Tuesday, July 03, 2007

mY fEeLinGs

sad sad sad... my blog... why does it seems so sad? why does my life seems so sad n miserable? i wanna end it! can anyone put an end to this? de momeries u gave me... its hard to erase... btu i noe i have to move on... move on wif wat u left... the pain... the little hope... clingin on to it... but its alrd time to let go.... waitin is a long process... encouragin myself to bear wif the pain to wait... lyin to myself dat she still cares n loves me.... cheatin myself into the world of lies i've created... i wasnt enough to love her... i wasnt impt enough... i'll try nt to stead wif tkd gals again... i hated myself... i dun trust easily... why?! cuz of the 4th... cuz of sher... her promises are meant to be broken... so are urs... studies,family are impt.... but even frens n tkd is more impt den me.... i've no place to stand... i juz nth yet i say i dun mind as long as i'm wif her... why am i so cheap?! haish! i reali only wanted to be loved... i only wanted sth so simple.... yet nobody culd gave me... all i felt was loneliness... my sorrow nobody will understand... lettin go is reali diffc... the love i gave was true... was urs too? it doesnt matters anymore... lots of gals out der... why shld i keep torturin myself over her? i'll nv love so muc again! its betta to hurt to get hurt... aft sher... no 1gal dat i've love so muc... only u... alot alot more... but u wun understand n u wun care... the changes i made... the things i did... from the 1% of me to the 99% of me... but u didnt see... all is lost.... till this day everythin is gone! i'm juz a burdern... i wun be a burdern anymore! nt to u... so muc i wanna write... everywher i go is de ghost of u n me... it will alweis huant me... every couple i see.. i'm envious... i'll think of u... everynite i cry... i wish u'll be der... i'm juz not a gud bf... if only i culd hab 1 wish now,plz let me die! or plz take away my emotions... let me be a person wif nth... now i have someone to love me... i'm happy yet scared... i wonder if its true... does 4eva reali exist? i believe it twice... wif sher n wif her... was i a fool to get cheated twice?! tears are rollin down! i dun wish to write anymore! i wanna be loved! lend me ur presense!

goNe aWaY! nV RetuRn! dUN ReGrEt!

i know that i have loved you ... at 6:57 pm
fate crumbled all around 0 identities

` here.waiting ;

'watchin:you.go;

|YaNtEeN|

|S0phiA|

^reminds;me*of

Like how the sun is always there
Even when it has sunk down
It's a dream I can't let go
Fantasies starts to flow
Certainty is definitely here
I remain standing in the midst of parting way
And the shadow gently fades away
Flowers sway in the wind as if dancing
While remain completely buried by that kind smile
And echos along with that friendly voice
Because we're together, we're able to believe in each other
Still without remembering “sadness”, I begin to grasp “pain”
When these feelings reach you, they will change into “words”
The pulse that beats quickly catches my breath
Keep trying to break free for that blue, blue sky
Awaken from a dream in an unknown world ..

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