Tuesday, July 31, 2012
In My Dreams
Even though, we said goodbye,
Quite some time ago
There's a strength, of love in my heart
That just can't let you go
It seems like even when i go to see
Images of you my mind still keeps
And I still see you in my dreams
No matter how I try it seems,
That a deep part of me, just can't forget
That a big part of me, still has regrets
And I can't seem to let,
All the love I had for you go
Yes I still see you in my dreams
[ Lyrics from: http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/n/natalie_brown/in_my_dreams.html ]
Sometimes, I wait with your face in my mind
Somehow, I thought that I left those memories behind
It's seems that you have left my heart frusturated
With vivid memories your smile created
And I still see you in my dreams
No matter how I try it seems
That a deep part of me, just can't forget
That a big part of me, still has regrets
And I can't seem to let,
All the love I had, for you go
I still see you in my dreams
Yes, I still see you in my dreams
Quite some time ago
There's a strength, of love in my heart
That just can't let you go
It seems like even when i go to see
Images of you my mind still keeps
And I still see you in my dreams
No matter how I try it seems,
That a deep part of me, just can't forget
That a big part of me, still has regrets
And I can't seem to let,
All the love I had for you go
Yes I still see you in my dreams
[ Lyrics from: http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/n/natalie_brown/in_my_dreams.html ]
Sometimes, I wait with your face in my mind
Somehow, I thought that I left those memories behind
It's seems that you have left my heart frusturated
With vivid memories your smile created
And I still see you in my dreams
No matter how I try it seems
That a deep part of me, just can't forget
That a big part of me, still has regrets
And I can't seem to let,
All the love I had, for you go
I still see you in my dreams
Yes, I still see you in my dreams
i know that i have loved you ... at 6:17 pm
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Sunday, July 29, 2012
Taken
Have you ever detest the world and the people around you so much so that you wish the person disappearing is you but not them? Everyone came to this world with nothing. Their 1st cry echos and, there, a new life has begun. We're all kind at first. No one knows how to kill, how to bully nor how to hurt someone. It's through what was taught in the family, the environment and the experiences that shape us to who we are.
I've always been shy and worried to express myself. My fears, it's not easy to overcome them. Even when asking for price or going to a shop just to window shop, it would really takes courage for me to step in and ask. The way i am around people, i'm quiet and always observing those around me. I keep a constant look out for people close to me and people with signs of despair like myself whom are too afraid of asking for help. I'm a pessimistic individual. Perhaps so much so that many can't take it. I might seem carefree, but i'm always deep in thought. Thinking about someone or something. Once i've decided that something or someone is important, i will always remember them. It's easy to forgive and often difficult to forget. Everyday, i'm trying to force a smile. These memories, even from years back, i still remember them. But what's the point when i'm the only one that cherish them? I'm always feeling insecure and inferior. Perhaps its the brought up. Is it too late to change now? I need a make over, i need a confidence boost.
Do you believe in treating people the way you want to be treated? Some people do, many others don't. They believe that others should treat them the way they want before they return their feelings or actions. If we're always waiting for others to take the 1st step, how long will it takes? Looking back, i'm really tired. I've always, without fail, time after time, giving it my best for others, even to strangers. Some might find it weird but i guess this is the 1st step for human to develop good relationship. I've starting for build up walls. I stop texting people, i stop conversing with people and now i'm gonna totally shut myself.
Taking people for granted, i guess everyone did. Many have said that they've never taken me for granted. My care and concern, even my company seem to be so cheap when it's readily available. I'm always a call away and if i don't pick up the call, some are angry, few are concern. People tend to care about what they want, what they want to hear and have. Have sparing a thought for others become something so difficult? Nobody truly knows who i am inside. Nobody knows me yet everyone knows my name. Some people judge me not knowing that i'm the same. Being myself is all that is left to hide. I'm starting to protect myself. In actual fact, i know i can't stop caring. But i've gonna try. Don't pick up any calls, don't text, reply shorter and don't give a damn about what others ask or what. I guess, it's time to build up my defenses. Those who say i've changed have no idea they're causing the change by saying 'no' they didn't take me for granted. This is an obvious evidence that they've always been taking me for granted, knowing i would be there for them, console them and care for them. I've always been keeping my woes and worries to myself because there is no one in this world whom i can truly call friend. It's use or being use, which do you prefer?
Taken for granted, betrayed, insulted, despaired, hatred, back-stabbed, misunderstood, compensating, forgiving, I'm tired. I'm shutting down...
I've always been shy and worried to express myself. My fears, it's not easy to overcome them. Even when asking for price or going to a shop just to window shop, it would really takes courage for me to step in and ask. The way i am around people, i'm quiet and always observing those around me. I keep a constant look out for people close to me and people with signs of despair like myself whom are too afraid of asking for help. I'm a pessimistic individual. Perhaps so much so that many can't take it. I might seem carefree, but i'm always deep in thought. Thinking about someone or something. Once i've decided that something or someone is important, i will always remember them. It's easy to forgive and often difficult to forget. Everyday, i'm trying to force a smile. These memories, even from years back, i still remember them. But what's the point when i'm the only one that cherish them? I'm always feeling insecure and inferior. Perhaps its the brought up. Is it too late to change now? I need a make over, i need a confidence boost.
Do you believe in treating people the way you want to be treated? Some people do, many others don't. They believe that others should treat them the way they want before they return their feelings or actions. If we're always waiting for others to take the 1st step, how long will it takes? Looking back, i'm really tired. I've always, without fail, time after time, giving it my best for others, even to strangers. Some might find it weird but i guess this is the 1st step for human to develop good relationship. I've starting for build up walls. I stop texting people, i stop conversing with people and now i'm gonna totally shut myself.
