Wednesday, May 18, 2011

Interview

Had a psychological test this morning. It's one of the criteria for deployment. Well, i almost flunk it. Well, i've tried my best to do it as "properly" as possible. In the end i was interviewed. They told me i might require counseling. Well, yes i am suicidal and always thinking of death and how to end my life. Could it be you that i'm feeling this way ever stronger day by day. But come to think of it, i'm really silly and laughable.

I knew i will be going. That's why i decided to let her go in the 1st place yet i can't. I can't be there for her when i'm there. Who will be there for her to complain to? Who will take care of her? Who will care for her and love her when i'm not around? I might be going to US next year too. When i'm gone, how will you be? I'm worried and sad and living in fear. I would send you air ticket for you to fly over if you're able to. But i guess, it's okay. You've got your studies don't you. Well, it doesn't matter anymore now that you've left and found someone new. I hope you can tell me with your heart that he is everything good and everything better and you're much happier with him. There is nothing i can do for you at all. I can't see the person i love suffers.

When i close my eyes it's you i see. Everything i know you make me believe.
I'm not alone... The ghost of you will always be with me.

i know that i have loved you ... at 9:32 pm
fate crumbled all around 0 identities

` here.waiting ;

'watchin:you.go;

|YaNtEeN|

|S0phiA|

^reminds;me*of

Like how the sun is always there
Even when it has sunk down
It's a dream I can't let go
Fantasies starts to flow
Certainty is definitely here
I remain standing in the midst of parting way
And the shadow gently fades away
Flowers sway in the wind as if dancing
While remain completely buried by that kind smile
And echos along with that friendly voice
Because we're together, we're able to believe in each other
Still without remembering “sadness”, I begin to grasp “pain”
When these feelings reach you, they will change into “words”
The pulse that beats quickly catches my breath
Keep trying to break free for that blue, blue sky
Awaken from a dream in an unknown world ..

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