Tuesday, May 17, 2011
Dream
Been really depressed recently. Or rather, have i even be happier before? Well, i don't know. What's happiness? Can it be felt? Can we see it? Maybe we can eat it? I wonder i wonder... I'm on duty now. Too bored maybe? Haha! Had a dream yesterday and it was about her. I can't remember fully what was it about but i know in the dream, we were both smiling. She was happy. So why am i even dreaming? I've lost every right to dream. I'm tired and i don't want to be sobber. If she was smiling in the dreams, does it mean that what i've told her and the method i used was correct even though it hurts her? Or does she even feel a thing and i'm just hurting myself? Why was she smiling in my dream? If this is what i wish for, why wouldn't it happen in real life? My feet and hands are peeling. I wonder why. I'm random and confuse. Have i lost myself? Or am i just pretending to be so i can shut myself outta the world? I cursed her but... It'll end by all means when i take my live. I promised myself that. People told me to show her that i'm happier and can be happy even without her. I'm trying, perhaps too hard till it's fake. I wish i could be lost in the dream and be sleeping eternally. I won't attend her funeral because she'll be attending mine. :D Funny? Haha!
What is that true love you're yearning for when you don't even know what is it about? What is it that you can't see when it is just around you. Perhaps, like you've always said, leave it to fate... Believing love will get you home someday, somehow and somewhere... In my dreams...
What is that true love you're yearning for when you don't even know what is it about? What is it that you can't see when it is just around you. Perhaps, like you've always said, leave it to fate... Believing love will get you home someday, somehow and somewhere... In my dreams...
i know that i have loved you ... at 9:55 am
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
