Thursday, January 30, 2014
The EVE
It's the eve of the lunar new year today. I guess she must be busy cleaning and tidying her room and the house. Gambate! Me? I\m in camp to take over my medic for his duty because i didn't want to go for the celebration. I'm all alone on my on and I'm so alone. I'll be strong, i'll be wrong but i still can't go on. I'm just a stranger, trying to find a place in this world. It's okay for me to be alone, from now and forever because i know you're inside me, in my memories and those memories will live on. I'm sure your life has been pretty good now. With your friends and love ones, i can just imagine you smiling. I felt bitter sweet. I could only picture you and imagine but i could never see your smile again. Thank you for not leaving me behind because you are still part of my life every single day. I wonder why, tears fell from my eyes again. Even if today i won't get to see you, i'll look for a tomorrow that i would be able to see your smile again. Don't cry again. I'll take all the tears just like now. I hope you're happy.
One day, i hope my wish would be fulfilled. I hope i would have the courage to tell you how i've been feeling. But would you really bother about a stranger? I wish i had contracted some incurable illness and am going to die. Then maybe i would have the courage to tell you without hesitation. I would no longer ask for your acceptance but wish for you to know there was once a guy whom you met whom is no longer a stranger. Afterall, as a dying person, i wouldn't want to impose on you or gain sympathy. I don't wish to see you cry again. Perhaps i will just write a long long letter and pass to some and ask him\her to deliver to your doorstep when i am no longer around.
It was never easy. To be honest, i was never whole and will never be again. But, i still enjoyed my time with you. Thank you for everything. I am sorry i wasn't good enough.
One day, i hope my wish would be fulfilled. I hope i would have the courage to tell you how i've been feeling. But would you really bother about a stranger? I wish i had contracted some incurable illness and am going to die. Then maybe i would have the courage to tell you without hesitation. I would no longer ask for your acceptance but wish for you to know there was once a guy whom you met whom is no longer a stranger. Afterall, as a dying person, i wouldn't want to impose on you or gain sympathy. I don't wish to see you cry again. Perhaps i will just write a long long letter and pass to some and ask him\her to deliver to your doorstep when i am no longer around.
It was never easy. To be honest, i was never whole and will never be again. But, i still enjoyed my time with you. Thank you for everything. I am sorry i wasn't good enough.
i know that i have loved you ... at 11:27 am
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
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