Saturday, June 30, 2007

i'M gonE

time pass... i hab nth to write abt today.... juz dat i noe i'll shut myself to everyone.... shut from the sun from the cloud n de moon... i hate myself.... i wish her goodbye... i'm gone.... goin away... may u be bless wif happiness... i'm outta ur life alrd... i love u!

>be haPpY aLweIs

i know that i have loved you ... at 5:42 pm
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Friday, June 29, 2007

why?

today suspose to hab no lesson de!!! agrrr!!! den hab dat toopid elec meetin... sianz sia! somemore at 2pm! crapz! waste of my time seriously sia! i rather slp at home lorz!! hahax! wonderin wat she's doin now? havin exmas ma? or goin home? watchin teebee? eatin?? or studyin? i wish to noe every details of her life.... sometimes i reali wish i was dead... so i culd watch her from above... frm aside.... its enough... i noe its silly.... but dats me! now goin to prepare le! hope she did receive my msgs ytd n felt de same way i do.... i can only hope! for her fire of love will burn brighter instead of dimishin....

EuU ligHt mY fiRe liGhT mY hEArt
burN my PAssi0n buRn mY soUL

i know that i have loved you ... at 11:11 am
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Thursday, June 28, 2007

haPpy AniVersArY

happy aniversary to myself! it the 10th mth aniversary.... i'm celebratin it myself... cuz i dun hab her anymore... i'll alweis be rmbin this day n celebratin it every mth.... u gave me everythin i eva need n gav me everythin i ever culd ask for n wanted... i thx u.... mayb i juz nt good enough.... i alweis say i tried my best... i gave everythin i got.... but i've realise dat ders no rule dat state dat u'll hab to be bad nice to me.... n u'll hab to be carin abt me or wat so eva.... so its juz me n myself.... apart frm me its still me... livin alone! this lonely days i spent wif u n w/o u.... i'll still cherish everyday since i'm still alive!

thx eUu!! HapPY 10th Mth AniVeRsaRy

i know that i have loved you ... at 7:07 pm
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Wednesday, June 27, 2007

thNiK of EUu

i thnk of u.. i think of u n i'm strong.... cuz of u.... been missin euu so muc.... will u eva noe? tml will be our 10th mth aniversary.... i reali wish to celebrate it wif u... but i noe i cant... juz do well for ur studies baz! i'll be waitin for u!

BeEN waItInG foR eUu SinCe dAt DaY u LefT mE

i know that i have loved you ... at 2:48 pm
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Tuesday, June 26, 2007

mY dReaMz

it muz be so funny baz.... for me to write abt my dream... guess wat? ytd i dreamt of her? n wat of her? me n her getting married... wahahaha!! its nt possible in reality baz! but at least i can fullfill it in my dream world... so sweet.... the weeding was kinda funny... but only till half way.... den i wake up le... i suspose gud things dun last baz.... didnt go sch again today... still so sick... sighx!! missin u... are u miss me??

ThiNkiN oF eUu

i know that i have loved you ... at 4:18 pm
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Monday, June 25, 2007

hoLidaY'S ovER

holidays finally over.... just when i want to go back to sch.... alweis so sick.... its discouragin.... sad.... but nvm baz... i'll get well de i suspose? hahax! wonder hows her prelim1 today? wat paper? did she do well? was it ok? tml habin wat paper? so many qus i wanna ask her... but i think betta nt disturb her baz.... if nt ltr i'll be blame for everythin lorz.... haish... but nvm... still everyday i pray for her to be happy... if she can get good results in expense of my lifespan... i'm willin to... i dun mind at all! :) i wish dat she'll alweis be happy! still feelin so sick.... still feelin so itchy..... so xin ku... ltr still hab z19 somemore.... SIANZ!! i've gonna DIE!!! nobody will help me de! i'll hab to help myself.... sighx! htroat so pain... i wonder how am i goin to endure....

jia you geok teng
jia you weijie

i know that i have loved you ... at 2:51 pm
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Saturday, June 23, 2007

so cold.... so lonely

nw feelin so cold.... burrr.... hands alrd numb liao!!alone at home.... can anyone save me from ttis torment? so tired.....all my energy drained.... so sick.... wonderin wat she's doin now.... at tis time i reali nid some1 wif me... n i hope it'll be her.... but nvm.... she mon prelim le.... dats why nv msg her.....i hope everythin will be over soon!!

i nEeD EuU

i know that i have loved you ... at 7:31 pm
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Friday, June 22, 2007

onG!! thE itCH!!

wa!! my body got alot of rashes... n de itch is killin me sia! on n off cold n hot... wat a torture!! the rashes beri itchy... cannt take it!! ytd went to see doct... den lyk nth muc.... but why i so sick n the rashes? why got rashes?? sianz! ytd lunch ate 1/2 piece of bread! today breakfast ate a slice of bread... so itchy... so xin ku... but ytd she quite concern... i alrd beri happy le... :) hope i can faster get well.... cuz its terrible....

