Thursday, March 26, 2009
CrEaTioNs & DeStrUcTi0n
A reason, an excuse and the freedom. To which one attain the soul of the corrupted lost. The silent story which flows through the mind of many others are long forgotten. To believe in someone, to trust, to love, to desire and to hate. Are these all evil? Why? Time will never freeze, all will be lost and even the youngs will grow old in a blink of the eye. The capture moments are stagnent only in pictures and the soul of the lost one. A sad story and a wrenched life that is. To be able to live is not living. To be able to see, doesnt mean we're seeing everything. The one we call god is created this world hoslistically. The good, the evil, the kind, the hated, the one who kills and the one who are being killed engluge in these chains of cycle between these unattain future. So why? Why is the destiny created in such a way? Why must it be so perfect that only those whom seek the truth can be released? The gentle wind, the endless night and the sheer cold from the skies of the falling stars. To create is to destroy everything? Or to destroy everything is to create? In order to shape a new future, to create a new world, the best is to let humanity complete its time and live in shadows till the sun no longer burns and the moon no longer shines. Destruction will bring about a new world, instead of saving us bit by bit, i will choose to end everything for those who fail to open the eye of wisdom to see the truth of the meaning of life.
i know that i have loved you ... at 11:02 pm
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Tuesday, March 24, 2009
AnGEL's WiNGs
Beautiful wings of the angel spreads wide and the light of eternal blessing shines upon us. Angels are always so beautiful in the pictures and books. Even in movie or anime, they never fail to make an impression. The being of goodness and the guardian of time and love. Fallen angels? How should i put it? Its something that i would like to see, to feel. To capture time is impossible. And even to those who are of a higher being. Things and memories will fade and change in time. To attain the power to capture time, many and many has fallen. To the darkness or rather to the world around us. Thats how i feel. Originally an angel, despite fallen, the heart remains the same and the pride remains undusted. Everybody makes mistakes and that is why and how we're able to change and understand each other. To accept the endless seconds that had passed. To rewriten what is written and to give a meaning to those that are important. What matters is to know that we're who we are and who we are is what is are and how we are. Once we find the truth about what is enlightment and the wisdom to overwrite our destiny, wings will once again bloom, taking us to the place where we belong in the far begining...
i know that i have loved you ... at 1:35 pm
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Friday, March 20, 2009
RanD0m
I'm being random today. Well, i always do. Are u able to hear the voices deep down inside each and everyone of us? Most importantly, are we able to hear our own voices and follow our heart? An iron wall blocks the path to the illusions ahead. But without seeing these illusions, we would not be able to be free and understand what is inside us. For many, things we desire and things we really need are often mixed up. We eat to live or we live to eat? Hence, i believe neither way is the correct one. We live to live and eating is just a part of life. Its true that we survive on food and we must eat to live. However, there is always a choice. A choice to die not eating. So in this world, nothing is really a need. A need doesnt exist but somehow we cant see it. Thats why we're always revoling around the world endlessly. A peace of mind and the beautiful soul a heart can take is a fantasy? There must be good to prove evil and likewise. The theory behind is to find balance. If we can find our own balance, i'm sure someday we'll be able to live as a higher being. Not mere rubbish in this world of material and dust.
i know that i have loved you ... at 7:07 pm
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Thursday, March 19, 2009
NoRsE MyTHoL0GY
"I find no comfort in the shade
Under the branch of the Great Ash.
I remember the mist
of our ancient past.
As I speak to you in the present,
My ancient eyes
see the terrible future.
"Do you not see what I see?
Do you not hear
death approaching?
"The mournful cry of Giallr-horn
shall shatter the peace
And shake the foundation of heaven.
"Raise up your banner
And gather your noble company
from your great hall,
Father of the Slains.
For you shall go to your destiny.
"No knowledge can save you,
And no magic will save you.
For you will end up in Fenrir's belly,
While heaven and earth will burn
in Surt's unholy fire."
— Doom of Odin
i know that i have loved you ... at 11:27 pm
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Sunday, March 15, 2009
tiMe FliEs
Time seriously flies. Its now march and soon april. Its been my 209th post here. Looking forward and no longer turning back. Tired from what had happened and walked outta it. I've come a long way from the past from yesterday to the me today. Life is full of ups and downs. A wrong turn make lead us astray but nevertheless, if we keep on walking, i'm sure there would be a junction where we can head back to the path we want again. Life is full of choice? Do u agree? Even writting this post is my choice and going to work is not by force but by choice. A month more to GERON posting. I'm worried. What if i am not prepared and not that good? Well, i just have to work that much harder and make people accept me. Of cause i'm certain of my skills but.... I need to refresh i suppose. Lols. Life isnt much to talk about now. Its been calm and peaceful. No more worrying about others and friends which not worth my time. Backstabing and betrayal isnt much of a problem cause i aint close to anyone. YEAH!!! Finally, i'm free for what is to come next! Lets work hard for a better tomorrow!
