Wednesday, May 28, 2008
WhEn U'Re miSsinG anD i'M goNE
I'm sad. Hardly can i describe how i'm feeling now. I cant denined the fact that i've lost myself again or was i never recovered? Its just me and myself back in this world. Who created it? i've come to sense that it was i who wish to be in this world. A world human can hardly imagine. With blood as tears, Pain as enjoyment and misery as happiness, this world isnt lacking of anything a human can be. I lust for blood. Seeing the sight of it makes me thrill! Its like WOW! blood! Its the only thing i have to make me human. Thats why i wan it outta me! From my eyes, mouth, ears wrist and my body. Imagine me with it! YEAH! Thats like so bloody but its what meant to be myself. The suffering or pain inflicted must be to maximun! To grow! To gain what it is to be a human! I'm so tired! Something in my life is just missing. And i'm gone long. Well,i wish my life wasnt so bad. I wish i could be dead! Real dead! But how to i kill myself? I wonder? Confused and upset, set me free. Let a thousand swords pierce through my pathetic little heart, Let feel what it is to die! Allow me to fade away... When i'm gone, blood rain in my world and the everlasting thunderstorm will finally be over... Death is near...
i know that i have loved you ... at 1:51 pm
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Tuesday, May 20, 2008
tIrED
Oh well,haben been too well for quite a while. But i suppose i wun die from this. Well, life's currently well enough for me to live on. Anyway,does it bothers? Cuz whatever it is, we're born as a human, so we'll have to live on as a human. With evil desires and distorted therioes and minds. Its been so long since i see blood dripping from the wrist of mine. Well,i suspose how much i cut doesnt matters cuz it just doesnt stop the pain or changes anything. I must find a more effective way to torture myself. Loneliness is alrd a part of me. Being sad is just a part of daily routine. I wuld gib my live away, if only it wuld make someone happy. Shuted myself for so long which i think its not necessary to open up again. To be in my own world.
i know that i have loved you ... at 2:44 pm
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Sunday, May 11, 2008
My BdAY
11th may today. My Bday again. Anyway its mothers' day. yups! Happy mothers' day! :)
Anyway,i wanna thx a few peeps. Not in order okay? :P
Cheryl
Joanne
Cristine
Shu xian
Ting ting
Qi yuan
Hui mei
Janet
Hui Yan
Naveen
Steph
Valerie
Felicia
Wei wen
Xin yan
Bernice
Melisa
Rebecca
Dyana
Dahlya
Shi qi
Deanna
Wina
Shi yun
Wah eng
Norin
Troy
Hui min
Jamie
Ju lei
Zoey
Linda
Yan ying
Amanda
Sandra
May
Leonard
Sheron
Andy
Khairunisa
Vanessa
Grace
Yana
Alina
Khair
Tracy
Ivy
Ke wei
Belinda
Bell
Qinning
Xing juan
Thats all for now! Will add in more later.
Anyway,i wanna thx a few peeps. Not in order okay? :P
Cheryl
Joanne
Cristine
Shu xian
Ting ting
Qi yuan
Hui mei
Janet
Hui Yan
Naveen
Steph
Valerie
Felicia
Wei wen
Xin yan
Bernice
Melisa
Rebecca
Dyana
Dahlya
Shi qi
Deanna
Wina
Shi yun
Wah eng
Norin
Troy
Hui min
Jamie
Ju lei
Zoey
Linda
Yan ying
Amanda
Sandra
May
Leonard
Sheron
Andy
Khairunisa
Vanessa
Grace
Yana
Alina
Khair
Tracy
Ivy
Ke wei
Belinda
Bell
Qinning
Xing juan
Thats all for now! Will add in more later.
i know that i have loved you ... at 12:31 pm
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Thursday, May 08, 2008
w0rN oUt
Seriously,i'm busy nowadays. i suspose its a good thing? 5hrs of slp per day. omg! hahax! oh well... this is my life. i'll just have to live with it. totally worn out... i'm growing weary of life. its too heavy for me to carry on walking with the load on memories and the scars on my heart. well... life still goes on. it wuld not stop for u,it will not stop for me. thats the truth. thats wat it means to be a human. there are things we cannot change how muc we struggle to. i believe in myself. to create a future,we dont relie on anyone or god. its ours to create. i wanna create a different era. a world with is peaceful. with loving people n no wars. however,us human are too wicked. we all hab sins on us. the only choice is for us to be wiped out and be reborn into a new world. to create a new era. before that,we muz struggle to grab hold of sth impt. the truth of life. to attain the meaning. to suffer n be miserable and to be hurt in pain. every seconds we're leading to a path down to destuction. so lets us speed up the time. let us all die. let our blood flows and color the world red.....
i know that i have loved you ... at 6:25 pm
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