i know that i have loved you ... at 11:48 am
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Wednesday, June 20, 2007

iF eUu Eva CuM bACk

wonder wat she's doin now.... juz now so damn sick.... but nw alot betta le! wow! lolz! dats gud baz! i ask her to be frens.... gud frens.... cuz i hope we can hab chance tgt aft her A's.... she said she wun accept me again anymore... but i noe... when ders a slight hope... i will not gib up... cuz its her... cuz i love her.... i'm takin it as a test for our love.... i dunno if she'll come back... or change of heart... i dunno... all i noe is dat i'll wait... dar dar.... ur lover weijie will wait for u to come back to my side!! :) cuz i love u!

BeEn WaItIn f0R eUu

i know that i have loved you ... at 5:30 pm
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Tuesday, June 19, 2007

s0 LoneLy

so lonely... today i'm so sick... dunno why.. mornin wake up fever liao... den nid to go check up.... so sick n still nid to go checkup... so sianz sia! :( i wish she wuld come n acc me 4 de checkup.... its my own wishful thinkin baz.... she's too busy baz... she aint wif me anymore... why shld i even bother her? mayb i'm juz so use to her being by my side.... sometimes i did take her for granted baz... but i will reflect de... i wanna be de beri best i can for her... will u? dont think u will baz.... nvm... still waitin for her.... all i can think of is her.... are u thinkin abt me my dar? are u? so damn sick now.... missin u has becum part of my life.... bein wif u has been part of my life... u took away part of my life... i cant live as a whole... juz so tired.... haish! relationship is sth i wun think of anymore... i'll only think of her... MuAckZz!!

WaItiNG fOr EuU!

i know that i have loved you ... at 7:28 pm
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Saturday, June 16, 2007

gUdbYE mY LovE

dear dear... i hab no dear dear anymore... i juz wanna guard u silently.... dun wan u to get hurt or unhappy or see u sad.... wanna make u happy.... but thinkin abt it... its seems dat i'm de person dat hurt her de most... de guys dat makes her sad.... i culdnt make her happy... i dunno if anyone is readin tis... but i'm cryin when i'm typin every entry aft u left.... its juz bcuz i love u too muc to let u go... i noe dat u've choosen ur path le.... wheneva i've hurt u... i feel more painful den anyone n den u.... dun eva wanna hurt u.... i reali wish i wuld be dead now.... end my misery... end my sorrow... end everything.... dar... i'll alweis rmb u! i'll nt 4get u de!

---- loVinG eUu waS a peRfEct ch0icE i'vE maDe
---- LeaVinG EuU wAs noT a PAtH i WanTeD t0 taKE
---- FoReVeR mY hEaRt SeEkS n0 DaY
---- CuZ mY soRr0w hAs goNe iN DaZE

I LOVE YOU SIAH GEOK TENG
28/08/2006
A day i'll always remember

i know that i have loved you ... at 9:25 pm
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Friday, June 15, 2007

aRe u sTiLl wiF mE?

juz received a call... usin her no... but was nard baz! i suspose she's at east CC? wat is she doin der? i wonder?! didnt she say she outta tkd?! she can be outta me but nt tkd! i'm so pathetic... ritez? cant even compare to tkd... i juz sux baz! she lyks to go trg... lyks to take class.... but u noe ma... i reali dun lyk... she bcummin more lyk those ppl le.... lyk wanna show off.... why hav u bcum liddat? cant u be back urself? lyk last time? are u still wif me? its so cold in the lonely nitez.... feelin so sick.... feelin so tired... i reali wonder wat i've done... i'm juz nt impt enough.... but its okay... nvm... i'm alrd nth to her le... so.... why shld i care? will she ever care abt me? doubt so... her cough syrup... everythin i still rmb... still kept in my heart.... the care n concern i felt long long time ago is no more... i noe i'm nth now.... i'm sorry.... sometimes reali feel lyk breakin down.... but i noe i cant! i wun allow myself to! cuz its nt worth... when she juz treatin me lyk nth! i wun! i hab to bear wif it! i hate myself! hate myself so muc so muc! keep thinkin abt her! i juz sux! why shld i think? why shld i miss her? WEIJIE I HATE U!!! i hate myself! if i can hab a wish now! i wish i were dead n still can go to heaven.... tired.....

i know that i have loved you ... at 10:50 pm
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Thursday, June 14, 2007

