if i never see your face again ...
then i will find you and love you once more
time after time

Saturday, December 07, 2013

Pretense

Hello Blog M! How did your birthday celebration went? You seemed happy to spend time with your new him! There you were, saying studies, preparation but it was all lies. When you were overseas, you kept messaging him. I knew it was all a pretense. After all, all girls are unfaithful. I saw your flirtatious messages with him. I pretended not to know. I felt insecure but i kept it. I've finally lay down to waste. You broken promises, your heartlessness, i will never forget for as long as i lived. But i guess it won't be long? It's time for the game to start, the blood to start flowing once again. You cheated my feelings and you were unfaithful. Your lies, i would never forget. I don't wish to remember you. I regretted, accepting you... How naive was i when i did. I thought i could give you happiness but i didn't thought about myself.

Actually, from the 2nd or 3rd time i was at your place, i hid something outside. It was meant to be a time capsule. Silly me. A time capsule in this era. I didn't know how to be a good partner. I'm foolishly stupid actually. I'm already prepared to lose you even though we just started. During the 1st time you cheated on me, i was already certain. Maybe cheated is a strong word but i can't seem to find a replacement. Right now, i know what i must do. I must rid you from inside me. I'll deactivate my facebook. I'll change my number. Silly me, despite what i said, i knew i would still love you and accept you in every way you are. Even if you can't speak or turn grey, i know i would want to be the one for you...

Someday, i hope you will find the message and the little present i've prepared for you. Maybe you would never find it. Dear M, be happy always. May fate guide you and may you recover the time capsule when you're 21. If everything i did was wrong, if every word i said pissed you off, it was because i am no longer around. I love you my blog M

i know that i have loved you ... at 6:01 pm
fate crumbled all around 0 identities

` here.waiting ;

    Kel
    Fateful 21
    Bellieving
    Waiting

'watchin:you.go;

^reminds;me*of

Like how the sun is always there
Even when it has sunk down
It's a dream I can't let go
Fantasies starts to flow
Certainty is definitely here
I remain standing in the midst of parting way
And the shadow gently fades away

Flowers sway in the wind as if dancing
While remain completely buried by that kind smile
And echos along with that friendly voice
Because we're together, we're able to believe in each other

Still without remembering “sadness”, I begin to grasp “pain”
When these feelings reach you, they will change into “words”
The pulse that beats quickly catches my breath
Keep trying to break free for that blue, blue sky

Awaken from a dream in an unknown world ..


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