i know that i have loved you ... at 9:20 am
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Monday, March 09, 2009
WaSteFuL
This is a random post. I've been sick for the past 3days but am getting better now. :) Just finished my dinner and had some idea for this post. Didnt have good appetite so i couldnt finish my food. Thats why i felt shameful. The poor people in africa couldnt even get enough to eat and many of them are malnourish yet i'm here wasting food. Things that are common to us can be so wonderful to them and it differs from person to person. Thats why now i feel that i must do it right. I have a wish. A wish i hope would spark the lives or many people. That is to provide free food and education for those in africa. To do that, i must be quite a wealthy man. Next, i know i cant be just providing food and education for free. Because in this way, i would go bankrupt. So i will start a factory there and encourage people there to work and provide meals for the workers and also give away free vegetables and meats on certain day of every month. Children could come to school for free and have free meals in the school and the adults get wages and also food. To complement the elderly and those who are too weak to work, i could maybe come out with the distribution of food to them to be canned food. To last them longer though not healthier. I hope to bring them outta proverty and give them a future to look upon. This is my wish... An undying wish....
i know that i have loved you ... at 6:53 pm
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Friday, March 06, 2009
DeAtH
Today's topic will be about death. Its something i learnt today when i was in the emengency department. Death comes to all and no matter how much we want to avoid it, we cant. Its part of life and life does not end with death but living does. When a person is no longer breathing, and the heart is no longer beating, the person is considered dead. All that is left is for doctor to sign the death certificate. When we die, we never die alone. We die together with our hopes, our dreams, our past, our future and so much so much more. Its not merely about the person itself but about all the others around us. Continuing to pump the heart, hoping to revive the person is so much of a wish of everyone and sometimes, things we can do is so limited. To watch our love ones die and old age and diseases slowly eating away the life of someone whom were once healthy and young, its seems so miserable and u would hate god why things happens this way. There're many things we want to do to help others and also there're things we cannot do which is within our limit. To simply let a person die just because he/she is old, i cant accept it. To do minimal for them is as good as doing nothing. A word from someone and a tick of the clock, everything is over. All i can do is to pray for the dead. And i really hope i can do it everyday. In return, i hope god will reduce any punishment and be more forgiving to those who have now become the past.
To love is to give and let go.
To care is to show and move on
To forgive is to remember and cherish the good
To live is a candle that burns for others
Remember, never regret and have faith.
To love is to give and let go.
To care is to show and move on
To forgive is to remember and cherish the good
To live is a candle that burns for others
Remember, never regret and have faith.
i know that i have loved you ... at 10:41 pm
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Wednesday, March 04, 2009
BurSTinG 0Ut
There has been a lot of things happening around lately. And i wish to talk about it here and i hope after letting out what i can, i will be able to carry on life again.
Attachment has been bothering me. Going to Alexandra is too far for me. Even for 8am shift, i have to wake up at 5:30am and needless to say, i woke up at 4:30am for shift. The long traveling hours and waking up so early is starting to drain me. Its been an interesting 2 weeks for Operating Theatre posting and Emengency Department posting.
About work, had stopped working for 3 weeks. Was kinda bored at 1st. But i'm used to it now. Well, i don't even understand a thing or know what happened and i wasnt put on shift anymore. It was a weird feeling at 1st. Prepared myself for what is going to come. No message or whatsoever. It was kinda irresponsible. But what can i say? Its over. But i'm happy to have left because it wasnt a place for people like me who have honour and pride to work there. I thrive to climb to the top but because people at the top is always there, somehow they fail to see or care about others at the bottom. But i'm thankful to them because they natures me in a way to become a better person and to be proud of what i can do and wants to learn what i cant. Knowing too much of a person, especially about someone close can be harmful. I believe in this world there is someone whom we can always trust. :) I'm happy to have people to dote on me. Or should i say USED to? But the friends there were real i feel. The care and concern given was also real. But the work place and smiles were so much so fake. Its okay, i cherish them and will remember them for life.
I've been searching for something and i finally found it. But i wasnt able to access to it. It wasnt fated or should i say, i'm being random? I need consent to go to a place i want. However, it isnt really important now. Really. What matters is that i have a home to stay, a bed to sleep, money to spend and eat and also a heart that beats n is able to love and care for others.
I WISH FOR NOTHING
NOTHING WILL I WISH FOR
WHEN NOTHING COMES OUT
NOTHING IS LOST
Attachment has been bothering me. Going to Alexandra is too far for me. Even for 8am shift, i have to wake up at 5:30am and needless to say, i woke up at 4:30am for shift. The long traveling hours and waking up so early is starting to drain me. Its been an interesting 2 weeks for Operating Theatre posting and Emengency Department posting.
