Friday, May 20, 2011
Happier?
It ended abruptly. Are you happier now? You've told me you'll be happier with him. He's the one for you. In the end, it wasn't even 2 months. I blamed myself for letting you go but all i could was to watch. His kisses, his hugs and the time you spent with him every night when we were still together, i could never forget them. But no matter what happened and how it is, i tried my best and did what was good for you. And all my efforts went down the drain. Although i know he's not the one for you. Although i feel that he's not a good guy, still i tried not to tell you because you love him. I hid what i could and encouraged you. I put on a smiley face and looked into your eyes, and all i saw was guilt. You could no longer face me directly. I've endured your countless hurtful comments when we were together and thousand blades piercing my heart each time you were with him all because u said you'll be happier with him.
While loving him, you've hurt a guy who truly love you for someone who doesn't truly do. It's a cycle and eventually, the one who will be the most painful is not you but the one who cared for the most. The one who is willing to lay down his pride and put on a fake smile giving you his blessings, praying, encouraging and being there for you. You said you yearn for true love. Define it. A bird in hand is worth 2 in the bush. It is always when we've lost the bird in hand that we realize it's significance and value.
Even if i know it will hurt so badly that i might take my live any moment, i will still find you and love you again. It's a promise of eternity and a belief of more than fate. Fate bring you to it, and the rest is up to us to shape our destiny. Everyday i look at what you post on facebook and i wonder, how much more time do i have to care for you. I can't tell you anything anymore. I'll watch over you from darkness and pray someday i may find relief in seeing you smile again.
My birthday wishes included you and everyone around me. I hope it comes true and everyone can be happy. Believe in yourself, reach down inside and have faith in what you do.. I know you'll make it through..
While loving him, you've hurt a guy who truly love you for someone who doesn't truly do. It's a cycle and eventually, the one who will be the most painful is not you but the one who cared for the most. The one who is willing to lay down his pride and put on a fake smile giving you his blessings, praying, encouraging and being there for you. You said you yearn for true love. Define it. A bird in hand is worth 2 in the bush. It is always when we've lost the bird in hand that we realize it's significance and value.
Even if i know it will hurt so badly that i might take my live any moment, i will still find you and love you again. It's a promise of eternity and a belief of more than fate. Fate bring you to it, and the rest is up to us to shape our destiny. Everyday i look at what you post on facebook and i wonder, how much more time do i have to care for you. I can't tell you anything anymore. I'll watch over you from darkness and pray someday i may find relief in seeing you smile again.
My birthday wishes included you and everyone around me. I hope it comes true and everyone can be happy. Believe in yourself, reach down inside and have faith in what you do.. I know you'll make it through..
i know that i have loved you ... at 10:05 pm
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
