Saturday, October 18, 2008
LisTeN t0 y0uR hEaRt
Listen to your heart is one of my favourite song. Its sad and the tone is nice. When i'm sad, i'll always listen to it. It moves me. However, do i still have a heart to feel or to listen to? You built a love, that love falls apart, the little piece of heaven turns too dark. Well, am i in heaven which is too dark or am i in hell? Sometimes i wonder who i really am. How am i really feeling. Every smile seems to be a tear behind it. I dont wish to say goodbye to my memories. Cause it makes me stronger. But deep inside its hurting. I may not be the person i seems. Wearing a mask to hide my sorrow. The feeling of belonging to someone dreams is all i wanted. i'm really very very tired. Goodbye and farewell. It comes and goes. Theres so much to mention but i cant find the words. Deep insdie i'm crying like a small child. Deep inside the tears had never stopped. The pain seems so unbearable. However, in order to grow strong, its necessary. Its just part of life isnt it? What am i doing till now? Wasting my life away? Killing the sense of self. Just to feeling belonging to something or someone. Where is the source of courage and faith i had? Its because i've experienced too much which makes people tell me their problems and i could guide them? I cant and am not as strong as them. I cant say i love you and forget them. Behind my smiles, would anyone ever think the tears behind it? Its the only way i can hide my misery and sorrow. But nowadays, i just couldnt help it anymore. My tears seems so overwhelming that it actually started flowing out from my eyes. I wish i could just cry outside but i cant. I gonna be strong. I'm here for people and its my existance. I need someone to hug and cry. Hear my story, listen to my heart. Let me scream, let me cry. Bring me to another new world where i can find peace. Unlock this chains of misery from me. Set me free from everything. Wipe my heart off these bloodstains. Clear my mind of these twisted ideations. Give me a live to live. Give me someone who bless me. Things simply hurts.
i know that i have loved you ... at 9:47 am
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