Monday, December 24, 2007
SuN riSe
never tot i'll be able to see sun rise everyday.. cuz we dunno wats goin to happen the nxt day.. the nxt min... the nxt moment... so be thxful... recently i've been quite alritex.... yups! i think i shld be alritex? or rather i'll be fine if i juz tell myself i'll be... days seems longer n longer.... the nitex are really torturing cold to me... my heart shivers in the cold... to be torn apart. but now i suspose it doesnt really matters.... juz let it be.. i'll led my life this way.... everything is goin to be fine... no more cryin or heart achin for me... cuz i dunno if my heart is still functional... anyway,its okay i suspose.... nth gonna change...
i actually wanna thx vanessa for giving me the elmo n ..... yups! u're nice gal... :) nxt will be my angel joanne... hope ya dun alweis emo... xin yan,thx for bein der for me... n cheer up! to my clique,thx for all the happy moments u gav me... n lastly to geok.... reading ur blog.... i noe u're happy... happier den b4... w/0 me... it does hurts... nah... its okay... juz hope u'll stay happy alweis....
to myself, i wanna thx myself for being so torn n twisted! so broken n sux.... n i hate myself for nt cuttin myself n spammin panadol for the past days.... n wat i hate myself even more is dat why didnt i die! agrh! nvm.....
enjoy ur xmas ppl!
i actually wanna thx vanessa for giving me the elmo n ..... yups! u're nice gal... :) nxt will be my angel joanne... hope ya dun alweis emo... xin yan,thx for bein der for me... n cheer up! to my clique,thx for all the happy moments u gav me... n lastly to geok.... reading ur blog.... i noe u're happy... happier den b4... w/0 me... it does hurts... nah... its okay... juz hope u'll stay happy alweis....
to myself, i wanna thx myself for being so torn n twisted! so broken n sux.... n i hate myself for nt cuttin myself n spammin panadol for the past days.... n wat i hate myself even more is dat why didnt i die! agrh! nvm.....
enjoy ur xmas ppl!
i know that i have loved you ... at 7:35 am
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Friday, December 14, 2007
A eM0 n Enj0yabLE daY
Let me tok abt today.... cant type well cuz i kinda sprain my neck... 2day didnt went for tut at 9am... but i did went for 2037lect lahz.... khair went sch tgt wif me in bus 72... seriously bored n need company... wearin slipper makes me insecure... ltr kana caught how? den we went to de beach aft dat.... khair bought rice.. norin n sheila bought sandwiches n beack map. nas bought nugget... nisa bought ball... me? ice cream... 2day nas was kinda emo... can feel it... ytd norin cried... these few days khair emo den nisa also nt really in a very gud more few days b4... sheila cried today too... makes me tot of alot of things... shall say ltr... we really enjoyed ourself... thx everyone for makin this outtin possible... den ltr to cycling n dinner... muz thx nisa bf for the bike n dinner... =) nisa muz cherish ur bf ok? aft dat went home... khair go home cnahge den go clubbin wif nas... sheila go home... nisa n bf went home... nas went to norin hse to change... dun really feel lyk goin home but i still did.... hope everyone is happy! thx u for being so kind to me! alot of things i culd write dwn but i'll rmb....
i got so muc to say now... but let me juz gib my 10theories of life.
1. Life is not worth living
2. Life is full of misery & pain
3. Being hurt of hurting ppl is a process of life
4. Being torture/hurt by ppl makes me feel the pain which helps me grow
5. We humans cant understand everything. So in order to understand, we need to thrive in pain & misery. Let ppl torture & hurt u.
6. There is no such thing as right or wrong. Only black& white exist.
7. We come to this world alone, so we stay be lonely & miserable
8. I dunid anyone, others dunid me. No one is essential in the world
9. Death is not a release but a new begining of life & suffering
10. -figure it out urself-
i got so muc to say now... but let me juz gib my 10theories of life.
1. Life is not worth living
2. Life is full of misery & pain
3. Being hurt of hurting ppl is a process of life
4. Being torture/hurt by ppl makes me feel the pain which helps me grow
5. We humans cant understand everything. So in order to understand, we need to thrive in pain & misery. Let ppl torture & hurt u.
