Monday, January 24, 2011
HappIneSs
Been feeling down lately. I wonder if it's because I'm growing older day by day or I've grown tired of life. Looking at the people around rushing to work, smiling and talking. I feel out of the world. I feel lonely. I want someone to talk to, someone whom i can smile with. I want a someone whom can appear as and when i need her. I thought i could survive it myself. Being alone, keep secrets to myself. Extracting only the color of my past. Somehow, i failed. Shades of grey darken my world. The sun no longer shine, the clouds no long drift. The light from the lighting diminished, the sound from the thunder can no longer be heard. Am i sharing the same skies as everyone? I want to be happy! What is true happiness? I want to smile from the bottom of my heart again. To see the people around me happy while I'm so distorted makes me miserable! So please, kill me off. Wipe out this empty and useless feeling. Make be brutal and heartless. I no longer want a tomorrow with such torment. Mine will be filled with the beautiful white roses stained with the blood dripping down my wrist. With my conscious fading and intact, i will bathe my world once again with shades of red and grey...
Emptiness...
Emptiness...
i know that i have loved you ... at 9:37 pm
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
fate crumbled all around 0 identities