Sunday, June 12, 2011
Dreams
Am i still in my dreams? Longing for someone or something that can never happens? Looking back to the distance past like it never existed. Forgotten by all and left behind, the misery and pain. Is it a test or was it part of life we all have to go through? I'm empty now. I no longer have dreams but nightmares. I'm tired of my everyday. I'm looking up to the sky everyday but there are not stars. The red sky with tons of clouds. It looks like it could be raining any moment. I detest fate si i'm always fighting it. Or rather, i'm changing my destiny.
I woke up worried and scared. Was the dreams i had real? It was too scary. Was it wishing for such things? Why wouldn't it happens on me. When i see my love ones, my friends being sad, i wish i could just give god my lifespan and ask him to make them happy. I don't need a long life but a good one. I supposed the time she gave me was good enough. I couldn't ask for more anymore. No matter what happens from now on, i will be myself. No longer must i act.
I'm feeling restless and my friends all said i looked worn out, tired and depressed. Well, am i an open book? Or maybe some may not even know i existed. That's why my blog address is ever existed. I wish that i ever existed and so i can carve some memories to the people i cherished. I'm bracing myself towards death.
I'm giving up on her now. Cause i gonna let go for her to be happy. A new beginning means she have to leave her past behind. I will gladly cry my heat out to be the rain that washes away all the bad memories. That's the least i can do for her...
In my dreams, even when i'm fast asleep, i still can hear your voice. A deep part of me just can't forget and a big part of me still have regrets. But you don't seem to know all the love i've shared and so i'll go... Someday i'll see you in my dreams...
I woke up worried and scared. Was the dreams i had real? It was too scary. Was it wishing for such things? Why wouldn't it happens on me. When i see my love ones, my friends being sad, i wish i could just give god my lifespan and ask him to make them happy. I don't need a long life but a good one. I supposed the time she gave me was good enough. I couldn't ask for more anymore. No matter what happens from now on, i will be myself. No longer must i act.
I'm feeling restless and my friends all said i looked worn out, tired and depressed. Well, am i an open book? Or maybe some may not even know i existed. That's why my blog address is ever existed. I wish that i ever existed and so i can carve some memories to the people i cherished. I'm bracing myself towards death.
I'm giving up on her now. Cause i gonna let go for her to be happy. A new beginning means she have to leave her past behind. I will gladly cry my heat out to be the rain that washes away all the bad memories. That's the least i can do for her...
In my dreams, even when i'm fast asleep, i still can hear your voice. A deep part of me just can't forget and a big part of me still have regrets. But you don't seem to know all the love i've shared and so i'll go... Someday i'll see you in my dreams...
i know that i have loved you ... at 10:25 pm
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
