Monday, April 07, 2008
hEarT AchInG
TODAY I SHALL BE MYSELF AAND NOT TALK ABOUT LIFE BUT RATHER ABOUT MY FEELINGS AND MY LIFE. Sad or being sad is a usual routine. I wonder why i'm feeling so miserable... Issit that i still cant get over with something or someone or am i just used to being sad and dont wish to be happy again? Does anyone still needs me? Why am i not needed? If i'm not needed,then why am i still here? Tell me? Gimme a reason to live on. Show me the path to release? Somehow,i refuse to see light again. Its too good for my own good. Perharps too bright? My heart is aching. It's full or scars left behind by love and by the hope given and the faith i believe in. It's still hurts badly. I'm in pain. Will anyone undertsand this? No one can take me outta this pain. I'm a total failure. Leading my life this way. What more can i do? I often tell myself not to cry. Not to shed any tears. Yes,sometimes i may be able to do it. But the struggle within myself,its hard. I cant burst in to tears and break down. I can only laugh my way through. Being lame is to help myself to cheer up i suspose? Or rather a protive shield to hide myself and to protect against others. For all these,i can only blame myself. Its unbearable. My heart is fading. Its in pain. My soul is burning in hell. My tears wuldnt wash away the pain. Tell me what i can do? I wanna die. Long for death. Yet i fear death. Wanna cut myself. Wanna destroy myself. Kill off my existance. I'm going crazy. Bring me to a new era. Take the memories away. Gimme a new heart. Or just let go of my pathetic live.
TO LIVE IS A SUFFERING
TO END IS A BEGINING
MY LIFE IS DIMISHING
YET THERE IS NO MEANING
VANISH ME.
TO LIVE IS A SUFFERING
TO END IS A BEGINING
MY LIFE IS DIMISHING
YET THERE IS NO MEANING
VANISH ME.
i know that i have loved you ... at 1:22 pm
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