Thursday, January 31, 2008
WatS lIfE?
i wonder was life? full of lies? or misery? is there forever? even when we closes our eyes, we dreams. even when we aint in this world anymore,we're still torturin someone. lets der be a place where my memories n love will live eternity. let there be a place i will seek. a light for me. the path down my own despair... down to my own destruction. nv to be loved nor to love is wat i wan... i wan hatred within me.... slice up myself with blood drippin down my pathetic worn out fingers... i wan my presences to dissappear... take everythin away from me... its unfair its unfair... but take it! everythin... everyone... to be left alone wif nth n with no hope or happiness... w/o any emotions... to find the truth behind the truth... to be fallen n live my life in hell.... to shed countless drops of blood.... i dunid to care. as horrible as i can be,end my life wif thousands pain... let me suffer n gain the turth till the very end! to die is to live. to live is to die. i'll live to die! not die to live again in the nxt life... let me go... freed my soul from this torture body of mine! be it u,me or anyone elses,there lies sth we seek... to me its dead and eternal misery n suffering to gain the truth or the world, the universe and to be the ultimate being even... thou shall live in misery....
i know that i have loved you ... at 1:51 pm
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Tuesday, January 22, 2008
atTatcHmeNt D0nE
1st, i'm happy.... its another yr... dunno how it'll be but i simply hope it'll be simple for me... my resolution for this yr is to receive compliments.... dunno baz? silly me... my mood recently? it has been full of ups n dwns? nth is ever stagnant. so its okay... i suspose i wun dyin of tears overflowing or blood gushin out. yups.... nth muc baz? the toopid flu is huantin me.... omg! i spam the flu medc given to me by my manager... suspose to take only 1 but i dun care... take 4... nvm lahz... nt drowsy anyway.... why cant my life juz ends here? i dunno... i wonder? everyday,ppl are dying.... so little we can do to preserve life.... care for the sick? for service of mankind? wats dat all abt? love god? god loves us? den why were we ever being created in the 1st place? juz bcuz he find sth is lackin? or for fun? i really dun understand? if ders no human in this world... den we wun hav to be save or to go thru so many thingy... wats the real purpose of our life? as a human or animal? i juz wanna be in eternity... wif only me... myself... as the centre of the detest of hatred or the evil n de darkness or desire... huant me n cover me wif it... the burn me n let me suffer... den let me understand wat is real pain...
i know that i have loved you ... at 11:44 am
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