Thursday, May 31, 2007
L>O>V>E
whahaha!! i tot culd go out wif her 2day de... how silly can i be ritez? lolz!! shld've noe dat she will nv keep her appointment de.... how toopid can i be? lolz!! guess u wun believe it baz... as her bf i...... such a toopid guy!! alweis gib hope den i gladly tot can go out wif her.... but i didnt... last minutes alweis more impt den me!! it juz sux!! i hate it!! lyk i'm nth to her liddat!! hate her hate her hate her!!! alweis nv spare a tot 4 me de.... it juz sux!! how can she do dat?! it was she who ask me go out de... n it was her ltr dat say she culdnt!! it juz sux man!! haish.... when will she eva understand me? feelin so cold now!! sighx!! so tired!! i wanna let her go... but ders no chance... n when i wanna let her go... sth she say will make me feel warmth again!! heaven is so unkind... why muz i fall in love wif such a person!! ts miserable!! i hate u!! i hate myself for loving u so muc!! it juz sux!! plz!! let me go!! to somewher i wun be hurt again!!
i know that i have loved you ... at 8:37 pm
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Tuesday, May 29, 2007
itS guDbyE
the time is nearin... for me to say gudbye... dear dear... sighx... her frensta alrd put single le... ytd she alrd made it beri clear le... she think dat we shldnt patch.... so wats de use? tell me? clingin on to someone dat doesnt love u.... she say she do... so wat? but the action... de words... everythin proves otherwise.... she said i'm a burden to her... i've nth left le... juz wanna wish her happiness.... maybe aft thurs... these will bcum memories... i'll definatly let her go le.... she'll be fine... so will i.... i will be fine de!! i will hide my sorrow n everything... 9mths le.... my longest... i'll be okay w/o her!! i wan her to be happy... someday,i hope she'll rmb me... i'm sorry.. it's all my fault... i'll only blame myself... take care....
i know that i have loved you ... at 2:08 pm
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Monday, May 21, 2007
A moNthS AgRe3mENt
ytd.... i beg her 4 patch.... funny?? resort to beg... dunno why... at dat instant i feel dat i reali cant dun hab her... sighx.... cried n cired... tears keep flowin dwn... finally... back tgt.... but i hab stated a 1mth agreement le.... juz 1more mth.... gimme 1mth.... to let u go slowly.... so it wun be such a torture... i'll try my best to let u go.... wun bother u... wun be toopid... wun be lyk want u show me sympaty or make u gulity... i nv n i didnt... but nvm... if dats wat she says den so be it le.... i long 4 de days wif happiness n leave tis unhappy past behind.... i wun cry for her anymore.... i dun wan to anymore... no more shall she be here torturin me.... no longer shall i torture myself by loving her.... this time when it is over... she n i are goin to be muc happier... i hope she will.... i believe she will.... sighx....
ever since ytd... cuz i nv slp.... nw havin this terrible headache.... cannt stop... i also dunno how.... sighx.... its my fault... for torturin myself.... so tired.... its time i learn to let go le.... 8mths+.... lettin u go..... its hard..... but i will.... gudbye my dear dear.....
ever since ytd... cuz i nv slp.... nw havin this terrible headache.... cannt stop... i also dunno how.... sighx.... its my fault... for torturin myself.... so tired.... its time i learn to let go le.... 8mths+.... lettin u go..... its hard..... but i will.... gudbye my dear dear.....
i know that i have loved you ... at 5:56 pm
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Sunday, May 20, 2007
AnotHer FailURe
yups.... sad day it is.... broken le... my heart... everythin she said... another failure... i tot we culd last... despo-ly holdin on.... no matter wat i wun gib up... but at last... still ended up lyk tis.... dunno wat to do now le... cryin the whole nitex.... culd slp the whole nitex.... so sick now.... but... nvm... its alrd over le!! me wun ask for patch anymore le..... wat more can i do now?? sighx.... typin this entry wif extreme sadness... no1 culd feel it.... alweis alone... wif my pillow... huggin it the whole nitex.... my only company left..... i dunid anyone else by my side le.... the sky is torn.... gudbye my only geok.... my 13th ex.... the 1 dat cause me so muc pain... sadness n happiness..... i love u....