6. There is no such thing as right or wrong. Only black& white exist.
7. We come to this world alone, so we stay be lonely & miserable
8. I dunid anyone, others dunid me. No one is essential in the world
9. Death is not a release but a new begining of life & suffering
10. -figure it out urself-
i know that i have loved you ... at 11:46 pm
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Tuesday, December 11, 2007
tHe w0rLd oF minE
t0daY, i shaLl talk abt my my world... my own world in my life wif pain n misery...
in this world,there's no laughter... no smiles n laughter... only fake smiles n kisses to the ppl arud me... the colors are lost... gone wif wind... wif black n white in this lonely world... the snowy white snow covers the darkest life on my heart... when all is gone, darkness strive... the world wif no ppl... no on really needs u... everyone juz comes n go... i dunid anyone here... i dunid sympathy... ders no nid to pity me... look at me wif ur sorrow eyes... cry ur heart wif these painful tears... toen n tattered wif the paper of black n white.... broken mirror which slites thru the wrist... blood flowin... drippin yet no pain... dying yet happy... to be dead is the best thing... how culd i stab my heart? i cant... so i muz keep living in this world... nobody can bring the colors back.. or perharps it was liddat... ders no nid to bring me outta it... i'll juz live wif it... its ok its ok to be fake juz to survive... juz to be hurt... hurt me... kill me... bring the misery to my life... cuz when ders hurt... i'll grow... bring all the pain here.. leave wif all the happiness i can gib... black n white... it isnt really colorless i suspose? i juz wanna be alone.. wif cold... n ppl stabbin into my heart... puttin pain n misery into me... wanna led this life.. cuz i believe in suffering... its nv ending... n it'll nv ends... or it has nv ended....
I Love You! To ppl that culd stab my heart n bring pain! Believe n believe iy'll be my hope of pain in misery n the hopelessness.... DeAd ArcOss tImE... A FaKeR!
in this world,there's no laughter... no smiles n laughter... only fake smiles n kisses to the ppl arud me... the colors are lost... gone wif wind... wif black n white in this lonely world... the snowy white snow covers the darkest life on my heart... when all is gone, darkness strive... the world wif no ppl... no on really needs u... everyone juz comes n go... i dunid anyone here... i dunid sympathy... ders no nid to pity me... look at me wif ur sorrow eyes... cry ur heart wif these painful tears... toen n tattered wif the paper of black n white.... broken mirror which slites thru the wrist... blood flowin... drippin yet no pain... dying yet happy... to be dead is the best thing... how culd i stab my heart? i cant... so i muz keep living in this world... nobody can bring the colors back.. or perharps it was liddat... ders no nid to bring me outta it... i'll juz live wif it... its ok its ok to be fake juz to survive... juz to be hurt... hurt me... kill me... bring the misery to my life... cuz when ders hurt... i'll grow... bring all the pain here.. leave wif all the happiness i can gib... black n white... it isnt really colorless i suspose? i juz wanna be alone.. wif cold... n ppl stabbin into my heart... puttin pain n misery into me... wanna led this life.. cuz i believe in suffering... its nv ending... n it'll nv ends... or it has nv ended....
I Love You! To ppl that culd stab my heart n bring pain! Believe n believe iy'll be my hope of pain in misery n the hopelessness.... DeAd ArcOss tImE... A FaKeR!
i know that i have loved you ... at 11:06 am
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Saturday, December 08, 2007
C0lD n LoSt
the colors of life? wat issit? why muz der be colors? wat does it mean? wat does everything stand for? cold n lost... torn n shattered... culdnt care less if i'm hurt... the pain wuldnt last... the hope wuldnt fade... the cry wuldnt sound... everythin will vanqish... i'm sad... yes i am.... i'm hurt so wat? i'll cry but its bearable.... my heart culdnt stop beatin.... the cold chills my heart... the warmth of the heart... the face n everyone else can no longer be felt... when love is adsent, pain n hatred will grow... yes! i hate myself... why am i born here? into this world? lost... lost my faith... my soul is gone long... i dunno how to describe my feelings... nvm.... gudbye myself!
