if i never see your face again ...
then i will find you and love you once more
time after time

Thursday, January 31, 2008

WatS lIfE?

i wonder was life? full of lies? or misery? is there forever? even when we closes our eyes, we dreams. even when we aint in this world anymore,we're still torturin someone. lets der be a place where my memories n love will live eternity. let there be a place i will seek. a light for me. the path down my own despair... down to my own destruction. nv to be loved nor to love is wat i wan... i wan hatred within me.... slice up myself with blood drippin down my pathetic worn out fingers... i wan my presences to dissappear... take everythin away from me... its unfair its unfair... but take it! everythin... everyone... to be left alone wif nth n with no hope or happiness... w/o any emotions... to find the truth behind the truth... to be fallen n live my life in hell.... to shed countless drops of blood.... i dunid to care. as horrible as i can be,end my life wif thousands pain... let me suffer n gain the turth till the very end! to die is to live. to live is to die. i'll live to die! not die to live again in the nxt life... let me go... freed my soul from this torture body of mine! be it u,me or anyone elses,there lies sth we seek... to me its dead and eternal misery n suffering to gain the truth or the world, the universe and to be the ultimate being even... thou shall live in misery....

i know that i have loved you ... at 1:51 pm
fate crumbled all around 0 identities

Tuesday, January 22, 2008

atTatcHmeNt D0nE

1st, i'm happy.... its another yr... dunno how it'll be but i simply hope it'll be simple for me... my resolution for this yr is to receive compliments.... dunno baz? silly me... my mood recently? it has been full of ups n dwns? nth is ever stagnant. so its okay... i suspose i wun dyin of tears overflowing or blood gushin out. yups.... nth muc baz? the toopid flu is huantin me.... omg! i spam the flu medc given to me by my manager... suspose to take only 1 but i dun care... take 4... nvm lahz... nt drowsy anyway.... why cant my life juz ends here? i dunno... i wonder? everyday,ppl are dying.... so little we can do to preserve life.... care for the sick? for service of mankind? wats dat all abt? love god? god loves us? den why were we ever being created in the 1st place? juz bcuz he find sth is lackin? or for fun? i really dun understand? if ders no human in this world... den we wun hav to be save or to go thru so many thingy... wats the real purpose of our life? as a human or animal? i juz wanna be in eternity... wif only me... myself... as the centre of the detest of hatred or the evil n de darkness or desire... huant me n cover me wif it... the burn me n let me suffer... den let me understand wat is real pain...

i know that i have loved you ... at 11:44 am
fate crumbled all around 0 identities

` here.waiting ;

    Kel
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    Bellieving
    Waiting

'watchin:you.go;

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Like how the sun is always there
Even when it has sunk down
It's a dream I can't let go
Fantasies starts to flow
Certainty is definitely here
I remain standing in the midst of parting way
And the shadow gently fades away

Flowers sway in the wind as if dancing
While remain completely buried by that kind smile
And echos along with that friendly voice
Because we're together, we're able to believe in each other

Still without remembering “sadness”, I begin to grasp “pain”
When these feelings reach you, they will change into “words”
The pulse that beats quickly catches my breath
Keep trying to break free for that blue, blue sky

Awaken from a dream in an unknown world ..


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