Wednesday, March 04, 2009
BurSTinG 0Ut
There has been a lot of things happening around lately. And i wish to talk about it here and i hope after letting out what i can, i will be able to carry on life again.
Attachment has been bothering me. Going to Alexandra is too far for me. Even for 8am shift, i have to wake up at 5:30am and needless to say, i woke up at 4:30am for shift. The long traveling hours and waking up so early is starting to drain me. Its been an interesting 2 weeks for Operating Theatre posting and Emengency Department posting.
About work, had stopped working for 3 weeks. Was kinda bored at 1st. But i'm used to it now. Well, i don't even understand a thing or know what happened and i wasnt put on shift anymore. It was a weird feeling at 1st. Prepared myself for what is going to come. No message or whatsoever. It was kinda irresponsible. But what can i say? Its over. But i'm happy to have left because it wasnt a place for people like me who have honour and pride to work there. I thrive to climb to the top but because people at the top is always there, somehow they fail to see or care about others at the bottom. But i'm thankful to them because they natures me in a way to become a better person and to be proud of what i can do and wants to learn what i cant. Knowing too much of a person, especially about someone close can be harmful. I believe in this world there is someone whom we can always trust. :) I'm happy to have people to dote on me. Or should i say USED to? But the friends there were real i feel. The care and concern given was also real. But the work place and smiles were so much so fake. Its okay, i cherish them and will remember them for life.
I've been searching for something and i finally found it. But i wasnt able to access to it. It wasnt fated or should i say, i'm being random? I need consent to go to a place i want. However, it isnt really important now. Really. What matters is that i have a home to stay, a bed to sleep, money to spend and eat and also a heart that beats n is able to love and care for others.
I WISH FOR NOTHING
NOTHING WILL I WISH FOR
WHEN NOTHING COMES OUT
NOTHING IS LOST
Attachment has been bothering me. Going to Alexandra is too far for me. Even for 8am shift, i have to wake up at 5:30am and needless to say, i woke up at 4:30am for shift. The long traveling hours and waking up so early is starting to drain me. Its been an interesting 2 weeks for Operating Theatre posting and Emengency Department posting.
About work, had stopped working for 3 weeks. Was kinda bored at 1st. But i'm used to it now. Well, i don't even understand a thing or know what happened and i wasnt put on shift anymore. It was a weird feeling at 1st. Prepared myself for what is going to come. No message or whatsoever. It was kinda irresponsible. But what can i say? Its over. But i'm happy to have left because it wasnt a place for people like me who have honour and pride to work there. I thrive to climb to the top but because people at the top is always there, somehow they fail to see or care about others at the bottom. But i'm thankful to them because they natures me in a way to become a better person and to be proud of what i can do and wants to learn what i cant. Knowing too much of a person, especially about someone close can be harmful. I believe in this world there is someone whom we can always trust. :) I'm happy to have people to dote on me. Or should i say USED to? But the friends there were real i feel. The care and concern given was also real. But the work place and smiles were so much so fake. Its okay, i cherish them and will remember them for life.
I've been searching for something and i finally found it. But i wasnt able to access to it. It wasnt fated or should i say, i'm being random? I need consent to go to a place i want. However, it isnt really important now. Really. What matters is that i have a home to stay, a bed to sleep, money to spend and eat and also a heart that beats n is able to love and care for others.
I WISH FOR NOTHING
NOTHING WILL I WISH FOR
WHEN NOTHING COMES OUT
NOTHING IS LOST
i know that i have loved you ... at 9:41 pm
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