i know that i have loved you ... at 9:42 pm
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Thursday, December 06, 2007
A siMpLe EnDiNg RoaD
a simple ending road is wat i wish for... when is life goin to end? does it really ends when we take our last breath? wat abt aftlife? wher will be be? who are we? who am i? a lost soul in the universe... takin the polluted mind n air or the distorted world. tears keeps fallin as blood rains frm sorrow. the painful feel is gone long n deep inside the rainbow of black n white. colors doesnt exist. light n dark become unparallel... stars fades n moon sets... the sun is cold n ugly.... everythin dat really matters are gonE n erase. take me away... take me home... take me back to ur heart. take me somewher i belong.... gimme hope... gimme love... lost lost lost..... it hurts.... misery the form of life is takin form of myself.... drown by the endless sea of pale bule heart... when someday i'm gone, forget me... lost wif me in space n time... kill me dwn n stab my heart... strangle me wif cloth so tied..... may my heart beats its last... may u see my love again... fallen wif time along wif u... wif time n cries of the spirits of dawn.... tml a new day... a new life.... but b4 tml i shivers wif cold.... its killin me.. it killin me.... take my life.... let me die.... kill me now... take my breath away... plz... do it... do it... do it!!!! for this simple ending road of mine is nw unbreakble.... take the chains n lock my heart... lock it plz.... when all is gone... i'll be back... rebirth for light... rebirth for life... rebirth wif every soul... purify wif sins n darkness... as evil as it is... when i'm gone, everything fades.... its ended baby....
A SIMPLE ENDING ROAD OF MINE.
written by weijie.
A SIMPLE ENDING ROAD OF MINE.
written by weijie.
i know that i have loved you ... at 9:36 pm
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Tuesday, December 04, 2007
WeLcomE t0 mY LifE
ppl welcome to my life... everyday i hope things will turn out fine but it didnt... i suspose mayb its juz me baz which is thinkin too muc baz.... things hab been betta baz ever since i'm dead... aiya juz dunno baz.... why culdnt anyone kill me? why muz it be commit sucide go to hell? so cant anyone kill me? haish.... kill me... plz? haish! save me from the skys.... let me die.... broken up deep inside....
are those words of yours
just a kindness of the dream?
it even conceal
all the lies
it's unfair
giving you the cold back
to the departing you
I was listening
you're fighting alone?
it's unfair
"I'll return home"
your voice bypasses me
I was stubborn
and acted all tough
as I turn back time
should I have called you?
what if I shed tears asking you not to go?
I can finally do
anything now
I couldn't say
those 1000 words
I'll send them to
your distant back
as wings
those 1000 words
I couldn't say
will lean against your
injured back
and embrace you
the dream continues as
I think of you
pretending to forget about
those days
it's unfair
"I'll write you a letter"
your voice seems to look away
I was stubborn
and acted all tough
as I turn back time
should I have gotten upset at you?
what if I dropped my shoulders telling you I couldn't wait?
I can finally do
anything now
can you hear it?
those 1000 words
I'll send them to
your unseen back
as wings
can you hear it?
those 1000 words
will lean against your
tired back
and embrace you
those 1000 words
I couldn't say
lalalala...
I'll send them to your back
as wings
can you hear it?
those 1000 words
lalalala...
they'll lean against your back
lalalalala...
are those words of yours
just a kindness of the dream?
it even conceal
all the lies
it's unfair
giving you the cold back
to the departing you
I was listening
you're fighting alone?
it's unfair
"I'll return home"
your voice bypasses me
I was stubborn
and acted all tough
as I turn back time
should I have called you?
what if I shed tears asking you not to go?
I can finally do
anything now
I couldn't say
those 1000 words
I'll send them to
your distant back
as wings
those 1000 words
I couldn't say
will lean against your
injured back
and embrace you
the dream continues as
I think of you
pretending to forget about
those days
it's unfair
"I'll write you a letter"
your voice seems to look away
I was stubborn
and acted all tough
as I turn back time
should I have gotten upset at you?
what if I dropped my shoulders telling you I couldn't wait?
I can finally do
anything now
can you hear it?
those 1000 words
I'll send them to
your unseen back
as wings
can you hear it?
those 1000 words
will lean against your
tired back
and embrace you
those 1000 words
I couldn't say
lalalala...
I'll send them to your back
as wings
can you hear it?
those 1000 words
lalalala...
they'll lean against your back
lalalalala...
i know that i have loved you ... at 12:07 am
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