Thursday, February 06, 2014
Heart Beat
I just dreamt of you. You were in the Chinese opera costume and your eyes were wet. I walked over, feeling the pain and sadness, i wiped the tears off your eyes. You looked me in the eyes, smiled and then pinched my cheeks. I hope everything is alright for you.
After that dream, i have this uncontrollable urge which I've be suppressing for so long to text you but i tell myself, i shouldn't be an inconvenience to you and your life. You have friends and your love ones with you. If you're sad or feeling down, i'm sure you will relate to them. EXCUSES right?! I keep finding every bit of reason to stop myself from contacting you. It really pains me. But you said i am worse than a friend and you would be happier without me around. How could i be such a contradiction and text you?
There are a lot a lot which i wish you could listen. A lot more which i hope to share. Many more i wish you could tell me yet so little i could bring them out inside me. You've hurt me deeply and in a way that had changed my life. But i'll still smile because i know your feelings for me were true long ago. I just hope that you're happy and keep smiling with your love ones. A thousand words to say but if i could just request you to feel one sentence, i would like to tell you, I LOVE YOU.
After that dream, i have this uncontrollable urge which I've be suppressing for so long to text you but i tell myself, i shouldn't be an inconvenience to you and your life. You have friends and your love ones with you. If you're sad or feeling down, i'm sure you will relate to them. EXCUSES right?! I keep finding every bit of reason to stop myself from contacting you. It really pains me. But you said i am worse than a friend and you would be happier without me around. How could i be such a contradiction and text you?
There are a lot a lot which i wish you could listen. A lot more which i hope to share. Many more i wish you could tell me yet so little i could bring them out inside me. You've hurt me deeply and in a way that had changed my life. But i'll still smile because i know your feelings for me were true long ago. I just hope that you're happy and keep smiling with your love ones. A thousand words to say but if i could just request you to feel one sentence, i would like to tell you, I LOVE YOU.
i know that i have loved you ... at 9:37 am
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
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