SiGHX

a million tears dat i've cry... i wish u were der by my side.... sighx! will u? all these.... waitin for the sun to shine again... waitin for the leaves to grow again.... but it'll witther agian... i dunno wat i shld do.... she asked me if the frensta status n msn nick matters so muc... i reply no... cuz... wat i reali wans is ur heart... but boe its so distance.... will u be der? sometimes i nid u... nid u to gide me... to gimme me the strength to carry on... do u noe? its hard.... i'm so foolish.... a guy lyk me muz as well go die.... i dunno... so tired..........

i know that i have loved you ... at 3:16 pm
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Tuesday, June 12, 2007

PaiN

wa! pain sia! dunno wher pain... is my stomach gastric, kidney or liver.... so pain.... haben been eatin well n slpin enough since she left me... wonder how is she? hope she'll be well n alritez! miss her reali muc.... dun wish to write anymore.... i go rest le...

i know that i have loved you ... at 6:10 pm
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Monday, June 11, 2007

dO euU?

times flies..... alrd broke up for more den a week le... wonder how she's doin nw? frm her voice she sounds fine... n i suspose she's fine too baz.... sigh... wat abt me? i dunno.... since she left me.. i've been sick for almost everyday... so tired.... i noe she wuldnt cum back.. i culdnt ask for more.... i feel lyk dying.... so tired... lost her... i noe i still hab sth impt... more impt i suspose... i'm tryin hard to stay alive... i dunno wat to do.... sighx! nvm... do u still? still misses me? still loves me? do u? i wonder.... but.... she say dun doubt her b4.... but nw.. i'm alrd nth le... i dunno... so tired... so sick.... waitin for u.....

i know that i have loved you ... at 5:29 pm
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Friday, June 08, 2007

tiReD

so tired now... waitin for time to pass den go to sch... wonderin wat she's doin now? every single day i wanna msg her n call her.... but she'll find me irritatin baz?? wat can i do?? sometimes i reali nid u wif me... gimme the courage to carry on wif my life.... juz wanna hold on... thinkin of u.... so tired so tired....why aint u here wif me? why aint u here? of cuz she's nort here... i'm alrd nth to her alrd... wat more culd i expect? nvm... its okay... i'll try to be brave n get over wif it... sighx! dar,i'm missin u badly.... so sick so sick nowadays ever since u're nt wif me.... i'm so tired... alwe3is waitin for ur return.... will u? sighx!! nvm!! wish dat u were here... happy to be bless to u my dear forever....

i know that i have loved you ... at 11:34 am
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Thursday, June 07, 2007

thINkiN oF eUu

wonder wat she's doin now.... wonder how has she been... wonder if she misses me.... wonder if still loves me... i wonder i wonder.... cant help but to think abt it... perharps she'll despise me.... a guy dat cant let go... so pathetic... ritez? me too think dat i'm so pathetic... reali pathetic.... ytd tok to wei shan on de fone... tok abt she n cheng... me n her.... sad sad?? dunno baz... dun reali noe wat to do now.... but i'll do my best de!! every nite juz msg her gudnitex... to let her noe dat i'm still waitin for her return... even if she choose nt to cum back in de end... its okay... i've no regrets... :) thinkin of u... dear dear....

i know that i have loved you ... at 11:02 am
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Wednesday, June 06, 2007

a neW kinDa enDinG

dun wan history to repeat was wat she said..... i dunno wats more i can do... wats needed to be done i've done... locked inside my little world for now.... but wat i noe is dat dar i'll wait for u... tis is muc certain.... no matter wats the endin... i'm glad i've waited... liddat i'll hab no regrets.... dats all baz!! plz rmb dat der's a guy who love u beri muc is waitin for u!! waitin for u.....

i know that i have loved you ... at 4:59 pm
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Saturday, June 02, 2007

thE daYs AloNe

my days w/o her is so empty... so lonely... dunno wat to do.... ytd...i bearin wif it the whole day... culdnt cry... culdnt be sad... muz show a happy face.... i tried.... but on the bus... i juz culdnt help it... the tears nearly roll dwn my cheeks... mayb lettin her go isnt a wise choice?? it itsnt the wise choice for me but for her.... sad.... but wat can i do?? nvm.... i noe dat i cant let her go but i..... so silly of me.... certainly i doubt dat she'll return to me aft her A's.... her heart juz dun hab me... its kinda lyk force to keep someone in ur heart?? i finally understand the pain ting ting was goin through.... i'm sorry to her... she loved my so muc yet i.... even said hurtin words.... mayb dats retirbution baz.... dunno lahz!! i dun wish to hurt or be hurt by anyone anymore... sighx!! i'll try not to think abt it... the fact dat she's happy n doesnt feel a thing 4 me reali hurts me... it means dat i'm nth... i'll juz hab to face it baz!! i'll try to cheer up.... i'll try to be jian qiang... lookin 4ward....

i know that i have loved you ... at 9:51 am
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