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i know that i have loved you ... at 5:44 pm
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Friday, May 18, 2007
EQ teSt
EQ teSt
Your Score: 40
35 - 44
You have slightly above average EQ - with room to grow! You are likely sensitive to the emotional climate of the people around you - your peers, friends, family and key clients. You are well aware of the effect your behavior has on others. Still, while you may be adept at tuning into others and their needs - you must remember your own! Don't be afraid to honestly communicate these difficult needs and feelings. The world is well stocked with martyrs - it doesn't need any more! Think also about your passion for work (or whatever constitutes your main roles in life - manager of people, doer of tasks, 'meeter' of clients' needs, etc). We spend countless hours in our given roles - sometimes without much joy or satisfaction. In the process we become tranquilized by the trivial. Sedated by the small details of life. Sure, the laundry needs doing, the groceries need getting, the kids need chauffeuring, the deadlines must be knocked off, but we also need to stop and remember what gives us great joy and meaning. If we fail to remind ourselves (on a regular basis), we risk becoming hostile and cynical. We lose our purpose. And this translates to a diminished ability to be effective, at ease and fulfilled. Areas to work on: Ask yourself: - What situations generally create tension and stress for you? How are you handling these situations? - What negative thoughts play over and over in your mind on a regular basis? Are these a true picture of reality? - Are you afraid to share your needs and feelings with others? Is it because you are taking care of everyone else - being a martyr - or acting 'the strong, silent type'? What 3 things give you the greatest meaning in your life? If you work on gaining clarity in these areas, you will move toward maximizing your full potential and finding greater effectiveness, happiness, and fulfillment in your life. As William James said: I have no doubt whatever that most people live, whether physically, intellectually, or morally, in a very restricted circle of their potential being. They make use of a very small portion of their possible consciousness... much like a man who, out of his whole body organism, should get into the habit of using and moving only his little finger... We all have reservoirs of life to draw upon, of which we do not dream.
Your Score: 40
35 - 44
You have slightly above average EQ - with room to grow! You are likely sensitive to the emotional climate of the people around you - your peers, friends, family and key clients. You are well aware of the effect your behavior has on others. Still, while you may be adept at tuning into others and their needs - you must remember your own! Don't be afraid to honestly communicate these difficult needs and feelings. The world is well stocked with martyrs - it doesn't need any more! Think also about your passion for work (or whatever constitutes your main roles in life - manager of people, doer of tasks, 'meeter' of clients' needs, etc). We spend countless hours in our given roles - sometimes without much joy or satisfaction. In the process we become tranquilized by the trivial. Sedated by the small details of life. Sure, the laundry needs doing, the groceries need getting, the kids need chauffeuring, the deadlines must be knocked off, but we also need to stop and remember what gives us great joy and meaning. If we fail to remind ourselves (on a regular basis), we risk becoming hostile and cynical. We lose our purpose. And this translates to a diminished ability to be effective, at ease and fulfilled. Areas to work on: Ask yourself: - What situations generally create tension and stress for you? How are you handling these situations? - What negative thoughts play over and over in your mind on a regular basis? Are these a true picture of reality? - Are you afraid to share your needs and feelings with others? Is it because you are taking care of everyone else - being a martyr - or acting 'the strong, silent type'? What 3 things give you the greatest meaning in your life? If you work on gaining clarity in these areas, you will move toward maximizing your full potential and finding greater effectiveness, happiness, and fulfillment in your life. As William James said: I have no doubt whatever that most people live, whether physically, intellectually, or morally, in a very restricted circle of their potential being. They make use of a very small portion of their possible consciousness... much like a man who, out of his whole body organism, should get into the habit of using and moving only his little finger... We all have reservoirs of life to draw upon, of which we do not dream.
i know that i have loved you ... at 12:40 pm
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The Dating Persona Test
The GentlemanDeliberate Gentle Love Master (DGLM)
Steady & mature. You are The Gentleman.
For anyone looking for an even-keeled, considerate lover, you're their man. You're sophisticated. You know what you want both in a relationship and outside of it. You have a substantial romantic side, and you're experienced enough sexually to handle yourself in that arena, too. Your future relationships will be long-lasting; you're classic "marrying material," a prize in the eyes of many.
It's possible that behind it all, you're a bit of a male slut. Your best friends know that in relationships you're fundamentally sex-driven. You're a safe, reliable guy, who does get laid. In a lot of ways, you're like a well-worn, comfortable pair of socks. Did you ever jack off into one of those? All the time.
Steady & mature. You are The Gentleman.
For anyone looking for an even-keeled, considerate lover, you're their man. You're sophisticated. You know what you want both in a relationship and outside of it. You have a substantial romantic side, and you're experienced enough sexually to handle yourself in that arena, too. Your future relationships will be long-lasting; you're classic "marrying material," a prize in the eyes of many.
It's possible that behind it all, you're a bit of a male slut. Your best friends know that in relationships you're fundamentally sex-driven. You're a safe, reliable guy, who does get laid. In a lot of ways, you're like a well-worn, comfortable pair of socks. Did you ever jack off into one of those? All the time.
i know that i have loved you ... at 12:37 pm
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juZ aNothER Day
its juz another day in sch... so sianz sia!! nth muc to do... 2day got 3hrs break...can die... nw in the lab doin nth lorz.... alweis so sianz... waste my time only lorz.... feel lyk not goin to sch sia!! lolz!! anyway... today is geok's prelim so i wish her all de best for her GP... yups!! nth muc to write today baz....
i know that i have loved you ... at 12:06 pm
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Wednesday, May 16, 2007
a blank post!! cuz i hab nth to write!!
i know that i have loved you ... at 9:36 pm
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2day was quite a boring day lorz... mornin went to sch... den hab 4hrs of break den 1 toopid seminar... dotz!! den go home le!! dat geok arx!! msg her... call her all nv reply de!! so bad de lorz!! can reply others but me... sianz!! hate her treatin me liddat sia...