Taking people for granted, i guess everyone did. Many have said that they've never taken me for granted. My care and concern, even my company seem to be so cheap when it's readily available. I'm always a call away and if i don't pick up the call, some are angry, few are concern. People tend to care about what they want, what they want to hear and have. Have sparing a thought for others become something so difficult? Nobody truly knows who i am inside. Nobody knows me yet everyone knows my name. Some people judge me not knowing that i'm the same. Being myself is all that is left to hide. I'm starting to protect myself. In actual fact, i know i can't stop caring. But i've gonna try. Don't pick up any calls, don't text, reply shorter and don't give a damn about what others ask or what. I guess, it's time to build up my defenses. Those who say i've changed have no idea they're causing the change by saying 'no' they didn't take me for granted. This is an obvious evidence that they've always been taking me for granted, knowing i would be there for them, console them and care for them. I've always been keeping my woes and worries to myself because there is no one in this world whom i can truly call friend. It's use or being use, which do you prefer?
Taken for granted, betrayed, insulted, despaired, hatred, back-stabbed, misunderstood, compensating, forgiving, I'm tired. I'm shutting down...
i know that i have loved you ... at 11:28 pm
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Sunday, July 22, 2012
Ego
Often , i wonder, is ego that important to a person? The answer us no. It simply depends on the environment you're in and how you're being brought up. To me, i couldn't care less about it but to other people, it seems everything must be the way they want or how they think it should be. They view relationships as superior and inferior and they view and calculate, threaten and even damage the others' intention.
I would like to ask, can your swallow your ego? Or maybe make things better? Bad habits are always bad habits and can't be justify. Just because you're a guy, you'll have to be fitter and stronger than your girl. Just because you're a girl, you make the guy wait for you for hours. Is this the mindset instilled into people nowadays? What is the world coming to?
To be control in a friendship or a relationship. I've never given a thought about it. Is it that important? Can i gain or be happier when i'm superior or on the upper hand? In these, we always gain some and lose some. God is always fair though not equal. He give men 24hours everyday yet the tasks one have to perform are different. That's why some tasks take longer than the other.
I've never been calculative on things that cant be counted. I remember all the good and bad stuff. I keep them deep down, often hiding them to prevent a issue. In summary, people can carry on to be egoistic and one day, when they realize, they'll lose their precious someone and their relationships with people deteriorate with time.
i know that i have loved you ... at 4:05 pm
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Monday, July 02, 2012
Wait for you
I never felt nothing in the world like this before
Now I?m missing you and I?m wishing
You would come back through my door, ooh
Why did you have to go? You could've let me know
So now I?m all alone
Girl, you could have stayed but you wouldn?t give me a chance
With you not around it?s a little bit more than I can stand, ooh
And all my tears they keep running down my face
Why did you turn away?
So why does your pride make you run and hide
Are you that afraid of me?
But I know it?s a lie what you keep inside
This is not how you want it to be
So baby, I will wait for you
'Cause I don?t know what else I can do
Don?t tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life
Baby, I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just ain?t true
I really need you in my life
No matter what I have to do, I?ll wait for you
Been a long time since you called me
(How could you forget about me?)
You gotta be feeling crazy
How can you walk away, everything stays the same
I just can?t do it baby
What will it take to make you come back?
Girl, I told you what it is and it just ain?t like that
No, why can?t you look at me? You?re still in love with me
Don?t leave me crying
Baby, why can?t we just, just start over again?
Get it back to the way it was
If you give me a chance I can love you right
But you?re telling me it won?t be enough
So baby, I will wait for you
'Cause I don?t know what else I can do
Don?t tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life
Baby, I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just ain?t true
I really need you in my life
No matter what I have to do, I?ll wait for you
So why does your pride make you run and hide
Are you that afraid of me?
But I know it?s a lie what you?re keeping inside
That is not how you want it to be
Baby, I will wait for you
Baby, I will wait for you
If it?s the last thing I do
Baby, I will wait for you
'Cause I don?t know what else I can do
Don?t tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life
Baby, I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just ain?t true
I really need you in my life
No matter what I have to do, I?ll wait for you
I?ll be waiting
Now I?m missing you and I?m wishing
You would come back through my door, ooh
Why did you have to go? You could've let me know
So now I?m all alone
Girl, you could have stayed but you wouldn?t give me a chance
With you not around it?s a little bit more than I can stand, ooh
And all my tears they keep running down my face
Why did you turn away?
So why does your pride make you run and hide
Are you that afraid of me?
But I know it?s a lie what you keep inside
This is not how you want it to be
So baby, I will wait for you
'Cause I don?t know what else I can do
Don?t tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life
Baby, I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just ain?t true
I really need you in my life
No matter what I have to do, I?ll wait for you
Been a long time since you called me
(How could you forget about me?)
You gotta be feeling crazy
How can you walk away, everything stays the same
I just can?t do it baby
What will it take to make you come back?
Girl, I told you what it is and it just ain?t like that
No, why can?t you look at me? You?re still in love with me
Don?t leave me crying
Baby, why can?t we just, just start over again?
Get it back to the way it was
If you give me a chance I can love you right
But you?re telling me it won?t be enough
So baby, I will wait for you
'Cause I don?t know what else I can do
Don?t tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life
Baby, I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just ain?t true
I really need you in my life
No matter what I have to do, I?ll wait for you
So why does your pride make you run and hide
Are you that afraid of me?
But I know it?s a lie what you?re keeping inside
That is not how you want it to be
Baby, I will wait for you
Baby, I will wait for you
If it?s the last thing I do
Baby, I will wait for you
'Cause I don?t know what else I can do
Don?t tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life
Baby, I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just ain?t true
I really need you in my life
No matter what I have to do, I?ll wait for you
I?ll be waiting
i know that i have loved you ... at 7:37 pm
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
