Wednesday, February 22, 2012
Ain't Any Better
Dear blog,
I thought i am already better. I though i've already recovered but somehow i know i am only cheating on myself. There're a thousand feelings i felt but i can't explain. So much so that i wish it isn't real and i didn't exist. I shouldn't hide from problems and woes but it keeps haunting me. It's painful, miserable and sad.
What is the meaning of life now that what matters to you the most has gone and betrayed you? Why would i cherish my owner when i knew i was just a toy? This feeling of loneliness, have i gotten used to it? I no longer need anyone by my side. I wish i could go back to the old me, the one that is innocent and i could just live in my own world.
Ain't any better, i ain't any better but i am moving on. People are leaving and memories are fading. The promises we shared are just illusions created when you're curious about a new toy. Nobody would hold you dear close, so far none. I do not wish for anything else anymore. No longer am i lingering for love or care. I just wanna be useful to my owner. To be use and to serve my purpose.
I'm tired. Wishing everyday would be my last. Let me sleep now, let me sleep for eternity. And so as i prayed, happiness to those whom have used me. I won't deny others of their happiness just because i am suffering. I'm tired... Sorry...
I thought i am already better. I though i've already recovered but somehow i know i am only cheating on myself. There're a thousand feelings i felt but i can't explain. So much so that i wish it isn't real and i didn't exist. I shouldn't hide from problems and woes but it keeps haunting me. It's painful, miserable and sad.
What is the meaning of life now that what matters to you the most has gone and betrayed you? Why would i cherish my owner when i knew i was just a toy? This feeling of loneliness, have i gotten used to it? I no longer need anyone by my side. I wish i could go back to the old me, the one that is innocent and i could just live in my own world.
Ain't any better, i ain't any better but i am moving on. People are leaving and memories are fading. The promises we shared are just illusions created when you're curious about a new toy. Nobody would hold you dear close, so far none. I do not wish for anything else anymore. No longer am i lingering for love or care. I just wanna be useful to my owner. To be use and to serve my purpose.
I'm tired. Wishing everyday would be my last. Let me sleep now, let me sleep for eternity. And so as i prayed, happiness to those whom have used me. I won't deny others of their happiness just because i am suffering. I'm tired... Sorry...
i know that i have loved you ... at 9:53 pm
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
