Thursday, June 18, 2015
Leaving
Departure, farewells and goodbyes are always difficult for everyone. They say, all good things comes to an end. It isn't just the good but the bad as well isn't it? When is mine ending?
Emotionally tortured and weakened, what is the meaning of life and my existence? Giving & forever giving. Longing and forever longing for a place to belong. Where am i now and just who i am? The world, why doesn't it end? I'm in pain, struggling and living in the memory. I do not want to forget and i do not want to remember. Hypocrisy and lies, is that how we are bound to live in? I can hardly live my life... I'm in pain but i could never let anyone know, i could never tell you and you would never understand them.
If longing for a happy ending and to smile with you is a sin, then maybe i wasn't supposed to be here at all. Are you happier now? I'm sure you are. Always being left behind, always putting in so much more and care so much more than any others, i'm tired, i've tried my best. I'm broken. I wanted not someone to fix me but someone whom i can spend my life with to make her happy. I've been hiding my darkened soul. Perhaps its beyond redemption so why must life be so cruel? Some live without knowing tomorrow, some live without food and water, while others struggle everyday just to carry on living. Am i truly living?
Leaving the world, departing... Would it be a kinder move to everyone else? My sorrow and misery knows no bound. I wish for a day which my end is near. Someday, i know i'll be gone soon but i'm sure those i cared for will always be well and happy. If i could have any last wishes, i just hope the world would be a better and kinder place to everyone and especially to you.
Emotionally tortured and weakened, what is the meaning of life and my existence? Giving & forever giving. Longing and forever longing for a place to belong. Where am i now and just who i am? The world, why doesn't it end? I'm in pain, struggling and living in the memory. I do not want to forget and i do not want to remember. Hypocrisy and lies, is that how we are bound to live in? I can hardly live my life... I'm in pain but i could never let anyone know, i could never tell you and you would never understand them.
If longing for a happy ending and to smile with you is a sin, then maybe i wasn't supposed to be here at all. Are you happier now? I'm sure you are. Always being left behind, always putting in so much more and care so much more than any others, i'm tired, i've tried my best. I'm broken. I wanted not someone to fix me but someone whom i can spend my life with to make her happy. I've been hiding my darkened soul. Perhaps its beyond redemption so why must life be so cruel? Some live without knowing tomorrow, some live without food and water, while others struggle everyday just to carry on living. Am i truly living?
Leaving the world, departing... Would it be a kinder move to everyone else? My sorrow and misery knows no bound. I wish for a day which my end is near. Someday, i know i'll be gone soon but i'm sure those i cared for will always be well and happy. If i could have any last wishes, i just hope the world would be a better and kinder place to everyone and especially to you.
i know that i have loved you ... at 1:18 pm
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