juz now admanda suddenly ask if i noe cass nt.. den i said yes... she told me things abt cass... say she got stead le n blah blah blah... i feel kinda sad.... but i noe its over le... so i wun think abt it anymore le!! she gave me alot of happy memories!! we nv quarrel b4.. she treated me reali gud.... thx u!! but its all in the past le!!
i wun look back le!! onli lookin 4ward wif my dear dear!! alweis tgt!! :D
juz now admanda suddenly ask if i noe cass nt.. den i said yes... she told me things abt cass... say she got stead le n blah blah blah... i feel kinda sad.... but i noe its over le... so i wun think abt it anymore le!! she gave me alot of happy memories!! we nv quarrel b4.. she treated me reali gud.... thx u!! but its all in the past le!!
i wun look back le!! onli lookin 4ward wif my dear dear!! alweis tgt!! :D
i know that i have loved you ... at 9:17 pm
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Monday, May 14, 2007
other ppl to thx also... wish me late de... lolz!!
KhAlis
Ju leI
dyAnA
-etc...
cannt rmb liao!!
KhAlis
Ju leI
dyAnA
-etc...
cannt rmb liao!!
i know that i have loved you ... at 4:46 pm
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Friday, May 11, 2007
mY bDaY
toDay ish my bday!! finALLY 18 Le!! oLD le lORzz!! lEts SeE 2dAy g0t Who WIsh me... muz tHx dEM 1st!! ^_^
thx
GeoK teNG
MeLISsA
NazIR
VanEsSa
Wah EnG
MabEL
Hui YaN
ShiVs
WeI WeN
LeoNarD
ZhEnG HSin
TinG TiNG
CrIStINe
JamIE
sHeNa
XinG juAn
Hui MEi
HuI miN
GrACe
WeI ShaN
ReBeCcA
CriStiNa
MeRlY Ma'Am
NaVeEn
NoRiN
J0eL
SeLINA
VaLeRiE
HuI ZhI
KE wEi
YiP ShIaNG
ShI YuN
TAkE CaRE!!
thx
GeoK teNG
MeLISsA
NazIR
VanEsSa
Wah EnG
MabEL
Hui YaN
ShiVs
WeI WeN
LeoNarD
ZhEnG HSin
TinG TiNG
CrIStINe
JamIE
sHeNa
XinG juAn
Hui MEi
HuI miN
GrACe
WeI ShaN
ReBeCcA
CriStiNa
MeRlY Ma'Am
NaVeEn
NoRiN
J0eL
SeLINA
VaLeRiE
HuI ZhI
KE wEi
YiP ShIaNG
ShI YuN
TAkE CaRE!!
i know that i have loved you ... at 7:56 pm
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Tuesday, May 08, 2007
A SaD DaYy
ytD... DAmn saD.... haIS... tot got meeTing den i waN cuM eaRLY de!! LucKY i aSK b4 dAt sIA!! thEy LAst MinuTeSs CanceL loRz!! d0tZz!! At NitE t0k to my DeaR DeaR... WE quArrEL.... We CriEd... We BrokE up!! We B0tH BrEak Dwn.... bUt noW okAy Le.... In mY hEaRt shE's NebeR G0nE... we'vE huRt EacH otHer... i'm SoRry!! AnywaY duN toK abT YtD lE bAzz!! 2Day Damn BooREd siAa!! nTH t0 Do.... thINk Fri CanT g0 ouT wif WeN n GrAcE Le.... my DeAR wAnn@ cElEbRatE WiF Me.... kinDa lyK ZhoNg shE qinG yoU bAzz?? hopE thEy'lL unDeRstaNd!! StaY haPpY baZz!!
i know that i have loved you ... at 5:41 pm
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Thursday, May 03, 2007
ThuRs BluEs
i'm so bored... yawn... at home doin nth now... 2day so sianz sia!! nth muc.. mayb cuz its in the mornin baz... dunno lehz.... hahax!! ltr hav to go sch le... till 6pm... WA!! DAMN sianz!! hate goin sch.... yawn....my life is such a bored.... yawn.... hope excitin things will happen baz!! anyway... counting dwn to my bday... abt 8more days baz?? yawn... sianz!! still hab sch on dat day... goin off le!! heheez
i know that i have loved you ... at 9:51 am
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Wednesday, May 02, 2007
FinALLy BaCk
internet finally back today le!! so happy... cuz has been so sianz these few days.... i lost de ring on mon.... sianz... so sad sia!! keep sayin sorry... i felt so guilty.... 2day go sch 4 less den 1 hr... cuz late... the bus is damn slow lorz.... den i saw cass..... n dok hui... yups!! yawn!! nth muc baz!! bday cummin le.... dunno this yr got how many present worz?? got 3 or more i beri happy le lorz! ^_^ anyway,when i blog... i'll put a song lyrics every entry!! ^_^ heheez!! cheers!!
i know that i have loved you ... at 5:12 pm
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