken Vow
I close my eyes
And dream of you and I
And then I realize
There's more to love than only bitterness and lies
I close my eyes
I'd give away my soul
To hold you once again
And never let this promise end
Footprints On My Heart
I know the way you were berfore me
And I was crazy to think you'd change
I put up with your attitude
Your selfish ways and your childish games (whoa)
A good heart always ends up broken
But overtime, it'll make me strong
I'ma put the pieces back together
Might take some time, but I just go on
You stepped on me, you walked on me
Boy you left your
Footprints on my
Heart broken crying over the way you left your
Footprints on my
Heart aching you ran all over me and left your
Footprints on my heart
My heart
DONE N DEAD
A Place Nearby Lyrics
Heaven is a place nearby
So I won't be so far away
And if you try and look for me
Maybe you'll find me someday
Heaven is a place nearby
So there's no need to say goodbye
I will ask you not to cry
I'll always be by your side
Behind These Hazel Eyes
Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes
Swallow me then spit me out
For hating you, I blame myself
Seeing you it kills me now
No, I don't cry on the outside
Anymore...
Broken Vow
I close my eyes
And dream of you and I
And then I realize
There's more to love than only bitterness and lies
I close my eyes
I'd give away my soul
To hold you once again
And never let this promise end
Footprints On My Heart
I know the way you were berfore me
And I was crazy to think you'd change
I put up with your attitude
Your selfish ways and your childish games (whoa)
A good heart always ends up broken
But overtime, it'll make me strong
I'ma put the pieces back together
Might take some time, but I just go on
You stepped on me, you walked on me
Boy you left your
Footprints on my
Heart broken crying over the way you left your
Footprints on my
Heart aching you ran all over me and left your
Footprints on my heart
My heart
DONE N DEAD
i know that i have loved you ... at 7:02 pm
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Thursday, April 24, 2008
FaiTH
Lost faith in everything. Thats what i am now. It doesnt matter to me anyway. Cuz i dun gib a damn in life. Live my life this way. Lead myself to darkness. Feeling lost. Its okay cuz i'll move on. Nth will kills. I am myself. Tgt with my pathetic self, i'll move on to the darkest part of the world which nobody is. To be enduring the shear cold and the torturing pain. I'll let myself bleed. Let the blood gush out from my hands,my throat and let the blood leak out frm my eyes. Let my tears turn blood. Cuz i cant cry. I'm all dried up. Cut my n stab me! Slap me n torture me! I wanna be all alone in my everlasting land of what is worst! Kill me! Wipe out my existance!I'm torn n broken! Dont try to fix me cuz u cant! My wounds are grave! Living in PAIN everyday! I'm suffering lyk nvr b4! ARGH!!!! I'll live on! I'll go thru wat it takes to be immune! I'll fake n act to be someone i'm not! I'll not feel anything anymore! For i'm juz a body w/o a soul left. Vanished....
i know that i have loved you ... at 2:37 pm
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Sunday, April 20, 2008
LigHt N DarK
Life is bright? Mine i suspose is well lit and bright too? The candles are shinning brightly. Leading me down to a path of unknown. But so be it. A broken past, a sad n miserable present and a misleading future. This might be what i hold. Everything created and borned are purposeful. When the sun is up, when the lights are bright, ppl will deem everything as happy. But who would notice the dark and lonely shadows by the floor and the walls. Following us silently as we go. Everyone has a past,a present and a future. Everyone has a shadow. The brighter the light,the more obvious the shadows are. Lost and misguided,i can only walk in the path of the shadows. Walk with dem so that they'll nt feel lonely again. Walk with the darkness within the light. We must cherish everything, everyone. The future is far away and mist. Thats why light isnt nessacary in my life. It's only purpose is to show my the darkness present when life is bright. Somethings can never be forget and undone. Forever is non existance. I'll forget and will be forgotten. Turned into ashes,turned into dust.
i know that i have loved you ... at 7:40 am
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Monday, April 07, 2008
hEarT AchInG
TODAY I SHALL BE MYSELF AAND NOT TALK ABOUT LIFE BUT RATHER ABOUT MY FEELINGS AND MY LIFE. Sad or being sad is a usual routine. I wonder why i'm feeling so miserable... Issit that i still cant get over with something or someone or am i just used to being sad and dont wish to be happy again? Does anyone still needs me? Why am i not needed? If i'm not needed,then why am i still here? Tell me? Gimme a reason to live on. Show me the path to release? Somehow,i refuse to see light again. Its too good for my own good. Perharps too bright? My heart is aching. It's full or scars left behind by love and by the hope given and the faith i believe in. It's still hurts badly. I'm in pain. Will anyone undertsand this? No one can take me outta this pain. I'm a total failure. Leading my life this way. What more can i do? I often tell myself not to cry. Not to shed any tears. Yes,sometimes i may be able to do it. But the struggle within myself,its hard. I cant burst in to tears and break down. I can only laugh my way through. Being lame is to help myself to cheer up i suspose? Or rather a protive shield to hide myself and to protect against others. For all these,i can only blame myself. Its unbearable. My heart is fading. Its in pain. My soul is burning in hell. My tears wuldnt wash away the pain. Tell me what i can do? I wanna die. Long for death. Yet i fear death. Wanna cut myself. Wanna destroy myself. Kill off my existance. I'm going crazy. Bring me to a new era. Take the memories away. Gimme a new heart. Or just let go of my pathetic live.
TO LIVE IS A SUFFERING
TO END IS A BEGINING
MY LIFE IS DIMISHING
YET THERE IS NO MEANING
VANISH ME.
TO LIVE IS A SUFFERING
TO END IS A BEGINING
MY LIFE IS DIMISHING
YET THERE IS NO MEANING
VANISH ME.
i know that i have loved you ... at 1:22 pm
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Sunday, April 06, 2008
HumAnity
I often wonder why did god created us? Man made disasters and the damage done to mother earth and the living creatures are massive. Mankind can be so wicked and evil to ourself. So why were we born? Bucuz god feels that something is missing thats why he created us? If thats the case,wuldnt it be too selfish to us use as decoractive? I dun understand at all. If we were orriginally from heaven,why did he banish us down to earth. Why? Everyone was born pure. Its the environment that makes us change. So why can indiviual become so different? Some kills. Some rape. Others are evil. So whats the point of living? God loves us? If so,then why were we created and born in the 1st place? Do we live to worship him or do we worship him to live? Neither! Death and being reborn is just a process of live. The world is like hell. Its full of misery and suffering. To be able to gain more misery and suffering leads to us being a higher being. Or rather makes us understand more and more about ourself and the world around us. Helps us understand humanity. I cant say whats afterlife is like but i'll alweis look forward to it. 1day, we'll have to let everything go. We come here empty handed and so we go empty handed. To attain the truth of everything,i'll thrive and search for it. Even if i'm to do it with this twisted thinking alone. I will. It's just human.
i know that i have loved you ... at 8:24 am
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
