Wednesday, February 25, 2009

ReCentLY

Recently, things turns out alright for me. People comes and goes. A certain someone suddenly came back to my life or maybe she had never left. But i feel alright now. Ready to accept my past and move on. My life with a pillow seems fine after all. Its been a busy week. Wake up 0520 every morning. Gonna make my way down to alexandra hospital for my operating theatre posting. Where live and death decides on that miserable table and the live of another is depending on the hands of others. Its been an interesting 3days there. Very soon, will be going there for my emergency department posting. I sure hope to learn more about emergency procedures. Scrubbed up for operation today. Was a minior one and didnt do much. But i'm grateful Weekends without work seems meaningless to me, to a person who likes to burry himself in work. Lols! Being hang out to dry is so miserable and sometimes disgust me. Hanging on till now because there is something i wish to achieve and prove. Through my knowledge, chracter and skills but it seems unreal. I just wish for someone fresh and unpolluted and also fine to appreciate me next time when i'm working again. Maybe in other dimension or company. I wish those i worked with the best of luck. :)
I MISS U ALL. ESP nyixan MY FRIEND

i know that i have loved you ... at 7:27 pm
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Monday, February 23, 2009

FutUrE

Continuing from the previous post, lets take a step forward and talk about the future. Basically, we can classify it into 2 types. The near future which may be just tomorrow or the far future which means months or years later. Do we really see really see the far future from where we are now? Most of the time is just how we think and the situation we're in that influence how we think about it. Many of a times, its just something unrealistic or mere illusion. Dreams do come true tomorrow but it is not because we believe in it or god, its us that make it come true. Even a 4D we win is not a gift from heaven or god. We need to Q and pay money for what we got. A long walk and the time spent is our expense and the winning 4D is our profit or product. We can never predict what is going to come tomorrow or maybe even the next moment of our life. Tomorrow brings a brand new day? Do u agree? How many people actually thought of it that way? It can never be that way, because every single day, we bring part n parcel of yesterday with us. A tomorrow without a yesterday, would u accept that?

Yesterday.
Today.
Tomorrow

i know that i have loved you ... at 7:43 pm
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Saturday, February 21, 2009

tHE PrEseNt

Continuing from my last post, i'm going to talk about the present. To many, we often overlook the present for the past and decide on the misty future ahead of us. Planning ahead is not wrong, however dreaming is laughable. People whom often talks about the future with unrealistic plans are the biggest dreamers. We do not know how to cherish the one around us till everything is lost. Often, when today becomes a yesterday, thats when we start to regret and look back. Those whom cherish themsleves and the people around them will often find joy in life instead of looking back. But the question is how many people would actually do so? We know of this theory but its just a pile of trash if we do not have what takes to perform or to live up to that theory. Having the present is more than anything else. Because there is a present, there will always be a yesterday and a tomorrow. Do not regret or look back. Brace oursleves. A bird in hand is worth two in the bush.

i know that i have loved you ... at 8:16 pm
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Friday, February 20, 2009

ThE pAst, PrEseNt & fUtuRE

Everyone dream about a better tomorrow. Everyone look back to the past. The present is never cherished and slowly, todays turn into yesterdays. No matter how many tomorrows we give, a yesterdays would never come back. Thats why history exist. The endless chains of time is pathetic. It binds us to a world of everlasting regrets.

To those with a past, its okay to look back sometimes. Because we look back, it makes us a better person. Because we think about the past, we feel and we'll tend to make today better. The past might not be hurtful. There are wonderful memories but its just that we humans can only focus on how and who hurted us and why did it happened. We'll imagine if we could turn back time. However, its impossible. Instead of longing for a past with misery and sadness which things can never be changed, a future we're creating is of more importance. Because of the past, we tend to neglect the future. Living in the past hurts because all we see are illusions. Slowly they dissapear and u'll realise u have nothing. Having a past is necessary. It had always been a part of life. A way of living and should be respected.

To Be Continue...
The Present...

i know that i have loved you ... at 9:00 pm
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Tuesday, February 17, 2009

LUV t0 mE

Neon signs were shining bright
And in the street lights, you tried to move by
I saw your shadow was fading away
Well, I lost you all of a sudden

Good-bye my love, I love you too so
Before you went away, I didn't know
Memories awake, only in my dream
When I think I lost them, they all come back to me

You said that you love me
Looked at me softly
You kissed me and held me all night so tight

I know what you're feeling
I know what you're dreaming
All that you feel and everything in your mind

The memories are so clear
So many good years
Sweet ones I hold dear
Can't hold back the tears

I need you by my side
These feelings I can't hide
So don't walk away, boy
Baby won't you bring back

Love me

i know that i have loved you ... at 10:35 am
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Wednesday, February 11, 2009

ChaNgiNG

The world is ever-changing. However it is not everlasting. Time change and so does the one around us and ourselves. Be it good or bad, great changes comes with pain and reformation and to reform takes time. We always longed for the past but not the future. Cause we're uncertain what might happened. Humans are selfish to a certain extend. I agree. And i am just a human too. But to care for others like all living creatures is how i live my life and is how i hope to led my life to a brighter future. When u truly care for someone, i'm sure he or she will be able to feel it. When u're there for those in need, u'll feel happy even if u know its only for a split seconds. U're willing to give and pour out time, money and love for all living creatures.However, very soon, whats left or which is memories. The one in need would never remember what and how the others did. But the one who is always there, will always remember those memories they shared. Its just human. Not to cherish and become selfish. To change when new discovery are made and to abandon their self for the sake of the up comming future. Its not wrong, its not to blame. Its in our nature. Most often, the one whom u cared for the most would be the one who hurts u the most. issnt it? The carer and the one cared for will always entwine in this endless chain. Cheer up to myself....

i know that i have loved you ... at 11:55 am
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Tuesday, February 10, 2009

AboUt LifE

Its been a long while since i updated my blog. Nothing much to write about. Well, i figure it would turn dusty after a long while so i'm here to type something. The final exams are comming. My 1st paper is on friday. Am here i am so relaxed and still playing my game. Haha. But i know i got to work hard and pass this final exmas. It seems that time is against me. Since only yesterday that i got into poly. And now, i'm taking my final paper. Tired from waking up early everyday. Tired from work and politics. Tired from everything. But i cant seems to rest. I feel sleep now. But gotto go prepare for work. :) Cya

i know that i have loved you ... at 10:56 am
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