Tuesday, February 11, 2014
Night Sky
Do you prefer the bright and sunny daylight or the dark but beautiful night sky? I'm back here on this seat and looking at the laptop screen, gazing at the dark skies, smiling and thinking of you. How have you been? Every little thing i do, you never fail to appear in my life. Hope you are leading a wonderful and purposeful life now.
Whenever i travel to work and reaches outside my workplace, i'll look at the bus stop where i used to take the bus to your place. I traveled to school, boarding the train, passing by your station. I have the urge to visit you but i didn't. Funny me? I actually alighted and sat there for a while before traveling again. Even if we met, what would i say to you? I would be an annoyance and would i disrupt your peaceful and loving life? My house smells of the mosquito repellent you once used. I smiled. I remembered everything as it seems liked it happened just yesterday. I'm still weeping inside everyday but i could never let anyone know.
My life is just like the night sky. Dark, yet you could find stars. I am not perfect but i try my best. I'm always worried about not good enough. Even if it's not my fault, i'll apologize. I feel truly alone. No friends, no family, no love ones. So why am i feeling this way that i want to be with you? Would i be a burden? I'm supposed to support you but how long would i be able to smile without ever showing my true self. I am glad that you have someone you cherish and he is able to return that feeling. I smiled, thinking you would be smiling happily and be successful in the future. I'm glad to have been able to know you as a stranger.
My thoughts and feelings will protect you like the night never fails to fall in the world. Even though i'm all but darkness, i hope the gentle stars had made you felt relieved and happy, even though it was for just a moment. Even though my feelings could no longer reach you, i believe, i believe and i truly believe, they will protect you. Take care.
Whenever i travel to work and reaches outside my workplace, i'll look at the bus stop where i used to take the bus to your place. I traveled to school, boarding the train, passing by your station. I have the urge to visit you but i didn't. Funny me? I actually alighted and sat there for a while before traveling again. Even if we met, what would i say to you? I would be an annoyance and would i disrupt your peaceful and loving life? My house smells of the mosquito repellent you once used. I smiled. I remembered everything as it seems liked it happened just yesterday. I'm still weeping inside everyday but i could never let anyone know.
My life is just like the night sky. Dark, yet you could find stars. I am not perfect but i try my best. I'm always worried about not good enough. Even if it's not my fault, i'll apologize. I feel truly alone. No friends, no family, no love ones. So why am i feeling this way that i want to be with you? Would i be a burden? I'm supposed to support you but how long would i be able to smile without ever showing my true self. I am glad that you have someone you cherish and he is able to return that feeling. I smiled, thinking you would be smiling happily and be successful in the future. I'm glad to have been able to know you as a stranger.
My thoughts and feelings will protect you like the night never fails to fall in the world. Even though i'm all but darkness, i hope the gentle stars had made you felt relieved and happy, even though it was for just a moment. Even though my feelings could no longer reach you, i believe, i believe and i truly believe, they will protect you. Take care.
i know that i have loved you ... at 10:08 pm
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
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