Thursday, November 10, 2011

11/11/11

It's 11/11/11 today. It's the day i was going to ask her back or so. But it seems it is no longer possible. It's not that i don't have the courage to call her but i don't have the courage to see her unhappy and get in the middle or their happy fairy tale. Right now, i don't even dare to love anyone anymore. I'm trying my best to avoid facing my feelings or to like someone.

I'm a tool and a tool should not have any feelings at all. I feel that i've done something wrong by sharing so many things with the people i know. I have no rights to feel or to love. A tool is merely a tool and so it should only be use and discarded. Am i now waiting for the next owner to use or waiting for the previous owner to put me to use again?

I'm tired and really tired... Perhaps the best way is to end everything. When will it end? Must i keep torturing myself? I'm tired... I just need a shoulder but i can't. Maybe it's just that this tool is getting rusty...

i know that i have loved you ... at 8:49 pm
fate crumbled all around 0 identities

` here.waiting ;

'watchin:you.go;

|YaNtEeN|

|S0phiA|

^reminds;me*of

Like how the sun is always there
Even when it has sunk down
It's a dream I can't let go
Fantasies starts to flow
Certainty is definitely here
I remain standing in the midst of parting way
And the shadow gently fades away
Flowers sway in the wind as if dancing
While remain completely buried by that kind smile
And echos along with that friendly voice
Because we're together, we're able to believe in each other
Still without remembering “sadness”, I begin to grasp “pain”
When these feelings reach you, they will change into “words”
The pulse that beats quickly catches my breath
Keep trying to break free for that blue, blue sky
Awaken from a dream in an unknown world ..

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