Saturday, February 01, 2014

Alone

The feeling of being utterly alone is indescribable. Looking out my window, i pictured family visits, friends laughing together and everyone smiling but i'm alone. I'm distancing myself from the world and the people around me. I cut off contact with many and many more to come. I avoided company functions and i tried to lead my life as normal as i could but it just ain't the same.

I wrote to you, wishing you could give me some comfort but it seems i was hoping to much. There is no way you would reply me and it is never possible for anyone to visit my blog. Some part of me inside is bleeding, some already dead and many will follow as i am thrown into despair. You will never understand. I guess, it is just too cruel for anyone to understand or to go through it.

It's hurting like hell every day inside me. I tried my best to sleep, but when i'm awake, it's too painful to handle. With no salvation, i'm leading a slow death and despair. I won't blame anyone and it was never anyone's fault.

I'm tired. I can't go on anymore. I wish i could die. I wish my live would end right this instance. I'm broken, twisted and truly alone. With nowhere left to go, no place left to hide and no hope left to live, i accept death and darkness in. I love you, the only word i wanted to say before i leave, now and forever...

i know that i have loved you ... at 2:12 pm
fate crumbled all around 0 identities

` here.waiting ;

'watchin:you.go;

|YaNtEeN|

|S0phiA|

^reminds;me*of

Like how the sun is always there
Even when it has sunk down
It's a dream I can't let go
Fantasies starts to flow
Certainty is definitely here
I remain standing in the midst of parting way
And the shadow gently fades away
Flowers sway in the wind as if dancing
While remain completely buried by that kind smile
And echos along with that friendly voice
Because we're together, we're able to believe in each other
Still without remembering “sadness”, I begin to grasp “pain”
When these feelings reach you, they will change into “words”
The pulse that beats quickly catches my breath
Keep trying to break free for that blue, blue sky
Awaken from a dream in an unknown world ..

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