if i never see your face again ...
then i will find you and love you once more
time after time

Thursday, January 30, 2014

The EVE

It's the eve of the lunar new year today. I guess she must be busy cleaning and tidying her room and the house. Gambate! Me? I\m in camp to take over my medic for his duty because i didn't want to go for the celebration. I'm all alone on my on and I'm so alone. I'll be strong, i'll be wrong but i still can't go on. I'm just a stranger, trying to find a place in this world. It's okay for me to be alone, from now and forever because i know you're inside me, in my memories and those memories will live on. I'm sure your life has been pretty good now. With your friends and love ones, i can just imagine you smiling. I felt bitter sweet. I could only picture you and imagine but i could never see your smile again. Thank you for not leaving me behind because you are still part of my life every single day. I wonder why, tears fell from my eyes again. Even if today i won't get to see you, i'll look for a tomorrow that i would be able to see your smile again. Don't cry again. I'll take all the tears just like now. I hope you're happy.

One day, i hope my wish would be fulfilled. I hope i would have the courage to tell you how i've been feeling. But would you really bother about a stranger? I wish i had contracted some incurable illness and am going to die. Then maybe i would have the courage to tell you without hesitation. I would no longer ask for your acceptance but wish for you to know there was once a guy whom you met whom is no longer a stranger. Afterall, as a dying person, i wouldn't want to impose on you or gain sympathy. I don't wish to see you cry again. Perhaps i will just write a long long letter and pass to some and ask him\her to deliver to your doorstep when i am no longer around.

It was never easy. To be honest, i was never whole and will never be again. But, i still enjoyed my time with you. Thank you for everything. I am sorry i wasn't good enough.

i know that i have loved you ... at 11:27 am
fate crumbled all around 0 identities

` here.waiting ;

    Kel
    Fateful 21
    Bellieving
    Waiting

'watchin:you.go;

^reminds;me*of

Like how the sun is always there
Even when it has sunk down
It's a dream I can't let go
Fantasies starts to flow
Certainty is definitely here
I remain standing in the midst of parting way
And the shadow gently fades away

Flowers sway in the wind as if dancing
While remain completely buried by that kind smile
And echos along with that friendly voice
Because we're together, we're able to believe in each other

Still without remembering “sadness”, I begin to grasp “pain”
When these feelings reach you, they will change into “words”
The pulse that beats quickly catches my breath
Keep trying to break free for that blue, blue sky

Awaken from a dream in an unknown world ..


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