Saturday, March 03, 2012

Dark

The skies has been dark these days. I am now gazing upon the sky with tears whelming up. Nobody said it would be this painful or hurt to try to forget someone. I'm really weird. I wish for others happiness but none for myself. I wonder why and what am i? The reason i should exist. Why am i always standing alone in the darkest places, feeling ever so lonely, watching smiles and being envious of them.

2 days ago, it was the 39th month. I managed to control myself not to text or disturb her happy life. Doomed to be forgotten, meant to be lost, i've no longer any reason to be alive or to smile. Would a bolt of lighting strike down to me please? I can't care so much, i can't care too much. Every day is a torture to me. Every hour is painful and every moment is misery. What is my purpose now?

I've always try hard to work towards helping, caring and loving people in need and those whom are really deserving. I wish i could help everyone but i realize i helped no one at all. It's pathetic. There is nothing i could do. My life is wasted. Therefore, i would give my life away... To those i care for. Being in the dark is already a voluntary instinct for me. I'm tired... Let me go, wandering in the darkness in this never ending road of devastation...

i know that i have loved you ... at 6:45 pm
fate crumbled all around 0 identities

` here.waiting ;

'watchin:you.go;

|YaNtEeN|

|S0phiA|

^reminds;me*of

Like how the sun is always there
Even when it has sunk down
It's a dream I can't let go
Fantasies starts to flow
Certainty is definitely here
I remain standing in the midst of parting way
And the shadow gently fades away
Flowers sway in the wind as if dancing
While remain completely buried by that kind smile
And echos along with that friendly voice
Because we're together, we're able to believe in each other
Still without remembering “sadness”, I begin to grasp “pain”
When these feelings reach you, they will change into “words”
The pulse that beats quickly catches my breath
Keep trying to break free for that blue, blue sky
Awaken from a dream in an unknown world ..

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