About work, had stopped working for 3 weeks. Was kinda bored at 1st. But i'm used to it now. Well, i don't even understand a thing or know what happened and i wasnt put on shift anymore. It was a weird feeling at 1st. Prepared myself for what is going to come. No message or whatsoever. It was kinda irresponsible. But what can i say? Its over. But i'm happy to have left because it wasnt a place for people like me who have honour and pride to work there. I thrive to climb to the top but because people at the top is always there, somehow they fail to see or care about others at the bottom. But i'm thankful to them because they natures me in a way to become a better person and to be proud of what i can do and wants to learn what i cant. Knowing too much of a person, especially about someone close can be harmful. I believe in this world there is someone whom we can always trust. :) I'm happy to have people to dote on me. Or should i say USED to? But the friends there were real i feel. The care and concern given was also real. But the work place and smiles were so much so fake. Its okay, i cherish them and will remember them for life.
I've been searching for something and i finally found it. But i wasnt able to access to it. It wasnt fated or should i say, i'm being random? I need consent to go to a place i want. However, it isnt really important now. Really. What matters is that i have a home to stay, a bed to sleep, money to spend and eat and also a heart that beats n is able to love and care for others.
I WISH FOR NOTHING
NOTHING WILL I WISH FOR
WHEN NOTHING COMES OUT
NOTHING IS LOST
i know that i have loved you ... at 9:41 pm
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Tuesday, March 03, 2009
StoRY
For today, i'm going to tell a story. A nice and sweet yet sad story. Of cause, this story is completely fiction and is made up by me.
Long long time ago, there was this guy call AGES. He was the 1 whom created writting material such as pen, pencil and eraser. With the help of his 3 assistant, he was able to accomplish this wonder stationaries we use today. The person whom was in-charge of of making he pencils was called STUBORN. She was a stuborn woman and determined to complete her job with anything she can get hold of. She post a threat to the other 2 whom created eraser (UNCOMMON) and pencil (KEEPER). Both UNCOMMON and KEEPER are friends. They have the same objective that is to make AGES happy and trust them. But STUBORN does not wants to be on the same level as them. She took away materials that were used to make pen for herself. This caused a very bad relationship between the 3 of them.
Finally, STUBORN succeded. She created a pencil, stealing the resources of KEEPER. This 1st pencil was call 2B. Later on, she went ahead to create 3B, 4B and 5B. But still 2B was her favourite. To substain AGES's trust, she created HB. Because of this, 2HB, 3Hb and 4HB started comming out. And because of this, she started to look down the HB pencils she created but not what she done. To her, because 2B was her 1st creation, she would always love 2B. But poor HB being used and compared. And finally, the 1st HB created was finally thrown away. But what she doesnt knows is that HB always feels inferior to 2B and to the rest of the HBs. They are constantly used and sharpen but because HB is not important to her, sharpening is not visible.
Indeed, in real life, similar things can happen. Always think for others. If u're dying or going off, be happy that others wont have to die with u. If u're leaving or with terminal illness, thanks the person or the illness for letting u have them and for them to accept u. Everyone is unique, and please only remember the good things people did for us. Farewell.
Long long time ago, there was this guy call AGES. He was the 1 whom created writting material such as pen, pencil and eraser. With the help of his 3 assistant, he was able to accomplish this wonder stationaries we use today. The person whom was in-charge of of making he pencils was called STUBORN. She was a stuborn woman and determined to complete her job with anything she can get hold of. She post a threat to the other 2 whom created eraser (UNCOMMON) and pencil (KEEPER). Both UNCOMMON and KEEPER are friends. They have the same objective that is to make AGES happy and trust them. But STUBORN does not wants to be on the same level as them. She took away materials that were used to make pen for herself. This caused a very bad relationship between the 3 of them.
Finally, STUBORN succeded. She created a pencil, stealing the resources of KEEPER. This 1st pencil was call 2B. Later on, she went ahead to create 3B, 4B and 5B. But still 2B was her favourite. To substain AGES's trust, she created HB. Because of this, 2HB, 3Hb and 4HB started comming out. And because of this, she started to look down the HB pencils she created but not what she done. To her, because 2B was her 1st creation, she would always love 2B. But poor HB being used and compared. And finally, the 1st HB created was finally thrown away. But what she doesnt knows is that HB always feels inferior to 2B and to the rest of the HBs. They are constantly used and sharpen but because HB is not important to her, sharpening is not visible.
Indeed, in real life, similar things can happen. Always think for others. If u're dying or going off, be happy that others wont have to die with u. If u're leaving or with terminal illness, thanks the person or the illness for letting u have them and for them to accept u. Everyone is unique, and please only remember the good things people did for us. Farewell.
i know that i have loved you ... at 4:46 pm
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