Saturday, December 07, 2013
Pretense
Hello Blog M! How did your birthday celebration went? You seemed happy to spend time with your new him! There you were, saying studies, preparation but it was all lies. When you were overseas, you kept messaging him. I knew it was all a pretense. After all, all girls are unfaithful. I saw your flirtatious messages with him. I pretended not to know. I felt insecure but i kept it. I've finally lay down to waste. You broken promises, your heartlessness, i will never forget for as long as i lived. But i guess it won't be long? It's time for the game to start, the blood to start flowing once again. You cheated my feelings and you were unfaithful. Your lies, i would never forget. I don't wish to remember you. I regretted, accepting you... How naive was i when i did. I thought i could give you happiness but i didn't thought about myself.
Actually, from the 2nd or 3rd time i was at your place, i hid something outside. It was meant to be a time capsule. Silly me. A time capsule in this era. I didn't know how to be a good partner. I'm foolishly stupid actually. I'm already prepared to lose you even though we just started. During the 1st time you cheated on me, i was already certain. Maybe cheated is a strong word but i can't seem to find a replacement. Right now, i know what i must do. I must rid you from inside me. I'll deactivate my facebook. I'll change my number. Silly me, despite what i said, i knew i would still love you and accept you in every way you are. Even if you can't speak or turn grey, i know i would want to be the one for you...
Someday, i hope you will find the message and the little present i've prepared for you. Maybe you would never find it. Dear M, be happy always. May fate guide you and may you recover the time capsule when you're 21. If everything i did was wrong, if every word i said pissed you off, it was because i am no longer around. I love you my blog M
Actually, from the 2nd or 3rd time i was at your place, i hid something outside. It was meant to be a time capsule. Silly me. A time capsule in this era. I didn't know how to be a good partner. I'm foolishly stupid actually. I'm already prepared to lose you even though we just started. During the 1st time you cheated on me, i was already certain. Maybe cheated is a strong word but i can't seem to find a replacement. Right now, i know what i must do. I must rid you from inside me. I'll deactivate my facebook. I'll change my number. Silly me, despite what i said, i knew i would still love you and accept you in every way you are. Even if you can't speak or turn grey, i know i would want to be the one for you...
Someday, i hope you will find the message and the little present i've prepared for you. Maybe you would never find it. Dear M, be happy always. May fate guide you and may you recover the time capsule when you're 21. If everything i did was wrong, if every word i said pissed you off, it was because i am no longer around. I love you my blog M
i know that i have loved you ... at 6:01 pm
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
